Hey Peeps....In my last blog I mention something about me writting a A kind of Harry Potter fan fiction...Well I did. Here's the link:
www.roseandscorpious.blogspot.com
Mind you, you have to understand that this is about Rose Weasley and Scorpious Malfoy. And not about Harry.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Chapter 13
It’s been four months and Daniel Radcliffe was no longer the man that he uses to be. Carla died a month after the findings of her cancer. She refused treatment and she just wanted to enjoy life. Carla spent the whole month with her family, friends and of course Daniel. Daniel was the last one to hold her hands as the eyes that he had love slowly became blank and the loosening of her hands in his indicating she had left. Left him forever.
After just days of Carla’s funeral, the paparazzi and press were merciless and asked him about Carla. He couldn’t believe such beasts exist on the face of the planet. He could not get out of his house until his dad came in and talked to him for awhile. Now Daniel went out as usual and although the press and paparazzi were still asking question, people were soon forgetting about Carla. But she haunted him day in and day out. He just could not forget her and almost cried himself to sleep every night. The memories of her were left in photographs that he keeps under his pillow so it was easy for him to keep her alive in his heart.
“Promise me you’ll move on, Daniel.”
Those were the last words that she had left him and wanting to fulfil his promise, he did try to move on. Tried to be happy. Tried to go on dates. Tried to go out to party. But that was the problem, he tried. All of which brought nothing but guilt and longing in his heart even more. He wants to be with her. There was nothing more that he wanted. She was his life and now that she was gone, he felt that he was dead. Daniel got up from his bed and walked over his study table to take out a pen knife that he used to cut papers and what not. He placed the pen knife on his wrist and was about to slit it open before his dad came in and quickly snatch the pen knife away. Daniel was breathing hard and looked at his father.
“Daniel, what the hell do you think you’re doing?” His father bellowed. His father face was burning and there were angry tears that fell from his father eyes. Daniel felt guilty not because he wanted to kill himself but because he had made his father cried. But he can’t live anymore. He didn’t want to. Carla was waiting for him and he could feel her calling him.
“Daniel, please. Let us talk.” Daniel’s father gestured to the bed and Daniel followed suit. Both of the men stared at the floor at loss of words. Daniel was thinking of Carla and what she would do if she had been here. Would she smile? Would she laugh? Would she hold him tight? The questions were pushing him to breaking point. He just could not figure out how he could not think of anything else but Carla. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Speak, son. Just tell me how you feel. It will help. If it doesn’t, I swear, I will give you this knife and you could kill yourself. But you have to tell me every bit of truth about your feelings. Just let it out.” Daniel could not believe his ears, was he given the permission to die and be with Carla if he let out what’s been going on in his head? The longing to be with Carla increase and he just let it out to his father.
“I want to be with her. I can’t live like this. She is in my mind all the time and she’s haunting me, dad. I see her shadows hiding everywhere.” Daniel said as tears started to fall and he could feel the weight of sadness started to life the more he talked out loud to his dad. He kept on talking and he felt great talking about Carla to someone who listened. The more Daniel poured out the more he realized that he felt better and he felt like what he did was wrong. Killing himself was not what Carla wanted him to do. He knew this before but telling someone about this just helped him to understand better.
“She wanted me to be happy. Wanted me to move on. She wanted me to be happy. With or without her.” Daniel finished as his tears just slide down his face like a waterfall.
“You just said it. She wanted you to move on, Dan. Not kill yourself.”
“But I miss her so much. I am longing for her. I don’t want to be alone.” Daniel said as he realized that he was going crazy because he was alone.
“Daniel, you’re not alone in this. Imagine her mother at home. She lost a daughter, Dan. But she’s strong because of Carla. She’s being strong for Carla, Daniel. Maybe you’re being selfish. Maybe you don’t love as much as you think you do cause if you do, you would be strong Daniel. For Carla.” Daniel looked at his father and could not believe the words that were coming out if his mouth. How could he say such a thing? Daniel loved Carla more than he did himself. Daniel was so angry that if his father was a stranger, Daniel would have punch his face. When his father got up to leave, he walked to the study table and placed the pen knife.
“You can kill yourself, now.” His father said and was about to walk out of the door. Daniel got up and took the pen knife and placed it on his wrist once again.
“YOU THINK THIS IS A JOKE? HOW CAN YOU SAY ALL THOSE THINGS? I LOVE CARLA MORE THAN ANYTHING! I WANT TO KILL MYSELF SO I CAN BE WITH HER!” Daniel bellowed. His father turned calmly and faced Daniel.
“Do you realize how selfish you sound? Son, you’re doing this for yourself. If you love Carla, you would have think of her. How she wanted you to be happy for her.” With those words, Daniel’s father left and shut the door. Comprehension dawn on Daniel like never before. He dropped the pen knife on the floor and sat on his chair. His hands covering his face as his father words played in his mind. He realized that he was, indeed, being selfish. Daniel look at his reflection on the wall, he hated the selfish person he saw. Carla would not have wanted this for him. He should try, this time with all his heart, to fulfil the promise he made for Carla again. Daniel nodded to his reflection to assure that this was the right thing to do. To move on.
