HOW TO WRITE THIS.

How do I write this without regretting it later? To even pen this thoughts is difficult. I wanted to write in a journal but.... I feel so lonely in my journal.

Its just me, myself and I there.

Its amazing how I am just sitting here trying to write something that truly have been hurting me but thinking of ways to avoid writing insensitively.

Because when it comes to hurting me, people just say what they want to say.

It must be the glorified feeling one can get when I put my head down and just shut my mouth up.

Most of the time, things said to me catch me off guard and all I can do is feel the pain riding up my chest, slowly spreading out.

I wanted to defend myself but it will just appear calculated.

I wanna die. Kill myself.

THEY ARE COMING!

HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD?

I hope you guys did...BIG BANG AND 2NE1 are FREAKINGLY COMING!

You know what this mean?

It means....SORRY, Jang Geun Suk that is coming in this april...I am really sorry, but priorities are priorities.

Back to topic, I got this awesome news from of course, (WHO ELSE?) Christine Solano, while I was in Isabella dorm room... where it was really absolutely boring because Isabella was taking a bath and there was no tv...

I almost jump out of the window but alas, the window was blinded... you know, with blinders.

This is awesome news for this year, I kinda regretted not going for the Super Show that was held here (though I don't know why, I am not even a big fan of Super Junior)

But this is BIG BANG and 2NE1! I can't wait AT FUCKING ALL! I really wish we get the front PIT AGAIN.

This time no giving up! and I am keeping my leave! so that I can line up and shit... Hopefully, we get awesome PIT standing or the VIP standings.

I hope SNSD are not coming. Or SHINee.

Not that I don't want to see my favourite boys....but if they are overworked...the performance will be just disappointing like the last time and as a Fan, it felt like my whole worlds burnt and crashed down. So....I would rather see them where it doesn't effect so much.

And of course, who needs nine annoying girls (hey! that's an opinion and everyone have a right to, at least, one.) plus, without these nines... we can minus off SONEs.... ok I understand that not ALL of you SONEs are crazy...but most of you are. I met you guys in KPOP night.

Some of you were even wanting to step on people!

So...minus SONEs is alot!

I can't wait to meet all the VIPs and BlackJacks because the last I heard, you guys are AMAZING fans! Hehe, I am not a VIP or a BlackJacks but I LOVE 2NE1 just as much!

Sometimes, I feel like this is not happening, but hopefully it will happen and we can all be HAPPY...

I remember the last time being in the front, you guys, it was amazing because they looked at you or probably you think that they are looking. Either way, the feeling is awesome.

So are you guys prepared? Well, MY FRIENDS AND I ARE! BIG BANG AND 2NE1 here we come!