Hey peepS!!! I am just in here to show the sneak peek of harry potter and the half blood prince! i love it......i can't wait for it to come out to the theater...I am so booking the gold class for this....and the next movie!!!! i love it!!!! oh god....i wish i live to watch it...it's gonna show on the 21st of november 2008....I CAN'T WAIT!

I HATE THIS! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME AND WHY IS IT ONLY ME? I MEAN FATE, YOU HAVE BEEN AGAINTS ME SINCE THE DAY I COULD HAVE FRIENDS. FIRST YOU GIVE ME FRIENDS THAT CAN NEVER BE CALL ONE. AND NOW AFTER ALL THE HARD WORK I PUT IN JUST TO STAY IN THE SAME CLASS WITH M BESTEST BESTEST FRIEND EVER, YOU TAKE IT AWAY AGAIN. WHY? I KNOW YOU CAN NEVER ANSWER ME CAUSE I GUESS YOU THINK I AM NOT WORTH IT. BUT PLEASE PLEASE JUST PUT THE THINGS BACK THE WAY THEY ARE. THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON, SOME WOULD SAY....BUT WHAT'S THIS REASON? WHY AM I PAYING FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S MISTAKE? THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T MAKE IT...SHOULDN'T THEY BE THE ONE? NOT ME? AD WHY IS IT ONLY ME WHO IS SOOOOOOOO ANGRY ABOUT THIS? I CANNOT STAND THIS. I WILL NEVER EVER EVER GET OVER THIS. EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!11

OK you guys....u noe lately I have been crazy for Joe Jonas....Now I take that back!!!!!!! I ma back to the harry potter world...but not daniel....no no no.....I do not in any way thinks he's hot!!!! Not ever. Kinda disgusting if U take a look at his LEG HAIR! it's total disgusting. I am sooooooo INTO RUPERT GRINT!!!! he's sooooo hot! so handsome!!!! wanna marry him!!!!! RUPERT GRINT IS MY HUSBAND NOW!

Hey peeps!!!! Look at that! It's the Jonas Brothers!!! I love them....hehehhe ok no....more like I am in love with JOE JONAS...he is the one that is acting as a ghost!!! He is soooooo hot! I love him...He's the perfect man...HE'S HANDSOME, TALENTED AND FUNNY! I wanna be with him...and guess what he's a Christian devotee...this means he's understand that sex is a sacred thing...soooooo perfect! I LOVE HIM!

Chapter 11
Carla left Haikal standing stunned as she chase after Daniel who was walking in a fast speed. Her heels were slipping out but still Carla continued running. She cursed herself for letting someone else touch her. What was wrong with her? How could she be so easy? Carla could feel tears streaming down her cheeks and her mascara was ruin but she did not care. She had to explain herself to Daniel. But what was there to explain? Everything was as clear as water. Carla kissed Haikal; a person she just met. Finally, Daniel was getting close. Carla ran as if her life depended on it and grabbed Daniel’s arm. Daniel jerked it away; he did not even want to look at Carla when she finally chased him. Daniel’s cheek was wet too.
“It’s over.” Daniel said. Carla could not believe her ears. Her heart seemed to have stopped pumping because she seemed to be running out of oxygen. Suddenly, her hand felt numb and they were curling into a fist unwillingly. Her legs started to shake and Carla fell on her knees. She could not breath. Her body was jerking. Daniel was shocked and shook Carla who was jerking out of control. Daniel bend down on his knees as Carla jerked more. She seemed to be having a seizure. Daniel shouted for help but no one was there. Suddenly a guy came running in. It was the guy that kissed Carla just now. Daniel could feel his whole body tensed up but he must control is anger for Carla sake. The guy came running and went down on his knees.
“What happened?” the guy asked.
“I don’t know. Carla can you hear me? Carla, what’s wrong?” Daniel was in panic mode. Carla seemed to become purple. She could not breath and her body was still jerking. The guy ran towards the club. Daniel did not know what to do. He felt himself being so helpless and useless. Suddenly, the guy came back with a paper bag in his hands. He opened it and put it over Carla’s mouth.
“Carla can you hear me? I need you to breath in the bag ok? Now come on, slowly,” Daniel looked from the guy to Carla, she seemed to be struggling just to breath but as she tried, her body had stop jerking but her hands was still in a tight fist, “Daniel, I need you to help un-fist her.”
Daniel pry opened Carla’s hand slowly. She seemed to be regaining some control of her body. When, finally, both hands are opened, Daniel looked at Carla. She has gotten her breathing into pace although she still looked a little flushed. Out of the blue, Carla body went limb and she fainted. Daniel panic mode came in like an overdrive. She shook Carla so hard as if she was sleeping. Daniel felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Stop. She just fainted. We need to send her to the hospital, do you drive?” Haikal asked.
“What is wrong with her? How come she fainted?” Daniel said as he calm down.
“She just hyper ventilate although I must say that I have never seen such a serious case. She must be really scared or anxious. Her body reacted that way because she was having too much carbon dioxide in her body. Come on, let’s go. We have to bring her to the hospital quick. We’ll freeze to death if we don’t get out of here soon. Can you carry her?” The guy said as he stood up. Daniel carried Carla and stood up.
“Who are you?”
“My name is Haikal. I am a doctor working in the hospital nearby. Quick, we need to get her there.” Haikal said as he quickened his pace to get to his car. Daniel was having a hard time trying to move faster with Carla in his arms. However, Daniel quickened his pace to get Carla to the hospital. Finally Daniel reached his car. He tried to find a way of getting his keys but with Carla in his arms he was finding it impossible.
“Do you want a ride?” Haikal shouted from the other part of the car park. Daniel wanted to say no; this was the man that Carla kissed. But he still carried Carla and move towards Haikal’s car. Haikal opened his back passenger door and Daniel put Carla on the seat. Daniel went in beside her and shut the door. Haikal stick the key in the ignition and started the engine. Daniel looked at Carla and felt a twinge of guilt in his heart; if he had only been rationale and not give in to his anger. He was pretty sure Carla was about to explain herself and why she had give into temptation. Daniel felt like slapping himself, if only he had not been a jerk, none of the things that happened that night would happened.
Finally, after a ten minutes drive and silence, they reached the hospital. Haikal seem to already inform the hospital cause the nurses was out with the stretchers. They opened the door and pick Carla up to put her on the stretcher bed. Daniel went out after that but by that time, the nurses were already pushing Carla into the hospital. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Daniel looked over and saw Haikal smiling.
“She’s going to be alright. Don’t worry.” Haikal said.
“Thanks.”
“No problem. It is the least I could do to make it up for all the trouble I caused. By the way, whatever you saw between Carla and me, it was I who initiated the kiss. Not her.” With that Haikal walked into the hospital leaving a stunned Daniel behind.
Carla could feel her head pounding against her skull. She tried to message it but her hand felt heavy as if it was tied down. Suddenly she felt a smooth hand on her cheek. Carla slowly opened her eyes to find Daniel smiling down at her. She felt her spirit being lifted.
“Hey, babe.” Daniel said as he sat down beside her on the bed.
“Hey, what happened?” Carla asked as she tried to move her hands. They seemed to be not hers because she was still unable to move them. Daniel touched her hands and, like miracle, Carla could feel his tender touch on her skin. She stopped worrying about her hands and looked up at Daniel. Memories came rushing through Carla’s head like a train. She remembered clearly what happened. Tears welled up her eyes as she search the words for forgiveness but now she seem to be unable to find her voice.
“Babe, don’t cry. It’s ok, I know what happened that night. I don’t blame you. The fault lies in me and you. We put it in the past and move on. I love you, Carla. So much. I don’t want to lose you again.” Daniel said as he caressed Carla’s face with a finger. He leaned in closer and, finally, his lips touches hers. Carla felt as if Daniel energy was given to her through the kiss. Her body felt alive and she kissed him back with all her heart. She felt as if the truly understood each other and she understands that even love has it’s flaws but sometimes one just have to live with the flaws to experience it’s wonders. Just like she was experiencing it now.

wow....i am an angel!

What's Your Goddess Identity?

My Result: Angel

Just like the haloed and winged guardians of good, you truly have a heart of gold, sweet Angel. Whenever there's a chance to pitch in, save the day or just make life easier for the people around you, you're the one for the job.

You don't just jump in without planning — you use your angelic head to figure out how to do things right the first time, like only the most dependable goddesses can. Whether brainstorming a new solution to a problem, planning a surprise party for your parents, or lending your friends a wing to cry on, you've got the right instincts, so follow them whenever you can. As natural as it is for you to take care of the people around you, don't forget to treat yourself right, too. The best friendships, and loves, of a lifetime tend to blossom when you become your own guardian angel.

So don't listen to those who say nice girls finish last. People have always seen you as a goddess of thoughtfulness and good intentions, and it hasn't slowed you down a bit. All in all, Angel, you've got it made with your glowing attitude and ability to see from on high. So get out there and change the world!

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Whoa.....SETH..the guy of my freaking dreams...

Who's Your OC Crush?

My Result: Seth

Dorky? Maybe. Loveable? Totally! What's not to love about this cutie? A smarty like you looks beneath the surface, and that's why only a brainy hottie like Seth will do as your OC crush.


Sensible and responsible, you've got a good head on your shoulders, and you use it. Maybe you've been called wise for your years. Many famous folks were ahead of their times in high school, and you'll probably be one of them. So keep doing things in your own unique style. You're well on your way to great things. And it might be even better if you have an equally-awesome crush to have fun with along the way!

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TO MY FRIENDS...READ THIS...IT'S LIKE SO TRUE THAT IT IS FREAKING ME OUT!

What's Your Trademark Tune?

My Result: Britney Spears' "(You Drive Me) Crazy"

Flirty and fun, you get a kick out of catching someone's eye (like you know who) and being in the center of it all. Good thing you've got the looks, personality, and sense of humor to pull it all off. You go crazy for the opposite sex, and it's just as easy for people to fall in love with you and your fun-loving attitude.


