TO ALL MY FRIENDS

I hold the pain in my mind as I went away
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end this way
People are people and sometimes we have bad times
but it's killing me to see this end after all this time

The music starts playing like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending I don't really plan to see
Cause it's tragedy and it will only bring me down
Now I don't know what to do without you around

And I know it's never simple, never easy
Even this clean break, I am going crazy
I am the only one I know dying right here

And I can't breath without you
But I have to.
And I can't breath without you
But I have to.

I never wanted this, never wanted to be hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swereved
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing that I say will save me from the fallout


It's 2am, feeling like I lost all my friends.
It's really not easy, easy for me.





I miss all of you.
My heart is beating all of your names.
I am dying.
The pain is unbearable.
I love you all.


Miss you.
Always.

Again...I have neglected.

Hey....Y'all! I see that I have not been blogging for a long time. It's about a month and the irony is, I keep asking people to update their blogs while I'm neglecting mine so diligently like a soldier. I am really sorry to those who have been to my blog to see some updates and getting none. I will somehow try to update it now since the ONE WEEK MARCH HOLIDAYS are in and I have more time in my hand.

So, let me just tell you that Common Test was such a bummer. I had only one H2 in the end.....

DAMN! THERE'S THIS REALLY IRRITATING KID SINGING " I BELIEVE I CAN FLY" ON TV...IT'S REALLY DISTRACTING AND I CAN'T THINK CLEARLY. HOLD UP...LET ME TURN OF THE SOUND.

Ha! I did not just turn off the sound....I turned off the whole thing. So let's get back to topic, shall we? I was really hoping I could pass MOB but I didn't in the end and I was hoping my assignment would pull me up but NO, there is not assignment marks included. I don't see the point of doing all those assignment with alot of effort, hoping it could be helpful when it's totally not. I was angry.


Then I got acceptive.


It's a miracle, I know. Especially from someone like me who believes that miracle don't happen to one self hence the bad luckness of my life. But I do accept this fate and I am not going to fight it anymore. If I am fated to be a blue collared worker then that's what I will be. I am too tired o fight against fate and obviously, fate always and will have the upper hand forever.


Anyway, let's not dwell on it further. Honestly, the reason I have not blog is because I have been making videos for my VLOG on YouTube. It's so much fun making a video, I love the editting process....hey, maybe I can be a video editor...let me check the requirements....who knows, maybe O level is eough and I have some good videos in YouTube.


Darn.


I need a degree to get a decent job.


Or a job that is fun.



A change of topic....I have been reading....Great books, good books, and really just plain boring books---which probably are all my literature books, ugh!
I just would like to say that NOBODY under any circumstances should ever read Nicholas Sparks' A bend in the road! It's total rubbish and draggy, predictable and just gives you the urge to just burn the books into ashes.

Hmm...maybe people who needs fire can bring that book along. You can burn it to give you fire. And help you survive. But, other than that, I forbid anyone to read that book.


That's about it....I am going to do a video soon. It's about FAT people again and THOSE who make fun of them. Yeah, I had a really awful day at PE. I can't say it....I want to show it and show how even friends can be mean to you. Laughing AT you. TO YOUR FACE.

Anyway....


God bless,
Shilla