Sorry it took so long people, but now I know where I am heading you bet you will see more. BTW, I started something today and that is A Harry Potter Fanfic... I might create a website just for it soon...I'l let you know.
It’s been four months and Daniel Radcliffe was no longer the man that he uses to be. Carla died a month after the findings of her cancer. She refused treatment and she just wanted to enjoy life. Carla spent the whole month with her family, friends and of course Daniel. Daniel was the last one to hold her hands as the eyes that he had love slowly became blank and the loosening of her hands in his indicating she had left. Left him forever.
After just days of Carla’s funeral, the paparazzi and press were merciless and asked him about Carla. He couldn’t believe such beasts exist on the face of the planet. He could not get out of his house until his dad came in and talked to him for awhile. Now Daniel went out as usual and although the press and paparazzi were still asking question, people were soon forgetting about Carla. But she haunted him day in and day out. He just could not forget her and almost cried himself to sleep every night. The memories of her were left in photographs that he keeps under his pillow so it was easy for him to keep her alive in his heart.
“Promise me you’ll move on, Daniel.”
Those were the last words that she had left him and wanting to fulfil his promise, he did try to move on. Tried to be happy. Tried to go on dates. Tried to go out to party. But that was the problem, he tried. All of which brought nothing but guilt and longing in his heart even more. He wants to be with her. There was nothing more that he wanted. She was his life and now that she was gone, he felt that he was dead. Daniel got up from his bed and walked over his study table to take out a pen knife that he used to cut papers and what not. He placed the pen knife on his wrist and was about to slit it open before his dad came in and quickly snatch the pen knife away. Daniel was breathing hard and looked at his father.
“Daniel, what the hell do you think you’re doing?” His father bellowed. His father face was burning and there were angry tears that fell from his father eyes. Daniel felt guilty not because he wanted to kill himself but because he had made his father cried. But he can’t live anymore. He didn’t want to. Carla was waiting for him and he could feel her calling him.
“Daniel, please. Let us talk.” Daniel’s father gestured to the bed and Daniel followed suit. Both of the men stared at the floor at loss of words. Daniel was thinking of Carla and what she would do if she had been here. Would she smile? Would she laugh? Would she hold him tight? The questions were pushing him to breaking point. He just could not figure out how he could not think of anything else but Carla. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Speak, son. Just tell me how you feel. It will help. If it doesn’t, I swear, I will give you this knife and you could kill yourself. But you have to tell me every bit of truth about your feelings. Just let it out.” Daniel could not believe his ears, was he given the permission to die and be with Carla if he let out what’s been going on in his head? The longing to be with Carla increase and he just let it out to his father.
“I want to be with her. I can’t live like this. She is in my mind all the time and she’s haunting me, dad. I see her shadows hiding everywhere.” Daniel said as tears started to fall and he could feel the weight of sadness started to life the more he talked out loud to his dad. He kept on talking and he felt great talking about Carla to someone who listened. The more Daniel poured out the more he realized that he felt better and he felt like what he did was wrong. Killing himself was not what Carla wanted him to do. He knew this before but telling someone about this just helped him to understand better.
“She wanted me to be happy. Wanted me to move on. She wanted me to be happy. With or without her.” Daniel finished as his tears just slide down his face like a waterfall.
“You just said it. She wanted you to move on, Dan. Not kill yourself.”
“But I miss her so much. I am longing for her. I don’t want to be alone.” Daniel said as he realized that he was going crazy because he was alone.
“Daniel, you’re not alone in this. Imagine her mother at home. She lost a daughter, Dan. But she’s strong because of Carla. She’s being strong for Carla, Daniel. Maybe you’re being selfish. Maybe you don’t love as much as you think you do cause if you do, you would be strong Daniel. For Carla.” Daniel looked at his father and could not believe the words that were coming out if his mouth. How could he say such a thing? Daniel loved Carla more than he did himself. Daniel was so angry that if his father was a stranger, Daniel would have punch his face. When his father got up to leave, he walked to the study table and placed the pen knife.
“You can kill yourself, now.” His father said and was about to walk out of the door. Daniel got up and took the pen knife and placed it on his wrist once again.
“YOU THINK THIS IS A JOKE? HOW CAN YOU SAY ALL THOSE THINGS? I LOVE CARLA MORE THAN ANYTHING! I WANT TO KILL MYSELF SO I CAN BE WITH HER!” Daniel bellowed. His father turned calmly and faced Daniel.
“Do you realize how selfish you sound? Son, you’re doing this for yourself. If you love Carla, you would have think of her. How she wanted you to be happy for her.” With those words, Daniel’s father left and shut the door. Comprehension dawn on Daniel like never before. He dropped the pen knife on the floor and sat on his chair. His hands covering his face as his father words played in his mind. He realized that he was, indeed, being selfish. Daniel look at his reflection on the wall, he hated the selfish person he saw. Carla would not have wanted this for him. He should try, this time with all his heart, to fulfil the promise he made for Carla again. Daniel nodded to his reflection to assure that this was the right thing to do. To move on.
Sorry it took so long people, but now I know where I am heading you bet you will see more. BTW, I started something today and that is A Harry Potter Fanfic... I might create a website just for it soon...I'l let you know.
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