A great asset to any gathering, you've got the confidence to strike up conversations with strangers and make anyone feel welcome. That rocks!

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You know....I want people to know that I am confused myself. I don't know who I am yet. So here's how I describe myself:
I am beyond beauty. I am the beholder of pain. I am selfish. I am kind. I am different and i am the same. i am shy and quiet and i am loud. I want to sky high and i want to go to the deepest ocean. I love being me and i hate myself. I loved, lost, bruised, burnt and died and i am still breathing. CONFUSED? well, so am i...

See...I don't even get what I am talking about.

So...I bet you want to know what happened...but I will put it under classified, people. I am really sorry... Anyway, it's best for no one to know. Only I confided in Isabella....and Raz. I dunno why I chose these two people so much. Maybe their friendship is one that I have not experience before. Thanks babe. Anyway I want to talk about the heartbreakers. You have to give some credit to these people. Not all of them. The one who has reason to break your heart. The ones who did because they have to be cruel to be kind. Those people out there should be blessed and thanked for. They made the people they love get a better life. That's good. Not all heartbreakers are bad. It's better they break your heart now then you climb that dumb ladder of hope, right? I hope I get this message across.

P.S....
I have never been a heartbreaker yet. I am just talking generally.

Well...today's mood is pretty weird. I really don't know what to feel. The post-confession day is not going on sooo well. The guy I confessed to..he's a friend. I don't regret what I did. I hope it doesn't touch our friendship though...it will not be good. He's a great friend...not willing to lose him. But I had to do what's right for me....and I did it. I confessed. Directly. On the phone. Bad. I know. He was speechless. Asked me to give him to figure it out. I gave in. Haven't talk to him yet. Respecting his decision. Wondering.........

Anyway, I am confuse myself. I don't what to do. Feeling incomplete. Do I have the strength enough for all this? I hope. If not. Someone please rescue me. Now.

What's up people.....so far chapter ten is receiving goooooooooooooood feedback! Well that's good lah...considering that I tooooook sooooooo Looooooooooonnnnnngggg to write it...thanks to Christine ...she put a little spice in my thinking! Thanks babe.....Do not worry, your name will be in the book. PROMISE. I guess you guys are waiting for chapter 11...I worte it halfway...you guys are in for a BIG surprise! I like what I wrote so far...it's kinda bring a little flava to the story line.
So anyway, I have a HUGE story to tell today. Yesterday, we prank our BIRTHDAY BOY, NAZIRUL!!!!!! hahahaha...it was the first prank the was sooo successful!!! I should have really record it. Naz reaction was the cherry on top of the ice cream! PERFECTO! So here's how the story goes....Firstly, we wanted to so-called meet him...so we told him if he could hang out and so he said yes...I think so far....anyway back to the story....so at first i met raz and haf....we bought a DOME CHOCOLATE CAKE, it was the best cake we seen so far...it should have been my BIRTHDAY CAKE!!! But, sadly, it was NAZ.....hahahah then the three of us decided to call naz...Haf, being the great actress, called him.
So at first, she pretended to act panic when naz pick up the phone....then he told her to calm down...so she pretended to calm down and told him to come down Raz house...because "something" happened....and so he said he will come soon.....we waited for like 3 hours lah...hahahha ok lah that would be lying but i think we waited for quite sometimes....before he came we planned calmly how to surprise him but when he finally came, hahahah we went chaotic like hell! It was really a huge mess lah...but he knocked first...good etiquette NAZ..so haf was about to open the door when I grabbed her hand to just shout "come in"....and when he came in he told us he was terrified because the room was chilly..the aircon was on to add to the 'depressing' atmosphere....when we finally shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I think NAZ knees gave way and he just drop to the floor...at first we thought he was pissed....but nah...he was just really surprised! I LOVE IT! should try next year again.....this time i wonder who's going to get it....hahahahaha(evil laughter)
TO NAZ>>>>>>DO NOT FORGET YOU O US!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA

Carla spent the whole day alone and in peace. She relaxed her muscles by lying down on her hotel bed. She had looked at her result slip again and again making sure that she was not being deceived. Carla smiled at the thought of being able to take her GCE A examination and complete it and go to college. Carla kept on smiling until her door bell rang. Carla got up off her bed to open the door.
“Hey, Carla, I have good news for you.” Jenny said as she went it. Carla looked at her sitting down on the bed.
“What?” Carla asked.
“Well, I have got projects lining up for you. You can pick one for the summer holidays then you can go back to acting Behind The Scene 2. You can read the script and choose, ok?”
Carla picked up the scripts on her bed which was laid by Jenny. There were five scripts altogether. She seems to be in demand right after the movie she made. Jenny went rushing out of the room without even telling Carla. Carla picked up one the scripts and started reading it. The first script was not interesting. The second one was a disaster; it was so clichéd. The third was the jackpot. Carla loved the story line. It was an action movie, this could be the movie to prove how versatile she was as an actress. Carla pushed the other scripts on the floor and examined the script she chose. It was an interesting script and Carla thought it was amazing that she was chosen for the lead character. Carla read and read and she kept on reading until someone came knocking on the door. This brought Carla back to reality. She went to the door to open it, it was Daniel. With flowers.
“Daniel!” Carla exclaimed as she threw herself on him. She never realised how much she missed him until he was right in front of her.
“Congratulations. I heard from Jenny, you did well. Can I see it?” Daniel asked when they both pulled away. Carla nodded and pulled Daniel in the room. She searched for her certificate and found it under her pillow. She was about to hand it to Daniel but Daniel was looking at the script on the floor.
“Daniel? Here it is - my results.” Carla handed the little piece of paper to Daniel. He took it and read it. His facial expression was impassive. Carla could not make out if he was impressed or disappointed.
“Wow, this is really good. I am really proud of you.” Daniel said and without any warning, Daniel kissed her. Carla felt herself, once again, flying. Shooting through the air although she was standing still on the solid ground. Finally, the both of them pulled away. Daniel sat down on the bed while Carla sat on his lap, sideways. Daniel picked up the script that was on her bed. He looked at it for a while. Carla was at a loss; she didn’t know how to tell him that it was a script she had chosen or not because at that point Daniel looked kind of shocked. Carla tapped his shoulder to get his attention again. This time he seemed to be angry.
“Who offered you this?” Daniel asked, the softness of his voice was gone.
“I don’t know. Jenny brought it to me. There are others but I think this is the best script so far. It’s a action movie.” Carla said excitedly. Suddenly, Daniel eased her off his lap. Carla was stunned by the movement.
“Daniel, are you ok?”
“What do you think?” Daniel said as he paced around the room with the script in his hands. He was reading it with a tinge of violence; if by the flipping of the pages is any indication. Carla felt scared, she had never seen this side of Daniel before.
“There’s a romance scene in this movie.”
“So?”
“What do you mean by ‘so’? There’s a romance scene in this movie. I don’t want you to take it. Take some other script.” Daniel demanded. Carla was taken aback, where did this Daniel came from? He was being so very idiotic right then. Who was he to stop her from taking the script that she wanted. Carla stood up from the bed and folded her arms.
“I am sorry that you don’t like it. But that’s not my problem, it’s yours. Why are you being so selfish? This is the time that I can finally shine with a different role and all you can think about that there is romance scene. I bet you’ve already been-
“No! I have not. Nobody came to offer me anything. You stole my career away. Everyone is talking about you, you and you!” Daniel interrupted, shouting at Carla for the very first time. Carla felt her heartbeat stop. Then she could feel tears shooting down from her eyes right down her cheeks. She could not believe her ears, did Daniel just say she was the cause of his popularity degrading? Carla wanted to leave Daniel at that point of time and almost was walking out of the door when she realized that it was her room. Instead of walking out, Carla held on to the opened door.
“Get out, Dan. I can’t do this. Just go.” Daniel left without even looking back.

Carla was sitting down in the club. Music blasting all around and people dancing like having sex vertically. However it did not made Carla want to dance at all. She had a bad day today and so far it was not getting any better. Daniel did not apologize and she was waiting for it to no avail. Carla still could not believe that Daniel was such an idiot. The atmosphere in the club was doing nothing to Carla’s mood except that she noticed there was a cute guy looking at her, checking her out, since she entered the club. He was tall, toned and handsome. Not to mention a cute butt. But she was putting on her guard for Daniel although the tall, toned and handsome dude was really getting her attention. Suddenly he made his move to come to her. Carla breath was caught in her through. Carla kept her eyes on the new shoes that she just bought, her heart thumping like mad.
“Hey, can I buy you a drink?” said tall, toned and handsome guy.
“Oh, I already have one. What’s your name?” Carla asked as she slid sideways to make space for him to sit down.
“My name is Haikal. You’re the actress, right? I saw your movie, it’s really awesome. I bet it’s nominated for an award soon.” Carla could not help but blush at his comments. If he looked hot far away, he was looking hotter not. Carla did not want to flirt back but she really couldn’t help it.
“So, you’re not intimidated?”
“No, cause if I was, I can’t ask you to dance.” Haikal took her hand and led her to the dance floor. They dance like there was no tomorrow. Finally, Daniel was out of her mind and Carla felt great for the moment. She felt free. Haikal was a great dancer too. He was a gentleman and did not invade her privacy. When both of them were out of breath, they finally took a breather outside the club.
“That was fun.” Haikal said as he let go of Carla’s hand.
“Yup it was. I really had fun.”
“Me too.” Haikal leaned in closer, Carla could feel his breath on her face. She did not want to kiss him because Daniel’s face keeps popping up but she really wanted to feel his lips against her; what he tastes like. His lips touched hers and there was just that. Carla did not felt anything. No fireworks. Nothing at all. Carla pulled away, she stood there shocked and terrified.
“What’s wrong?” Haikal asked when he saw her face expression. Carla’s brain was racing as if it was in a marathon. Everything was wrong. Daniel was just standing behind Haikal.

