Friday, May 21, 2010

Hafizah

Lately....

I realise that I have been neglecting you.

Forgetting about you.

Ignoring you.


But..... I love you, still.

As my sister and my best friend.

If you ask me if I miss you.... I do.

All the talks...all the fights....and all the laughter just between us and no one else....


I don't answer any of your msgs....because I can't....

And I rarely call you because I prefer to see you and talk.


Hafizah, you are my best friend. And I love you.

The way you were, the way you are and the way you're going to be.....


I am still here.

When you need me.

If you need me.

Call me.


MY house phone btw....

62855933..... I am at home at 10.....pm.....

Love you always.
Shilla.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

To my modest Chin Gu Ga, Christine Shi

Aniyoonghaseyo,

Christine shi, guen chan ha yo?

I hope you're doing fine.......

Anyhoo....I have read your 14 May 2010 blog and I know it was just a rant blog....but that particular blog have been on my mind for awhile.....

I know you didn't ask for sympathy and this is not suppose to be a sympathy blog...

After reading that blog, I felt like I should be a friend....and I felt you needed one.

So here I am.

The blog said how you are afraid....but amidst all that...you have GOT to see how BRAVE you are.

Admitting that you're afraid to do so many stuff....hey, isn't that bravery to show that you're flawed just like everyone else?

That's the beauty in you.

And....some of those "afraids" well, I have it too...

So you're not alone....

I am 22....Which makes me your Unnie!!! and I depend on so many people....to love me....and to make me feel like I am wanted.

I cry like a baby too...heck, I still stamp my feet (bad habit)...

So, I think that blog just make you more real to me.

It makes me think that you have a deep soul and you care for people around you....

When you feel bad again...

Just remember that you are real to someone.

Lots of love
shilla.


Sunday, May 09, 2010

Today was just a WOW day!

Meeting up BFFs. Dancing like mad. Talking about guys. Talking about girls. Talking about romance. Watching "Orphan".

Today was THE best day of my life.

It started off at about 12:45 pm today, when I met Isabella at woodlands bus interchange. There was some miscommunication as yours truly didn't top her card....

So there I was waiting in my blazer and thick cotton dress...burning up. You might think that the most sane thing to do was to take off my blazer and not drench it with my sweat. However, something inside me just could not do it.....

I am a victim of fashion.

I really thought if I were to take off my blazer, I would look so plain....and I could stand the idea. LOL!

Anyways, when Isabella arrived we headed to Raz's house!!!!!

And....from then on, the fun began. It was really so much fun than going out somewhere....

The best part, I made my friends watched the last part of Princess hours....and they did watch it... I found out something about Isabella too.... She likes to read out subtitles! Hahaha....I cannot believe it.

Another gr8 part was that, I did my dance debut in front of my friends! RAZIA even dance with me!!!! Raz, next time we should learn the whole dance and perform it! Both of us have great butt movement! HAHAHAHAHA!

I had a brief singing lessons with my friend. I guess singing is part of my passion that I got so paranoid when I didn't hit the notes right....and I begged my friends to stopped. Maybe next time, ya?

So, Christine came a bit later and Isabella had to go cause it was her brother's birthday today.... Isabella didn't get to finish watching the "Orphan".... and the story got so thrilling in the end that Christine started screaming "GRANDMA!!!! NO!!" hahaha....

Well, the story was good but the starting was soooooo slow. But, overall, it's 3 out 5. So, you might want to catch it...

After the movie, Christine, Razia and I ate dinner.... a few minutes in our silent eating, Razia started to ask questions... and it was interesting because it was about "Who do you think is..."

I got to know that I am:

The most adoroble
The most Immature despite I am a noona and they are all my dong seng.
The most......what was that?????.....

I think that's about it. ha!

Christine and I had a chat in korean but all we did was introduce ourselves...cause that was all I know. Christine is very good an speaking korean....since she started 5 years ago....it was really fun to me and I hope we keep talking in korean so I can improve....

As usual, I was the last to go....Razia's house is really THE HANGOUT place to be. It's warm and nice and fuzzy and I can do almost anything I want. But the best part was haning out with friends without the need to spend any kind of money...that's the greatest part!

Of course, I talked about Onew...
How can I not? I am in love with him....truly am. Shoot me if you don't believe me....

Anyways, before I left, Raz asked me a really interesting question...

Raz: You know, what if you met the whole SHINee band and all of them wanted to have a dinner date with you?

Me: I just will go with Onew.

Raz: You wouldn't even consider the rest?

Me: (Confidently) yes!

Raz: Shilla! How could you?

Me: I could. It's Onew!

Raz: Okay, let's say you did meet Onew...

Me: Yeah!!!!!

Raz: hahah...You meet, you know, the whole SHINee band ....and, of course, your mission is to make Onew fall in love with you. Then, suddenly, Minho came to the picture and while you were trying to make Onew fall in love with you, you fell for Minho and Minho fell for you and the CRAZIEST THING is , Onew really falls in love with you!!! What are you going to do?

Me: HUH!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!

Raz: Stop avoiding the question...What would you do?

