So it has been a long time since I wrote a new blog here. I am really sorry about the lack of updates but I hope that none are that unhappy.
So, tomorrow I will know my
fate on whether I make it to year 3. I kinda already know what it is and I am
not trying to be pessimistic but I am facing the facts. The conclusion is that I won't be making it to the next year and MY FRIENDS WILL BE MISS DEARLY........especially my 3 best friends of all my life. Know that you 3 have change my life to a better one and I LOVE ALL OF YOU WITH ALL THE CORE OF MY BODY AND SOUL.
I hope when I say this, it doesn't sound like goodbye....BUT I do love all the three of you.
To ISABELLA,
You're a great friend. No, that's understatement. You're incredible and such an amazing soul. There would be no one out there as good and as great as you. You're irreplacable. The days we share with laughter and happiness and the one time I made you mad and your incredible ears that never get tired listen to my chatter and your patience...I thank you for being my friend. MY very FIRST friend in MI. The very friend that I care soooo much about.....You're the best.
Your strength to achieve what you want never fail to amaze me and when you look at me with that
look so that I became ashamed and start to study. Once again, you're the best.
To CHRISTINE,
Well, what can I say? There's no word to describe you either but I will try my best.....Let's start with your
pretty-ness, shall we? You are so beautiful, Christine (inside and out) and you are very nice to me. No....You're very kind to me. I like the part that we can always talk about
guys and I like the fact that you don't judge me just like Isabella.
There's more, of course...but I just can't find words to say it. I can see that you care about me and you, too, never ever asked me to
shut up....you listen to my chatter with patience and I never felt the need to shut up....
To Liyana,
Liyana, you're are my small angel. I am sooooo happy your
heart accepted me and I love that you always search for me for help and I am glad when you are just beside me. Just you there, it's such a comfort that I have never found. You complete the rest of us and I will be so sad not talking to you and meeting you in school when I am gone. But I will always be here for you.
I love you guys so much and I wish things were different for me so that I can stay......I will cling on to hope to the very end.....But if I don't make it.......You KNOW that I love you.
Hafizah and Razia,
I have not forgotten you two. You are my younger sisters and I love the both of you....with all that I can. I will miss you sooooo badly. You guys always make me so happy in class and I love that sometimes we talk about anything under the sun and act bimbo....hahahah....
Nisa,
Your friendship is one of the thing that I will cherished till the day that I vanish from this place of the planet....You're so funny with you reactions and you
retorts...it's just so cute. I will never forget you my friend.
I hope no tears is shed when reading this like I am now. I cannot imagine the future without you all....I really can't. If there's one thing I will regret when I don't make it...it's not that I didn't make it to year three and my dream have somehow vanish, but at the possibility that all of wil never meet again. Me, lonely...somewhere. Missing you all.
My heart has broken before and now it feels like it's tearing apart just with the knowledge that we won't see each othe everyday......I don't know how I will face it when reality will take over this knowledge.
Seriously, guys...this is worst than breaking up with my boyfriend.
So much more worst.
On better note,
I recommend that ALL OF YOU should read
The Host by Stephenie Meyer. It's not a series, so don't worry. It's really a good book and really nice. It's sci-fi romance...but mostly sci fi....and even though you're a sci-fi hater.....you will love this book, no matter what!
I need to read more...I am actually craving for books and I am dying to read something new and nice.
So who is going to watch twilight with me? I need to know!!!!! Just a few more months..........
OK good day ya'all,
Roshilla.