Ok....so I guess I should apologise for not updating for so long. Keeping you guys from chapter 10.....SO SO SO sorry. I still have yet to come out with a plot...don't worry, I am not giving up. The story will come out for your viewing pleasure. Anyways, I have read this really great book...hahahaha don't act surprise, y'all. I do read other books and not only Harry Potter.....This book is called CHLOE DOE, it's a novel by Suzanne Phillips. It's a really good book. You get to see the lives on the streets. How it is really like. Why they do it and how lonely one can get on the streets. It's quite touching as you venture into the life of Chloe. She's such a strong character that would make an impact in your life. She's strong and she never shed a tear...well at least on the part that I have so far read.....She's quite amazing.

Well, anyway, Chapter 10 will be up soon...JUST HANG IN THERE PEEPS.

TO CHRISTINE> I HAVE UPDATED, NOW YOURS.

Mood: Exremely sad......

It's funny people keep coming to me for advice when I am in a wreck myself. I amazed myself when I hear myself givng these advice to other people, I feel like everytime I do that, I have an outer body exprience. It's like I am seeing this girl who is mature and wise talking and it's not me. I hear the advice I give and yet I, myself, could never apply it in real life. Like for example, love the way I am....I do....But in the end I get bruised. I don't feel appreaciated. Nobody seem to even care that I cried just not. My sis was so rude to me....and amazingly I did not retort. I just told her that she spoilt my mood...and she didn't even apologized. She just went out of the room...I could not hold back the tears of dissappointment. I guess, there will be more tomorrow after I get back my papers. I feel so bumped....so hurt...so underappreaciated...so lonely...so lost.... I wished somebody would just listen and understand and let me cry on their shoulders.....but here I am....Keeping to myself.. I hate my life right now.


I DON'T DESERVE THIS.

Will somebody hear me out?
I feel like screaming and crying
But my voice is not coming out
Please help me, I cannot find it.

Why am I alone again?
Why is it so hard for me?
Why am I the one feeling this pain?
I don't deserve this.

Alone seem to be my middle name.
It feels like I am in a never-ending game.
Everybody looks at me the same.
So useless and pointless.

Sometimes I feel I hate this girl.
The one I see in the mirror.
Yet, she's begging me to love her.
I cannot put her through more hurt.

I don't deserve this.
Would somebody understand, please?

Hmm....so I am still stuck with Chapter 10...but no worries I will find something to come out with. Yeah, so carla is in deep shit soon...Maybe I should put her in real mortal danger!!!!!! Life or death situation.....Then Daniel would be in deep shit tooo.....and then....well I guess that would be a great IDEA! It's not predictable at all......well now I am telling, it might be. LOL.

So what do we talked about today?
Well, I don't know....oh maybe friendship? Yeah I think today would be a great dayto talk about that. Isabella told me somthing really wise.
YOU CANNOT QUIT ON YOUR FRIENDS
Boy, isn't that true? I was about to do just that to one of my friend and I was soooo stubborn to just give on this particular friend. Because I believe I deserve a better friend. But I guess if I were to do that, I would be doing exactly the same thing what my old friends done to me. I don't want to be that person, so I guess I just have to be a friend.

People should know that when you meet a friend, you didn't sent in a resume. So you have no right to quit on that friends. NO RIGHT AT ALL. So you can never walk away from them. I would never do that. A person who does that is someone who is unimaginable and cruel. Can you imagine of someone doing that?

I DID NOT THINK SO.

Hmm....so what's up peeps....As you guys can see....chapter 10 is not out yet. This is because I am running out of ideas u guys...I need help....so please give me ideas?
I can't believe this....but if you help me... I swear i will put your name if my book get's published (as if!)hahaha
Anyway, I am damn piss lah right now. But I don't think I should vent my anger here. Ain't a smart move. Next thing I will know some policemen knocking on my door saying I have said something inappropriate...and I go to jail. And I will be gone from this world. So much for FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
So what's going on with me..Nothing much i guess....Promos is over and now it's like i already run the race an waiting for the result. Today an outing got cancel so i just stay at home and do nothing...hahaha. What have you guys been doing???? Wait.....WHAT? you r doing nothing toooooo????? wowow!!
OK i think i better not blog in today....i am full of B.S..
sadly i already am...
shit.

So here I am. What do I talk today. Ohh...I have one real good topic. Today's topic is about LOVE....ahhhhh don't worry...it's not the cliche love that everyone wants. It's the love that is so hard to understand. Heck, i do not understand it either. It's the love for ourselves. The one that we do not give enough to ourselves. This is sad.

Its so hard for one to get love. Even harder is the fact that we do not love ourselve enough to get love. How can one love someone else when you don't love yourself? You hurt your heart for love you think you deserve. You put the suppose "love" before yourself. Isn't that being selfish to your own self. Someone who actually deserve your love is yourself. Make your life, your life. Do not make her or him your life. You deserve to be selfish sometimes to love yourself. Nobody deserve to get hurt. So I guess this is what I am trying to say. LOVE YOURSELF.

When you don't understand.

There is this boy and this girl I knew.
They fall In love In front of me.
They said they love each other, so true.
And yet they don't understand
The reason why they are not together.

Falling in love was not enough.
They still could not be with each other.
They had other obligations, other 'reason'.
The girl dug a deeper hole to fall in.
The boy climbed higher on the ladder of hope,
Knowing he will fall one day.

So how can they be in love?
They don't even love themselves.
They're being selfish.
Going into 'hurt' with open arms.
When you don't understand.
This is what happened.
When you don't start loving you.
You're going to end up as lonely.
Forever.
Unhappy.
Too.

Wow. I am nineteen. Happy Birthday to me. It's supposed to be the happiest day of my life....but I don't feel happy. I am actually holding back the tears. Why am I feeling lonely? especially on this day? It's so hard...I cannot explain why every year, I get emotional on my birthday. I feel so lonely, I envy people who are so happy with what they have. They're so content. I have none. I have great friends but still....somebody please slap me. Maybe because in this house only my dad wished me Happy Birthday. Even my sister did not wait to wish me. She just slept. Ok, maybe I am finding fault in everything, I can't help it. Promos is in the next two days. I hope I make it to next year.



I miss you. I seriously do. I still think of you. It's been 2 years. No one has replace you yet.

Carla sniffed as she wiped her tears; she was watching her favourite movie, ‘A Walk To Remember.’ Carla felt that it was the best movie made all time. It was touching and sincere. The movie always made her cry; no matter how many times she watched it. When, finally, ‘Landen’ asked ‘Jamie’ to marry him; Carla cried some more. She wondered when that day was going to happen to her. She looked at her cell phone; it still was just showing her the wallpaper. She sigh; she had already text messaged Daniel saying that she was sorry. She guesses that it wasn’t enough as the evidence was that Daniel did not even reply her. Carla tried calling but it was ignored. In the end Carla just gave up and started to watch the movie that was already ending right then.
Suddenly, somebody knocked on her door. Carla, who was wiping her tears stood up to open the door. She was so shocked to see the person standing at the door that she froze, the tissue still on one of her eyes. Daniel stood there, slightly amused and slightly guilty look on his face.
“Daniel, I tried calling you but you did not answer. I text you but I guess you did not received it. There must be something wrong with the reception because you did not reply me.” Carla stopped to take her breath but before she could even continue, Daniel spoke.
“Are you going to let me in? Or am I suppose to stand outside all night?” Daniel asked, smiling at her. Carla moved aside from the door to let Daniel in. She closed the door once he was inside the room. Carla followed and sat beside him on the bed. Daniel touched her hand and holds it in his. Carla just looked at him, she couldn’t find any words to say to him.
“I am sorry.” Daniel said with a sigh.
“No, it’s ok.”
“No it’s not. I know it’s been hard on you and I should have known.” Daniel had let go of her hand, Carla looked for signs in his eyes but it was impassive. Was he going to break up with her? Was it even a break up if you only had one day of that relationship?
“Are you breaking up with me?” Carla let out her thoughts to Daniel. She could not handle being clueless any longer. If he wanted to end it, he should just say it and not beat around the bush. Carla did not think she can go through the ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ break up speech.
“Of course not, how can you think that? I love you, Carla.” Carla’s heart skipped a beat. Daniel just said the ‘L’ word. It seemed like in that year, she could not believe what had already happened. Daniel looked at her as if wanting her to say something but, as it always happen, Carla seemed to be out of words again. So Daniel took his chance to explain.
“Yes, I know it’s hard to believe but I love you, Carla. No paper, no rumour and no other girl can change the way I feel for you. I am not going to ask you to bare with all these nonsense that will be appearing as long as we are together but I just need you to trust in me. Have a little faith in me and yourself, babe.” Daniel said as he stroke Carla’s hair. She felt herself smile and glow. It was amazing to hear Daniel soothe her, calming her. Daniel took her face in his hand and pushed her gently to him and like magic, they kissed. Carla thought she heard fireworks working in her head. It was like as if her brain circuit was blown away every time Daniel lips touched hers. She could feel Daniels hands wrapping around her waist. She gripped on his shoulders for support when the kiss went to mind blowing over-drive. If she hadn’t hold on, she was pretty sure she would have fallen even though she was sitting. Finally, after ages or aeons or at the speed of lightning; Carla could never tell, they broke apart. Carla opened her eyes and look at Daniel’s face. He was beaming at her like a small child given a sweet.
“Why are you smiling at me like that?” Carla asked as she pushed away gently but Daniel did not let go.
“Do you know that you drive me wild every time we kissed? I mean, seriously.”
“Of course, I am a wild girl.” The both of them laughed. Daniel looked at the television, still holding on to Carla. Then Carla rested her head on his chest and let out a deep sigh.
“I am so glad we’re together.” Daniel hugged her even tighter.
When Carla woke up, she was so happy to see Daniel’s face facing her. He was still in deep sleep; he decided to sleep with her. When she says sleep, she really meant sleep. In the literal form. Carla just lie on her side of her bed and stared into Daniel’s sleeping face, taking every inch of his face with her eyes. The masculine jaw he had, the eyes that were big though they were tight shut at that moment, the lips that always send shockwave throughout her body whenever it was in contact with her lips. Carla smiled; how could she ever thought that it was a heavy price to pay to be his girlfriend? She felt herself so light at that moment. Carla got up from her bed to make some tea, she was feeling the need to rejuvenate. She took one last look at Daniel and walked to the kitchen that was in her suite room.
Carla sipped the tea while reading the newspaper. There was another news about Daniel and her but she did not let it get to her. Suddenly, she felt Daniel kissed her cheek. She looked up, Daniel was beaming at her.
“Nice sleep?” Carla asked as Daniel sat down and poured himself some tea.
“Yeah, it was great. I dream about my mother.”
“Hmm.... maybe you miss her?” Daniel shook his head at this suggestion. Carla could not understand why Daniel would change the topic every time they came too close on the topic of Daniel’s mother. But Carla only shrugged and continued to read the article about Daniel and her. Then, after a few minutes of silent, the door was knocked. Carla got up and opened the door; it was Jenny.
Jenny said hi to Daniel who merely waved back, then she dragged Carla away from Daniel to get a privacy chat.
“What is he doing here?” jenny asked, concern etched on her face.
“He slept here last night. Don’t get me wrong, we just really slept.” Carla explained. jenny sat down one the bed and looked at Carla seriously. Carla shifted her gaze; she felt as if she was being scanned for the truth. Even though Carla knew that she was telling the truth, it was still uncomfortable.
“Anyway, I am here to bring you news. You GCEs result are out. You will receive it in the later afternoon today. So you have to meet me at five o’clock.” Carla felt her heartbeat stopped. She could not breath. The result was out; now she would know if she could continue with college. She remembered when she was in the examination hall, taking the test. At that point, it all seemed quite easy, now thinking about it, she could have done a whole lot of mistake. She didn’t know, she didn’t had the time to check.
The day went by as if time was bewitched to move two times faster than usual. Carla just had another full day of interviews. She kept giving up wrong answers as she was not concentrating. She felt like that day was the worst day of her life and yesterday’s confusion was nothing compared to the confusion she was feeling at that very moment. Carla breath in slowly as she press the lift button. She waited for a whole of one minute, finally, the lift came. Carla pressed the level where jenny’s room was situated; level 5. When Carla reached at the front door of Jenny’s room, she was still contemplating on whether she should know it. Did she really wanted to know her result? But before she could answer that question, Jenny opened the door. The envelope at one hand.
“Come in, then I will give you this.” Jenny said as she shook the hand that held the letter of result. Carla could not talk, nevertheless, she went in. Carla sat on the edge as Jenny sat beside her and gave her the letter. Carla took it and stared at it as if it could be torn itself.
“Open it! Come on, carla. It can’t be that bad.” Jenny said, excited. Carla slowly tore of the envelope. When it was open enough to take out the letter, carla, once again, just stared at the content. Jenny gave her a litte nudge.
“So this is it, huh?” carla said in a whisper.
“Come on, just read it. Get over it.”
Carla took out her result slip and stared at it with all her brain power, drinking all of the words on the little piece of paper. Tears started to well up her eyes.
GCSEs RESULT SLIP
CARLA DIANNE GARNER HAS ACHIEVED
ENGLISH A*
MATHEMATICS A*
SCIENCE/ BIOLOGY B
FRENCH A
ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS A*
HISTORY A*
“Oh my god, carla. This is real good.” Jenny said after reading the result with carla. Carla wiped off the tears of joy that slipped down her cheeks. She could not believed that her dream had came true. She had enough to go take her GCE A. Carla was so overwhelmed with happiness that she gave Jenny a hug which was return. She felt really great; the day was turning out better that she had expected.