Me: ....I....I .....would....you mean, I am not in love with ONEW? How is that possible, Raz?

Raz: Hypothetically. WHAT WOULD YOU DO?

Me: ..... I don't know.... but I think I would tell Minho the truth... the truth that I was planning to fall in love with Onew and not him. I don't really know what I will do about Onew though...I don't want to hurt him....

Raz: hahah....(SIGH)

Me: (SIGH-ed big time!)

It was such an interesting thing to actually think about. What if that really happened. Ok...not specifically in that SHINee term...but normally...though I would rather the SHINee term....I really would not know what to do.

It remind of that movie "While You Were Sleeping"....hmm.... but if this really happen....I would scream DRAMA DRAMA!!!

Whoa...this is such a long blog...and I have to make it longer.

In Christine blog, there is this question....I am going to put it here and answer it with a person in mind.........

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
uh....I am not sure. Onew is awesome looking...so I guess, YES?

2. Smart?
Nope. I don't need that. Its interesting, but if he doesn't have to BE SMART...but wait. Onew is smart, so I guess, YES?

3. Preferred age?
A year younger than me.

4. Preferred height?
Onew is taller than me....so, I guess, YES?

5. How about sense of humor?
Has to be extremely funny....like Onew! He makes my stomach hurt with his dorkiness and cuteness and funny-ness.

6. How about piercings?
As long as he takes it off when he meets my dad.

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Yes.

8. Pink hair?
Anything would look good on Onew...So...YES!!!

9. Mushy or no?
YES. i am sucker for mushiness.

10. Thin or fat?
ONEW size.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
ONEW's skin tone.

12. Long hair or short hair?
Onew looks better with a short hair...Short hair then..

13. Plastic or metal?
Both are not enviromental friendly.

14. Smells good?
Onew probably smells delicious, na? So yes.

15. Smoker?
NOPE! NEVER!

16. Drinker?
Whatever Onew's alcohol limit is...

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
ONEW-NEXT-DOOR type.

18. Muscular?
Hmm...yeah? Onew's buffing up recently!!! EP 11 hello baby proved that!

19. Plays piano?
Yes....Onew played Piano.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Uh....does Onew play this? If yes, then yes. If not...then no.

21. Plays violin?
No...it just remind me of that really irritating guy in BOF.

22. Sings well?
Onew is the best singer in the world...so yes.

23. Vain?
As long as it is with the Onew vain meter.

24. With glasses?
Onew really look cute in them!!! so YES YES YES!

25. With braces?
My korean teacher looks hot in them....So, I guess no?

26. Shy type?
YES! Onew's awkward around girls...and that's a very endearing character...

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Onew's a good guy....I love that. So...it's good boy.

28. Active or passive?
Um....i dunno.

29. Tight or bomb?
Yes, Onew wears tight jeans...and he looks good....So it's tight, i think?

30. Singer or dancer?
Onew's both!!!!!!

31. Stunner?
Hmm....Onew is stunning! But that will make me jealous....So....no?

32. classical?
I hate classical.

33. Earrings?
Anything....if Onew wants earring then he can have them....He looks good anyways.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-un
til-you-drop?
Hmm.....Well as long as I am the LAST and ONLY ONE.

35. Dimples?
no...cause Onew doesn't have one.

36. Bookworm?
HAHAHA! Since onew's smart...I think he reads....so i would say yes!

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Yes....it will be so romantice if Onew send me one! I hope it's a lyrics to a new song.

38. Playful?
Yes...Onew is VERY playful!

39. Flirt?
All the freaking time. Gotta keep the relationship seem new!!! I mean Onew's is surrunded by pretty girls all the time!

40. Poem writer?
Onew's one...so yes!

41. Serious?
No....ok....when he needs to be...I think Onew can do that.

42. Campus crush?
what is this?

43. Painter?
not really. Onew's a singer.

44. Religious?
no...cause I am not one.

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
Yes....hopefully he teases me....

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
Internet freak...but I don't think Onew is any of those.

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Onew can only speak, korean, chinese and english. That's 3. So I don't think I need him to say more. All he has to say is
너를 사랑해요....

48. Loyal or faithful?
I hope Onew is faithful...at least that would make him sound like a lover.

49. good kisser?
Onew's has nice lips....so I think he is a good kisser...SO YES!

50. loves children??
doesn't matter.


Thats's all!!!!!!!

Love ya peeps!


Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Promises can be broken.

I know I promised that I would put up a list why I LOVE SHINee!!!!

But....slowly, I am starting to realize that the list needs to be amended.....

Now....it's THE LIST OF WHY I LOVE ONEW!

1) Even when people say ( and ALOT of the do ) that Onew looks pretty much ok in the industry, when I look at him.....I see STARS... and he's dazzling.

2) Onew, to me, is the best CREATION by God.

3) I smile like a 바보 when I see Onew anywhere.

4) I get excited.... When I see onew poster!

5) I bought Onew's Poster....and paste it beside me....so that it will be the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning.

6) I laugh like a girl.

7) I giggle like a girl.

8) I just.........love him.

9) I am IN LOVE WITH HIM.

10) I want to marry him....and I dream about him...






HELP.