Yo what's up, people? I feel so good! hahaha! I think chapter 8 is great.I have finished it. I hope you guys like it....My editors ( U NOE WHO U ARE) tell me what you think, ok?
so here it is, you guys.

Chapter 8
Carla woke up with bliss; she had so much fun yesterday at the after-movie party. She remembered dancing with Sophia who was a great dancer. Sophia was so surprised with the news that Daniel and Carla was a couple that she went to asked Carla; demanding to know whether it was true.
“Yeah, It’s true.” Carla remembered saying. Sophia gave Carla a big sisterly hugged after Carla said that. It was as if in Carla’s happiness lies Sophia’s happiness as well. Carla smiled as she reminisces last night. She looked at the clock on her night table; it was eight o’clock. Carla got out of her bed to go to the bathroom. She had to attend a conference about the movie in two hours time; she had better be ready for it. Carla thanked the heaven silently in her heart for the casualness that is allowed for the conference; she still remembered the hassle she had gone through just for the movie premier yesterday. It was something she did not want to go through ever again.
Carla got out of the bathroom after an hour of soaking herself in the warm water. She felt rejuvenated and fresh however when she looked at her clock, she panic a little. She was going to be really late of she did not get dress soon. Carla quickly slipped on her khaki pants and her shirt. She did nothing to her hair except combed it, with a last bit of putting lip gloss, Carla went out of her suite, rushing.
Just as she was rushing to the lift, Carla’s mother got out of her room.
“Mom, I am so glad I get to see you!” Carla exclaimed as she hugged her mother. Mrs. Garner hugged her daughter back, tightly. Carla let go and looked up at the face that always give her calmness and harmony.
“Go, honey, before jenny screams downstairs and report a missing person case to the police.” Mrs. Garner said, jokingly. Carla slapped her forehead. She forgot about her promised she made to jenny last night. She had promised to meet her at the lobby by nine in the morning. It was already half past nine. Carla rushed down by stairs, luckily her room was situated on the third floor. When, finally, she reached the lobby, she found jenny sitting in one of the sofas in the lobby reading the newspaper.
“Oh my god, Jenny, I am so sorry. I really forgot about this meeting with you.” Carla apologised. She sat on the sofa in front of Jenny’s. Jenny was still reading the newspaper intently, was this a sign that Jenny was, finally angry, with Carla? Jenny had never once scolded Carla for her mistake. She was always an encouraging friend. Carla just sat there, breathing in the awkward air that surrounded Jenny and her. Finally, Jenny looked up.
“You should read this.” Jenny said as she passed the newspaper to Carla. Carla looked at the front page. She could not believe her eyes or the picture that was in the front page. It was the picture of Daniel and herself kissing with Emma Watson picture beside it. If the picture was bad enough, Carla was in for a rough surprise, the headline said; ‘HAS DANIEL LOST HIS MIND?’ Carla did not understand the heading. Lost his mind? What could that possibly mean, Carla thought to herself. After reading the sub headline, comprehension started to dawn her. She held back her tears as she read more, drinking poison about her written in the news paper.
HAS DANIEL LOST HIS MIND?
Daniel Choose an ugly duckling to a swan?
Yesterday was a big day for the cast of ‘Behind The Scene’ , the premier of the movie was a major success. With the line up of fans in front of the theatre even before the movie aired would be more than evidence. ‘Behind The Scene’ is a story worthy to watch by anyone from the young age to anyone who has wrinkles coming out of control. It shows the mature side of Daniel Radcliffe and, yes, he can act other role just as well as he act harry potter. It was also a big day for new comer, Carla Garner, her performance wowed the audience like never before. You can see that she is passionate for acting and that could be the reason why Daniel Radcliffe chose her to be his girlfriend.
That’s true, people. He declared yesterday that Carla garner is his girlfriend. But why did he chose somebody who is nothing compared to Emma Watson? Who is just as passionate about acting and who is much more beautiful.
Carla could not read any longer. She felt her eyes stinging but still she held back the tears that were threatening to come out and pour down her cheeks. She looked at Jenny who was looking at her with a look of disgust and sympathy. Carla wanted to laugh at her expression; how could anyone have both of the expression on their faces at once. Jenny took the paper away from Carla’s hands.
“Well, I think that is all bull. I cannot believe that London times even let that crap get published.”
“It’s true, isn’t it? Emma is prettier than me. I should have known, Jenny. It is the price I have to pay being Daniel’s girl. Now the conference is going to be about why Daniel chose me. I feel sick...” Carla said as she touched her forehead, “am I having a fever?”
“Carla, don’t be ridiculous. You’re going to the conference and you’re not backing out. Don’t be so paranoid; trust in yourself, Daniel likes you. He chose you. He didn’t even chose, Emma was not his girlfriend and she won’t be. You can’t let the rumours get to you; you’ve got to be strong.”
If that was supposed to make Carla feel better, it did not once she was in the conference room. Not only was she bombarded with questions that were so irrelevant to the movie but she was getting paranoid at everything including Daniel. Every time she tried to get Daniel’s eye, he seemed to be avoiding her gaze. Was it true that Daniel has second thoughts? Or was it just her that realized Daniel did not look at her the whole time they were there. Carla was so deep in her thoughts that she did not hear the question that was for her until Mr. Dean nudged her.
“Oh, I am so sorry. What’s your question again?” She asked the reporter who was standing with a pen and notepad in her hands.
“How it feels being able to act in such a major production and being chosen from all the other girls that auditioned?”
“I have to say it feels really amazing. When I came to the open casting in London, there were so many other girls who were dying to get the role. When I found out that I was selected, I was thrilled and surprised at the same time. Now that I have acted in this movie, I can’t wait for the second movie to be film.” Carla finished. Finally, Daniel looked at her and wink. Carla smiled. All hope was not lost, then.
After the conference, the actors were lead out of the room to another room where they were supposed to give a one to one interview. Carla was feeling a little squeamish, she did not want to go through the whole Emma vs. Carla questions; she had enough for the day. She decided to skip the whole one to one interview and was about to walk out of the room when suddenly Daniel took her hands whilst she was walking.
“Where are you going?” he asked.
“I can’t stand this, Daniel. All the question about Emma and you. Questions that is irrelevant to the movie, about being your girlfriend. How can you stand that? People asking you why you pick me? The girl who is nothing compared to the great Emma Watson. Not that she’s not nice but still, you know.” Carla said. She hated that she sounded so pitiful but she could not help but feel a little depressed.
“Babe, you can’t let this get to you...”
“Easy for you to say; you’re not in my shoes, Dan. I am like the girl who stole you from Emma Watson by putting some voodoo magic.” Carla said feeling angry. Daniel just did not understand the things she had to go through for just being his girlfriend but before Daniel could retort, Carla’s name was called for the one to one interview. Carla walked away from Daniel, leaving him with his retort stuck inside his brain.
When Carla went in the room, she saw an Asian woman coming up to her to shake her hands. Carla shook her hands but could not put up a smile; she felt frustrated by how everyone was asking her to be strong. Carla sat at the opposite seat, facing the interviewee. The Woman in front of her beamed and looked at her clipboard. Then looked at Carla again.
“Hi, my name is Fiona Xie. I am from Singapore and I would be reporting the interview today with you for the magazine 8 days. So, congratulations on the success of the movie. How do you feel being able to be a part of it?”
“It’s feels really good. I never imagine that it was going to be huge. I mean, some of my friends did tell me the movie was talked about everywhere but I never thought that it was going to be this huge. I cannot put in words of how I feel to be a part of this but one think I am sure is that, I guess, I am lucky to have this experience. Really lucky.”
“Ok. Were you intimidated at all when you knew that Daniel Radcliffe was going to act as your love interest?”
“Of course,” both the reporter and Carla laughed, “it was really a surprised. When I went for the open casting, I really had no idea I am going to act alongside with him. It was not until I saw him in the producer’s office. I almost fainted there and then. It was really a shock.”
The interview went on and on. Carla felt, amazingly, light headed all through that day. Fiona, the reporter, was kind and she only interviewed about the movie. They laughed at some ridiculous moments Carla experienced while filming the movie and talk seriously about the career Carla could see herself in. Finally, the interview came to an end and it was a whole fifteen minutes. Fiona said thanks and shook Carla’s hands as Carla went of the room.
The place was empty except for Jenny who was sitting in the corner, reading a magazine. Carla went to her and tapped her shoulder. Jenny looked up from the magazine.
“So how was it?” Jenny asked as she pick up her bag and walked out of the room with carla tagging along.
“It was fine. The reporter was nice. Nothing about Daniel and me, at least. I think this whole relationship with him is not going on well. I just vent my frustration on him before i went in that interview.” Carla said glumly. She recalled the look on daniel’s face when he could not say what he was thinking. Would Daniel forgive her for that hurtful words she just spat at him? Carla exhaled loudly as they reached the lift.
“Don’t be too harsh on yourself. What relationship has no problems in it? It’s just a little misunderstanding. I am sure the both of you could work it out.” Jenny said. The lift door opened and the both of them went in. Carla was silently praying with all her might that Jenny was right.

Oh god....runnning out of ideas!!! Well here's chapter 7. It's a little short but bare with me, aight? Chapter eight will be alot of better.

Chapter 7
Carla could see flashes of light from cameras outside of the movie theatre. She was holding her breath, as the car got nearer to the red carpet. She could not believe what she was seeing; there was so many people surrounding the theatre. She looked at Daniel, who was looking at her with an expression of amusement.
“What?” Carla asked him, he just shrugged and looked away, smiling away. Carla frowned but let it pass, tonight was the night where Carla wanted to feel famous. She finally had that chance now and she was not going to spoil it. Or, in any case, let anyone spoil it for her. She took Daniel’s hand in hers and he turned with a little shock look on his face. Carla smiled and gave him a kiss on the mouth. Daniel kissed her back then they broke apart, smiling.
“You ready?” Daniel asked as the car came to a stop.
“As I will ever be.” Carla replied as Daniel opened the door. The first sound that came to her ears was the screams that could have had London tumbled over. She looked around, flashes of lights were everywhere. People screaming her name, waving at her as if they knew her, were everywhere. She was so overwhelmed with the situations that she could have stood there looking stunned all night but, luckily, Daniel was accustomed to the situation that he pulled her to the red carpet. They stopped for awhile to let the people take pictures of them. Daniel placed his hands at her waist and smiled. Carla looked at him with admiration; he was so confident and strong. Then Daniel looked at Carla, before she even knew it, he kissed her. In front of everyone. Distantly, Carla could hear people wolf whistle and clapping, flashes of light going out of control but it didn’t matter, all that matter was Daniel by her side.
The movie was great, she could not believe that she had acted so well. It was a touching story and she could hear people sniffing at the last part where ‘Rose’ and ‘John’ were united. When the credits rolled up, people stood up and clapped for them. Carla was so touch that she almost wanted to cry but she hold back her tears as she did not want to smudge her mascara; she remembered the hassle that she had gone through to achieve ‘Smokey’ eyes. All the producers and actors were asked to go to the front to answer a few questions. Carla saw Sophia when she was walking down the aisle to the front. Sophia beamed at her and gave Carla a hug when they were in close contact.
“Mister Dean, who came up with this wonderful idea of showing people what really happens behind the scene of the life of a superstar and a movie?” asked one of the audiences.
“People always wanted to know about a superstar’s life and behind the scene moments. So I thought; why not give them what they want? So the idea came naturally.” Mr. Dean said, smiling. The audience clapped and the host picked another audience for one last question.
“This one is for Daniel,” Said another audience who was chosen by the host, “Are you and Emma Watson dating?” Carla felt herself getting red; it might just sound just like a question but Carla still got a little hurt by how woefully ignorant some people can get. Didn’t the both of them just kissed outside in front of so many people, fans, paparazzi and the whole universe?
“No. I don’t know how many times I must say this. Emma and I are good friends, that’s all there ever can be. But if you would want to know, I have a girlfriend,” Daniel puts his hand around Carla’s waist, he beamed, “she’s Carla Garner.” Carla could feel herself getting red, she just hoped that it did not show. People all around started applauding, even carla’s mother.
“Carla do you have anything to say?” The host asked.
“Well, um, I want to say thanks to everyone here for coming to catch the movie.” The audience applaud so loud that carla was pretty sure that the floor moved. Then she could feel daniel’s breath in her ears, she leaned in closer so she could hear him whisper.
“Time to party.”

Hey, what's up? I am doing well, just went out to study with Hafizah and Razia! Had fun... Razia and I discussed about the shift of identity in KING LEAR. Did you know that it is a better way to vocal out your ideas to a person on what you think about the book. It' really help. I found out Raz's idea and I thought wow, some of her ideas I didn't even thought before. We agreed that EDMUND are CORDELIA are the only two who lived up to their identity. Edmund really became a bastard and Cordelia, well she knew who she was and who she loved, she did not even need to voice it out about her love to KING LEAR, as she knew words could not describe what she was feeling but too bad KING LEAR was so into himself that he did not understand why CORDELIA could not praise him for being such a good father.
We both also agreed that KING LEAR lost his identity as a King when he started to go mad. As he does not know who he is or he can't accept what he had become. That's when the 1-2-3 of identity comes in. You see to actually own an identity, there's a need of sense of self. And KING LEAR lost that and gain a new identity, a common man. When he was a common man, he started to see the reality that he could not possibly have seen when he was a King.
Yeah, I hoped that helped some people...If you beg to differ, please tag me as I want to get more ideas.....Ok I have done chapter 6...Hope you guys like it....Tag me and tell me what you think.

Chapter 6
“Yes, Daniel. I’d missed you too but look at the bright side, we will be meeting tomorrow!” Carla said to the phone. It’ been six months since she met Daniel, they parted with a last kiss they shared. Carla smiled at that nostalgia. She could hear Daniel sigh at the other end.
“Are you going to hold my hand?” Daniel asked.
“What, to the premier? Are you sure you want people to know? I mean Daniel, you’re big. And you’re already 18. The paparazzi are going to get excited. They’ll be sneaking on us. I mean, you’ve seen the paper about us kissing, after the filming, outside the studio. They said a lot of nasty things.” Carla remembered when she read the paper the next day when she was at the comfort of her bed. She could not believe the headline; “DANIEL HAVE A THING WITH CO-ACTRESS.” She remembered picking up the phone and calling up Daniel, crying. Daniel said it was all part of being famous. Carla thought differed. She thought it was a price being with him but they weren’t a couple or anything. They were just dating.
“What do you consider me as, Carla?”
“What do you mean? I consider you more than a friend.”
“Then hold my hand tomorrow. We will go together, I missed you too much. The video conferencing is not enough. I need to see you; I longed to kiss you every time I see you on the screen. I want all of them to know, you’re my girlfriend.” Daniel said, fast. When the word sink in Carla’s brain, her heart started to beat or they stopped, Carla was not sure. Did Daniel just call her his girlfriend? She could not believe her ears, they must’ve deceived her but, and even so, why was her heart hammering like mad as if they have been fluttered? She knew her heart would not lie to her.
“Blimey Daniel, how can I be your girlfriend? We are so far apart. 8 hours apart to be honest,” Carla said, “you could find another girl, Daniel. I like you but it’s going to be difficult.” Carla could not believe that she was rejecting Daniel. The guy she wanted to be with every fibre of her body. How can she do this to herself? How could she be the one hurting her heart again when all the while it has been nothing but honest with her. Daniel kept silent on the other side of the line. Carla only understood one thing, she was doing this because she did not want to jeopardise Daniel’s career with her holding him back. If they become an item, Carla would want much of his time which he would be unable to give; he already had another project under his belt right after the filming. Not to mention the last of ‘Harry Potter’ movie series. It’s all time consuming; she could already the downfall of the relationship before it even started.
“Carls, baby, I know it’s going to be difficult. But you’re going to be big too, trust me. Then you’re always needed for London. If for six months we can still like each other without meeting, what’s so wrong with another few years? Or what’s wrong with forever? My feelings have developed for you Carla, and if anything, I am the one who has a lot of to lose.” Daniel said to her, Carla smiled, Daniel always help her when her mind is feeling confused and always know how to take away the fear of the future. She felt so happy and with all the fears gone, she agreed to go to the premier of ‘Behind The Scene’ with her. Holding hands, of course.
The next day, Carla woke up early, the dress which was a gift from Prada was hanging in her room, and she loved it when it was first sent to her. She could not believe that it was made to fit her, it was gorgeously in pale pink and the dress length was just above her knees. Not too short and not too long. Whilst admiring that beautiful creation, somebody knocked on the door, and came in Jenny, she brought along a makeup artist with her and two stylists.
“Come on, Carla. Go and take a bath, you stink. We have to be out of the house by 1 pm. The premier starts at nine. And you do remember it’s an 8 hour drive.” Jenny said as she pushed Carla to her bathroom.
“But Daniel said...” Carla, again, was cut.
“I know. He’ll be here by 12. Your mom is given a free ride by the producers. Come on! It’s already seven!”
Carla was confused, getting her ready would not take so long but she soon realize what a hassle it was to get ready for the premier. It was tremendously long and every detailed mattered. Carla was getting agitated with the stylist, they could not decide on what hairstyle she should get. They tried straight, but it just looked like she’s going for a “normal prom night”, they tried the curls but it just look ridiculous on her head.
“Oh my god! Jeremy what is going on here? It’s almost half past twelve and you’re not doing anything with the hair.” Jenny exclaimed, freaking out.
“Jeremy, why don’t you just bun my hair? I think it would look a lot more my age and modern. Is Daniel here yet?” Carla asked Jenny as she felt her hair being combed ferociously as Jeremy was the kind who did like to be told. She could feel her hair being twisted but still she looked at Jenny for answer.
“He’s downstairs, honey.”
“What!” Carla exclaimed, the only thing that kept her from jumping out of her seat was Jeremy; he was tightening the bun so tight that it actually kept her head from moving. Jenny looked at Jeremy’s hand with repulsion.
“You sure that’s not hurting?,” Jenny asked indicating Carla’s head, when Carla did not answer, she continued, “he said that he did not want to spoil the surprise waiting for him.”
“Waiting for him? Does he expect anything from me? But I did not buy anything.”
“Not with things. He wants to see how beautiful you are. Don’t worry, he’s not a prat.” Jenny said as she went out of the room. Carla looked at her reflection. She looked the same except a little different with all the makeup and the hair which was in a tight bun but at the same time it looked loose with all the fringes that came out from the side and her front. Other than that, she looked almost the same. Nothing special. What if Daniel expects her to look like Emma Watson who was gorgeous? Daniel could not possibly thought that Emma Watson as the standard to beat, if he does then Carla thought that he was out of his mind.
“You’re supposed to wear your shoes already.” Jeremy said as he, too, went of the room. Carla slipped on her shoes. They were heels but it was not so high; Carla did not want to tire herself. She walked out of her room and slowly, she saw the tip of Daniel’s head then his shoulders then slowly his whole body when Carla was right behind of him. Carla tapped his shoulder, he turned. He looked at Carla the way he never did before. Carla would find it a little strange if Daniel did not looked so dashing. The more Carla looked at him, the more she wanted more. It was as if she was drinking water after a marathon.
“You looked really beautiful.” Daniel said as he came closer to Carla.
“Daniel, don’t lie. I looked the same.” Carla said, looking at his eyes. They were so blue like an ocean.
“Yeah, I know. That’s the reason why.” Daniel said as he kissed Carla. Cara kissed him back with the longing of the past 6 months. She put her arms around his neck and his hands on her waist. It was just as powerful, if not even stronger.

Hey, everyone! What's up? Well, for me it's been a bad day. I have fallen sick and now I have flu. Looks like another sleepless night for me. I don't know why this has to happen every weekend! I feel likes there is a presence in my room right now but maybe it's just me. Hahaha, I don't know what I am talking about, I am just babbling nonsense!
For everybody who have been reading my story, I have great news for you! I have written chapter 5! It's a tinny weeny long but I hope you like it.

Chapter 5

Days became weeks and weeks became months, the movie filming was almost coming to an end, Carla was feeling a little depressed. She had so much fun the last few months and she was not going to see all the wonderful people she had encounter during the filming again. Sophia bush really was a bigger sister that Carla never had. The both of them had so much fun together and they shared secrets about boys, Carla laughed at that thought by herself. Then there was Daniel, the superstar turned into friend turned into something else. Carla was attracted to him like a magnet but she did not tell him. It would sound so cliché, he was a superstar and falling for him would not be a good idea as he might think that she is just another typical girl. She was, after all, a ‘Harry Potter’ fan. Carla was so deep in her thoughts that she did not hear Daniel coming up to her. They were supposed to be doing the last bit of filming for the next three days, and today was the kissing scene.
“Carla, come on.” Daniel said as he came nearer to her. Carla did not make a single move nor did she seem to notice that Daniel was even there. Daniel smiled and tapped Carla’s shoulder, which seem to wake her up from dreamland.
“Did you say something, Dan?” Carla asked, a little dizzy after that day dream.
“Yeah, come on, filming is going to start.” Daniel said as he took Carla’s hand and walked out of the changing room. Carla still had that tingling excitement whenever Daniel touched her. It seems to make her want to tell him her deepest desire. Carla walked past Sophia’s changing room, it was locked. Sophia had already gone home as her part was done. Carla had to stay till the end as she was the main character and the ending was the kissing scene, Carla did not understand why the director wanted three whole days for this part. However, Carla smiled. This would only mean that Carla would get to kiss Daniel again and again which would be great. She reminisced the first time they kissed (professionally, of course), it was really awesome. Daniel was a great kisser, even Bonnie; the girl who acted as Ginny, said so.
They reached the studio without Carla noticing. The director came to them and talked about angles and how he wanted the scene to go about. Carla nodded calmly which was in contrast with how her heart was beating; fast and excited. When finally the filming start, Carla was so nervous the she forgot her lines and they had to retake the scene so many times that the director was so annoyed that her asked to take a break. Even Daniel seems to be a little agitated by her anxiousness. Carla went to the bathroom and breath calmly. What was wrong with her? Rehearsal was fine, so why was she acting like she doesn’t want to finish this scene. Because you don’t, you want to see Daniel again. If the filming ended, so does the friendship, a little voice said in her mind. Carla looked at her reflection. She have to do the filming right today and put her selfish wants aside. There were still two more days before she and Daniel part. There was still time. Carla walked out of the bathroom and to the studio.
“Adam, I am ready.” Carla said to her director, who was sipping coffee.
“You sure,” Adam asked, Carla nodded her head, “ok then, take your position. Daniel!” Daniel came to Carla’s front, he gave her an encouraging smile.
“So, you ready?” he whispered, Carla nodded. Every time, she thought about what Daniel and her were about to do, her vocabulary seems to always go missing.
“Ok, everyone, we’re about to start,” Adam shouted, “camera?”
“Rolling.”
“3-2-1 action!”
“Rose, I never thought I see you again.” Daniel said, or John said.
“Well, I never dream that I would too but I have something to say to you, john. I missed you. I need you to be with me. I love you.” Carla or Rose said.
“I love you too.” And Daniel’s lips touched Carla’s, they kissed. Fire erupted like never before in Carla’s body. She could feel herself melting away and at the same time became solid. Time passed like a rocket and the kiss deepened. She could feel Daniel’s hand at the back of her neck, gripping on to her as if he did not want to let her go. She tightened her hold on Daniel’s shoulder.
“Cut!” shouted Adam. Daniel and Carla broke apart. Daniel touched his lips, Carla touched her head, she felt a little dizzy and it took a few seconds before she realized what was happening. She could not believe that the kiss was going to be so powerful, it was as if her longing was in the kiss. Adam came jogging towards them.
“That was great, you guys! Wow! I have never seen such chemistry before! Ok then, it’s been 6 hours already, I guess you guys should go and have a rest. Tomorrow, I guess would be the last day. I don’t think there’s a need if you acted like just now. Good job again.” With that Adam left them together. Carla was looking at her foot, what had just happened? The kiss did not felt professional at all. There was so much passion in it, so much longing and so much fire. Carla’s mind was going on a whirlwind contemplation. Daniel tapped her shoulder for the second time that day, Carla looked up at his face. He seemed to have recovered or maybe her did not felt anything at the very first place. Maybe it was only Carla who felt like the world had melted away or tumbled over.
“You want to grab some food?” he asked.
“No.” Carla replied. She needs to stay away from Daniel if she did not want to fall him. She did not want to bruise her heart again. She started to walk to her towards the lift with Daniel tagging along behind her.
“No? Are you ok, Carla?”
“Yeah, I am fine. I am just a little tired, Dan.” The both of them were waiting for the lift. Finally, after 1 minute of silent agony between Carla and Daniel, the lift came and it’s door opened. Carla and Daniel went through and press number 5; the level where the changing rooms were.
“That was some kiss you gave me.” Daniel said as he turned to face Carla. Carla could feel herself blush at the comment. Daniel seemed to come closer and Carla backed away even though her heart was telling her not to. Well, her heart did not need to tell her as the lift was small and she could feel the cold metal was against her back. Carla could not back away any further. The lift door opened but Daniel did not go out instead he puts his hand at both side of Carla so that it acted as a cage. Carla looked down at her shoes, they seem to become very interesting at that moment.
“Carla, I felt it and I know you did too. The kiss was so strong, it’s impossible that you did not feel it. There’s only one reason why it was powerful but I need to hear it from you.” Daniel said, the lift door had closed, the oxygen level was going lower and yet Carla did not speak.
“If you’re not talking to me, Carla. We might die in here unless someone press the button for the lift which I doubt it. At least for the next 15 minutes, we might be suffocating by then.” Daniel said, jokingly. This made Carla smiled but it vanished once she looked at Daniel’s face.
“What do you want me to say, Daniel? That I like you?,” Carla asked, Daniel kept silent, “yes, I do, ok? Happy? Now you’re just going to think I am a little silly girl and...” Carla was cut because Daniel put a finger on her lips.
“I do not think that. I like you too.” Daniel said and with that he kissed Carla again. This time Carla was sure that it was not only her heart in that kiss, she could feel Daniel’s too. The both of them kiss passionately as if there was no tomorrow. When they finally broke apart, Carla pressed the ‘open’ button.
“I needed to do that, if not we would die because of kissing. Literally.” Carla said as the both of them went out of the lift together. With a little more than friendship in their hearts.

Chapter 4
“Rose, why did you sign up for being someone else’s slave?” Sophia Bush asked, or more of her character did.
“It’s not a slave job, Manda. It’s internship. You don’t understand.” Carla said reading her script. It has been almost 4 hours doing the rehearsal. Carla seem to blend in, it was not as bad as she thought it would be.
“So who is the person you are going to look after, huh?” Sophia asked again.
“I’ve got, well it says in the programme here, John Antonio.”
“What! Are you serious?”
“Cut! Ok, that was good both of you. Carla you need to be more the character, not that you’re not feeling it but there is room for improvement. Soph, the accent need to be refined because we do not want audience to suspect how come Amanda which is your character is an American and her sister a Briton,” the director, Adam Wright said, “so let’s go to scene 65, ok Daniel are you ready?”
“Yup.” Daniel said, smiling an encouraging smile. This was the romantic part; Carla felt her body tensing up again. Not cool, Carla, she thought. When the director said “action” Carla was so surprised that she dropped her script. She quickly picked it up and turned to scene 65; Daniel was already reading his part.
“So how come you are still here? Everyone is already at the party, the movie was a success and everyone is invited to that party.”
“Well, I don’t feel like going. I am leaving the next day for the internship programme.” Carla said, Daniel acted to be surprised and looked at Carla looking confused.
“Oh, yeah. I forgot you’re on an internship, I think you’re going to get this job. You are really cool and I found you interesting. And I still do.” Daniel said, flirtingly. The script said Carla’s character needed her to stay silent and blush, but that could not possibly be done then, that day was only for script reading.
“Ok cut! Good. Carla I can see improvement, and Daniel, you’re good but I need you to be more romantic, ok? What time is it? ,” Adam asked, everyone mumble “noon”, “Ok then, that’s it for today and make sure you know the lines by next week. There is no rehearsal tomorrow as it’s the weekend and Carla, your tuition starts at 5 this afternoon. So see you guys on Monday!”
Everybody was packing up, Sophia Bush was so elegant, unlike Carla, and she seems to float around when she was walking. How Carla envied her. When Carla walked outside, Jenny was not there. She had to rush back to the agency for something “urgent”. So Carla was by herself again then she saw Daniel walking up to her when she turned around.
“So where you want to have lunch?” he asked as he put his water bottle in his bag. Carla was so stunned that Daniel was asking her that question that she just looked at him, stoned. Daniel smiled at her and waved his hand in front of her face. Carla got back to reality.
“Um...I don’t mind. Anywhere is ok.” Carla said as she felt herself blushing. She still can’t help it, Daniel was still so cute.
“Good because I have a surprise for you.”
“Daniel, I can’t hang out that late because I have tuition and I need to learn the lines and everything..” Carla was cut by Daniel.
“Chill, Carla. I know, come on, she’s waiting.” Daniel said as he grabbed her hand and led her downstairs. She? Who could ‘she’ be?, Carla thought to herself. But still, the weight of Daniel’s hand on hers was enough to get that thought out of her head. Finally, they reach downstairs. Carla mouth just dropped open when she finally knew who ‘she’ was.
“Daniel, you liar! I have been waiting for ages and who is this gorgeous friend of yours?” Emma Watson asked, smiling. Emma Watson was there and Carla just felt the world trembled or maybe it was just her, shaking out of excitement.
Carla shook Emma’s hand and she was still in shock so she really could not find her voice to say hello to Emma but Emma seemed to understand.
“Harry potter fan, huh?” she asked Daniel, he just nodded.
“A true blue one.” Carla said, finally able to find her voice. Emma laughed and asked them to sit down at the canteen. Daniel sat next to her. Carla took out her diary and pen, turn over a blank page and put it on the table.
“Can you both autograph for me please?” Both Emma and Daniel laughed but autographed the diary, nonetheless.

Hey peeps! What's up? Sorry for the lack of update, just been busy, you know. It's hard...trying to cope but everyday brings dreadness but still I have to go through it. For everyone who have been supporting me and my story, I want to say a huge thanks and I will put up Chapter 4 as soon as possible. Lately, I have been reading fan fiction of Harry Potter, I think I am going crazy. I just can't let it go even though it's over. Harry Potter books and movies are like drugs to me and I am addicted to it, big time. I think I really need saving! But Harry Potter books and movies had help me in the past with some of my personal problems. So I guess it's alright.
So there's this guy I am crushing on, he is so cute! Every morning, I would see him...And I saw him in the library yesterday, wow! He was so close and yet so far! I wish to get to know him but you know this insecurity always makes me stand back and just admire him from afar....what a waste...if I could just take out my heart and let him hear it, I guess I would not have the agony of just watching him from afar. Haiz, what a life....
Tomorrow's teacher's day, some of my friends are going back to their secondary school to pay a visit to old teachers, I don't have time at all. Ok that's a lie, I don't have teachers in my secondary school that I want to meet....Well, maybe Mr. Roslan but I have not stepped in HOUGANG SECONDARY for soooooooo long...I think it would be a little AWKWARD!!!
Ok I guess that's it....

Chapter 3
Carla rolled over her bed for the umpteenth time, she was so nervous about the rehearsal tomorrow. She read the script right after the so called ‘professional date’ with Daniel. He made her really comfortable but still, Carla could not hide her excitement, Daniel was after all a superstar. When she read the script, she got all nervous. Her character called Rose was a Personal stylist intern. She was supposed to be the makeup and stylist for the movie and Daniel was supposed to be the actor who did not like acting but was forced for that career because of his dad’s dying wish. In the middle, her character and Daniel’s kisses. This was why she was worried. Was she a good enough kisser? What if Daniel didn’t like it and withdraws? Well, at least, if he really does that then Carla had nothing to lose because Daniel would have to kiss her to know how bad a kisser she thinks she is, Carla smiled at this thought. Then the answer came to her like magic. She just knew who can help her with this crisis.
“But mum, you never kissed me. How do you know?” Carla asked, twisting the telephone cord, biting her lower lip.
“Honey, if you were a bad kisser Jordan would have broken up with you or he would have told you. Men are like that, they would not want to kiss a bad kisser while women would not mind as it is always the heart we see- “
“Mom. Please, I really do not need the feminist talk right now. Mom, I am so nervous. I mean all the actors and actress have already acted major movies and me? I have only done school productions! That’s not the worst part, there’s going to be another girl acting as my sister and guess who it is? It's Sophia Bush! Can you believe that? I think I have made myself another hole to fall in.” Carla said, panicking. She heard her mother sigh on the other line.
“Honey, do not sell yourself short. You did not buy your way through the casting. You were chosen. It’s that so hard to believe? Listen, just do what you have always been doing and I am sure you will be just fine.” Carla’s mother told her consoling. After more comforting words from her mother, Carla said good night and hung up the phone. She felt better and fell into deep sleep which turned into a nightmare at once. About Daniel shouting and asking Carla to be replaced by somebody who can kiss.....
The next day, Carla went to the rehearsal studio an hour early. Even though she was early there were a lot of people in the canteen. She saw Jenny and quickly sat down with her,
“Morning, Carla. How’s the room? Comfy?” Jenny asked.
“Yeah, it’s fine. So what are you doing here so early? I thought rehearsal doesn’t start till 9?” Carla asked, curious. Jenny just shrugged and Carla took that as something not to be interested with. She grabbed a bite from Jenny’s sandwich and ate silently as she looked around, observing.
People were everywhere. Some were reading the script, some talking and laughing, others were just so sleepy that they put their heads on the table and slept. Carla wondered if Daniel was awake, he probably was sleeping and not worrying about anything. He had acted so many times that Carla was sure this production was an easy task for him. The mood became more and more intense as 9 o’clock seem to draw nearer and nearer. Everybody seem to be going to the studio, set and rehearsal room. When it was 8:55, Carla’s blood circulation seemed to have stopped circulating because she could feel her whole body getting numb.
“Ok, time to go. Come on, Carla.” Jenny said as she got up. Carla got up in silence; she did not know what to do. Is this the end of her life? What if she really messed up? “It’s only the rehearsal, you can make mistakes. Don’t worry.” Jenny said as she patted Carla’s shoulders and led on to the rehearsal room or studio, some might say. Carla just walked on and took deep breaths to stop her from fainting and running out of the exit door like the way she wanted to so badly.

Hey peeps, so what's up? I found something that I think might make your day if you're feeling sad....and even if you're not sad, I guess it will make you laugh and smirk cause you know how true this is:
Before the marriage
HE: Yes. At last. It was so hard to wait.
SHE: Do you want me to leave?
HE: NO! Don't even think about it.
SHE: Do you love me?
HE: Of course!
SHE: Have you ever cheated on me?
HE: NO! Why you even asking?
SHE: Will you kiss me?
HE: Yes!
SHE: Will you hit me?
HE: No way! I'm not such kind of person!
SHE: Can I trust you?
Now after the marriage read it from bottom to the top !!!!
Hmm, I guess it will make marriage less appealing now, huh? Well, not to me. I know that it is sometimes true. Your feelings will change once you're married because you are stuck with one person but I do't know, I still find marriage a beautiful thing. A little fairytale in this harsh world. Finaly, you found someone you can share your burden, happiness, love, heart, soul, money and everything with. Now, wouldn't that be awesome? I also think that it makes you a better person. To stay in a marriage, to call a stranger your own, forever, is not easy. It's no more about "I", it's about "US" now. Wow!!! That would be great....How i wish someone would just ask me to marry him...I will be of course so thrilled!! He doesn't even have to plan a wedding, I don't really care! We can save all that money and go on a Grand HONEYMOON trip! It woul be so much worthwhile! HAHA HAHA...I am dreaming too much....I need a 'wake-me-up' potion
So yesterday was the MI art festival. I had a ball, I was shouting my lungs out so much but, wonderfully bless that I have always been, I did not have a sore throat. My buddies who performed did really well, if not better than all the rehearsal, and I was proud of them!!
To:
Isabella and christine, you guys were wonderful and I can see talent in there some where!! Keep on dancing babes!
Hafizah, I love love love your malay dance. It was the best of all dancing act! everything was so precise and in order...not to mention all the cute 5 malay boys in that act!!!
Maisha( Is that how your name is spelt?), I love your voice! Can I borrow it sometimes....even the 'bad' microphone could not have hidden your true talent! The performance was great and sincere, almost wanted to cry!
Shima, love your performance. babe! Strong voice and good charisma on stage!
Melvin, the pianist that wowed me everytime, love the way you played the piano for that anime song...brought me to tears during the rehearsal and made me think of my ex...wait that's not a good thing!! But you amazing!

So yeah, to the rest of the performers who gave their heart and soul to the concert last night, great job, everyone! I was so excited yesterday that i think my talent is a moral suppoert cause I AM VERY GOOD A SUPPORTING! hehehe...the funny thing as I even told our principal, Mr. Tan that I should be the commmander of the school. He said he'll keep that in mind. Yeah, right. He probably forgotten me by now. So anyway, did I tell you another one of my classmate is dropping out of school? Yeah, and that classmate is none other than Max. Wonder how many more classmate would have to dropout before it's my turn. I hope I can make it this year. Not in the mood to retain. It's not my thing, retaining. I never have been retained my whole life except the fact that I failed O levels and had to take it again. Other than that, never ever in my life. So i hope history does not repeat itelf. I love this life now, schooling and the two best friends I made. I am not willing to lose that.

Hey peeps, what's going on people. Today was a great day because I feel so free...No homework!! And no more project!!! I hope tomorrow won't be so hard. It's getting harder by the day with school. More bad news, Max is going to withdraw...hmm tempting me to withdraw too but since I want to be a lawyer that's not an option and I don't want to give up so fast. I know I can make it. It's too early to give up now and too late to turn back the time. I need do this for myself because I deserve the best and no one else can give the best to me except myself.
So, I've been braiding Christine's hair and I am really getting good at it. Ha hahaha!!! It took me more than two years to learn braiding and now I am finally good at it....It feels good to know i achieve something even though it's jst braiding. So tomorrow is the art fest!!! I can't wait to see both of my best friends performing HAHAHAHA. They are quite good but since they are only 10 seconds performance their talent have been limited.
So I guess that's about it.....blog in when something really awesome happens...like someone declaring his love for me....hahahahaha

The journey to the office studio was nerve wrecking, every time the car stopped, Carla would ask if they had reached yet. She was supposed to meet the whole cast. As she was the female lead, she had to meet the executive producer and work out a schedule and make arrangements on where she was going to stay for the rest of the filming days.
“Can we stop to grab something to eat? It’s been 8 hours Jen, and I don’t see London in sight. I am so hungry.” Carla complained as she rubbed her stomach.
“No, we can’t. We are almost there, just hang in there for a moment.” Jenny said, a little agitated as it was the fifth time during the drive that Carla asked the same question. Jenny knew that Carla was nervous and so was she. If this movie is a success, then Carla’s life is set and so is Jenny’s life. No more paying the rent of her awful apartment. Finally, they arrived at the studio. Carla was rubbing her hand to keep them warm as she came out to the cold. Jenny and Carla walked into the lobby and were greeted by the receptionist.
“Ah, Miss Garner, we have been waiting for you. Mr. Dean is waiting for you in his office at level 3.” Said the receptionist. Carla looked over her shoulder and saw Jenny not moving to follow her to the office.
“Aren’t you going to follow me? You’re my agent, aren’t you?” Carla asked, puzzled.
“No, I can’t. I am just in charge of you.” Jenny said and with the encouraging look on Jenny’s face, Carla went upstairs to the office alone, her heart beating so hard with every step. As the lift door opened she saw the oak made door and knocked it three times.
“Come in.” Said a voice from inside. Carla opened the door and her heart just went to major rapid overdrive on seeing the people inside of the room.
It was none other than Daniel Radcliffe. The famous ‘Harry Potter’. Carla could hardly breathe, this was the guy that she had been dying to meet her whole life, not to mention all her trips to different parts of the world just to see him in the many premieres of the ‘Harry Potter’ movie series, and now there he was sitting innocently and waving at her. Carla moved step by step, breathing slowly so she won’t hyperventilate and humiliate herself because right then she could feel her heart pumping right up to her throat, wanting to come out and shout her deepest desire to Daniel. She sat at the chair the exec showed.
“So, Daniel, this is Miss Carla garner. She’s new but very talented.” Mr. Dean the executive producer said. Daniel smiled at Carla and took out a hand to shake. Carla, trembling, took the hand and smiled back. She was never going to wash her right hand again.
“Daniel here would be playing the lead man role, Carla. So, you both are the major reason if the show is going to be a success but with great actors and actress that you both really are, I don’t see the reason why this movie is not going to be a success. Anyway, we have to make arrangements on where you both would be staying and when the filming will start. You have 3 months of rehearsal then the real filming will start. Since it’s a series, you both might be coming back again for the second movie. So here’s the copy of your schedule, food and others would be paid by Warner Brothers, so no worries. You can go or take leave when given notice and Carla; you will have to attend to 3 hrs of teaching, preparing for your GCSEs. So, tomorrow, the rehearsal will start. Please do not be late...”
Daniel and Carla went out of the office after the briefing that could have gone on forever. She still could not believe that she was going to be acting side by side with Daniel Radcliffe. She kept pinching herself silently as they went down together in the lift just to make sure that she was not dreaming. The pain that her hand felt confirmed that she was not dreaming and Daniel was real, as he tapped her shoulder once the lift door opened while Carla was heading to Jenny who was waiting for her while reading a magazine.
“So, want to grab a coffee? To get to know each other. I mean it’s not a date but since we are going to be acting lovers, I don’t want you to feel nervous, like you are now.” Daniel said, gently. Carla nodded and followed Daniel to the cafeteria. How could she have felt so glum today morning? The Jordan-crisis seem centuries ago. God is always fair, Carla thought to herself, smiling.

The 7 is hot!

Oh look I am beside No, 4!!!!!!!! I think He's Freakin smokin hot!!!

Chapter 1
The summer was ending soon and yet Carla's love story was not yet complete. It felt like her world had tumbled into a big giant hole. If only she knew that Jordan was a sleazebag, she would not have dated him, period. She could not believe that Jordan hit on her best friend but she did not want to believe that her friend would lie to her. They’ve known each other for so long and their friendship would not permit one lying to each other. Carla could feel tears running down her cheek. Jordan has been the most amazing thing that had happened in her life. It was difficult to think that it had already ended. The thought taunted her like an imaginary stalker, only this time it’s not scary, it hurts.
Carla wiped her never ending falling tears; she had made up her mind. School is going to start in less than 48 hours. She has to get ready her things. She had not even bought the new book needed in secondary school. She was in the finalyear and would be taking her GCSEs, she must stop this burning feeling from making her achieve the result she had been aiming all her life. Straight As.
The door was knocked three times. Her mother, a beautiful woman to Carla, pop her head in.
“Honey, you agent is on the phone. She said it’s urgent.” Said Mrs. Garner. Carla scratched her head, wondering. Why would her agent call her? She could not have possibly gotten a role for the open audition she went to. She was not that great of an actress. She had an audition only for one open casting for the summer. A production by Warner Brothers. A movie that was supposedly to be called ‘Behind The Scenes’. Carla wanted a smaller role. The role of the cleaner because the script were so much easier but Jenny, her agent, said she had talent and to go for the lead role. It felt awkward remembering all the beautiful girls lining up, crowding around the small waiting room. Waiting for their name to be called but after that awful breakup with Jordan, the whole acting career possibilities were deleted from her mind.
“Hello, Jen. What’s up?” Carla asked while flopping down on her bed. She was just not interested anymore.
“Well, I don’t know how to say this but I will anyway. Carla, you’ve got the role!” Jenny exclaimed. Carla sat up so fast that her stomach turned into a knot and it was getting tighter and tighter as the news started to sink in. Then a thought occurred so fast in her mind that she spat it out without knowing that she did
“Wait, does this mean I’m not going back to school?”
“Well, yeah but you know the rule here in UK. They will get you a private tutor because you’re still underage and GCSEs is compulsory. Why? Is anything the matter?” Jenny asked, concerned. Carla said no and hung up the phone. She was looking forward to going back to school. To the comforting arm and words of her friends for her mending heart. Now all she can look forward to is nothing but acting as somebody else.

The next day, Jenny was in Carla’s house. The production of the movie was to start immediately. Mrs. Garner was so proud of her daughter as she knew her daughter’s dream was coming true and so she did not understand why Carla looked as if her deadline had arrived. She made a questioning look to her daughter.
“I just feel like I wish I could go back to school. You know, after the Jordan-crisis. I mean it’s not like you did not help. I just wish to have someone to agree with me. To bitch about Jordan.” Carla sighs. Her mom had widened her already big eyes when she said the B word but she could not help feeling so depressed. She is going to be away for about 9 months from the people she loves. She drank her last drop of the chocolate coffee her mother made for her. She hugged her mom and tears started to flow down naturally.
“Write to me everyday, mom. I am going to miss you so much.” Carla said, her voice croaked as more tears flowed down. Her mom wiped her tears and kissed her forehead. It was comforting and they hugged one last time as Carla let go of her mom and walked out of the door and walked to Jenny’s car. Carla went in the car and Jenny reversed out of the drive way and onto the road. Carla waved until her mom was out of sight.
“You ready?” Jenny asked.
“No, but I will be later.”