Hey people.....as you can see i have made my blog a music video blog. There's a few music vid that I've put for your entertainment....So why you might asked that I am still awake so late in the morning? Well, cause I can't sleep, ha ha ha, I know lame reason, right? Anyway, tomorrow there is school. I do not feel like going though. It's going to be a freaking long day and I am so going to be tired as the reason is why I am still able to write in so late at night

Well, today or tonight, whichever you guys prefer, I am going to talk about accepting who you really are. So I am a fat girl, I would never deny it and I am not going to say that when I was younger that I felt I was not beautiful. That would be a lie. Almost everyday in my secondary school life, I felt like I was the most ugliest being on earth. I am ashamed of it, I must say but it is part of growing up, I guess. People keep telling me I had a beautiful personality. But it was never enough. Guys I've been crushing on reject me without even wanting to know me. I felt like I was cursed. I cried. Crying might have help me but it did not heal me properly.

Up until recently, when I look at myself in the miror, I see how beautiful I am. Eventhough I am fat, there's nothing wrong with that. I can lose the weight if I want to and I know I can. I will. But I still see that I am beautiful and I don't have to try so hard to get guys to like me or even may one day love me because I found the remedy for my broken soul....I need to love myself and tell myself everyday that I am beautiful and so I did. I never felt so happy in my life.

Of course, it would help if you have amazing friends around you. My friends have been nothin but supporting me. They, too, I believe, can see the beauty in me and I love them for making me feel great all the time.

To all the girls who are not happy with themselves no matter what the reason. Be it being fat or being thin. If you're not happy, take a look at yourself in the mirror. A long look. See the beauty in you and if you hear voices saying that you're not beautiful....SHUT THEM OUT. People who have problems with others have big insecurity about themselves. They're not happy with their own body and face that they taunt others to feel superior. Trust me, embrace your beauty and soul. You will feel so much better like you never felt before. I am living proof.

Hey peeeps.....I am having a bad tempered mood today and I just had a major fight with my friend....and he is pisssed with me. Not that I am not sad, but i couldn't take it any longer. I hope my message will get through his head anyway....It's hard and harsh but he has to come to reality. Anyway, I have done some of my homework, though I never finish it. Did I tell you I have finish my MALAY project? Yeah, finally done with it. It was not fun though I have to admit. The project was kind of rushed. Pretty pathetic, if you asked me.

Anyway, I have put two music video here. It's nice tho. I love 'break you' especially. Really really cool. So i have not much to say....so I just write a poem.

P.S To Y.J
sorry u became my victim of my pms.

It's not my fault
I have been your friend all this time
It's not my fault
I tried to tell you It's not fine

You keep telling me again
It's not your fault
We end up finishing
Our friendship

I hurt you and I am sorry
But if that is the only way
To make you see
Then I have nothing to say

How could you say
That I am insulting you
How could you say
Everything that was not true

Well, I don't think
We can mend anymore
This is it.

Hey, ppl! Check out my great blog! I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! Thanks to christine of course! ha ha! She took the time to help me do all this stuff, it's so great. I mean this is total me, you know. A Harry Potter FREAK. So what happened today? Alot of yawning and fustration! Firstly it was Management Of Business in the freaking morning and I was so bored out that i don't understand anything at all. Then Pansy (Hafizah) wrote me a letter. And we started our fantasy argument (the usual Harry Potter vs. Draco Malfoy). It's lame, but it was fun. I had great fun in the end. Then after that we went for....I totally forgot. Then Nisa and I discussed about malay project. Wow, I hope I did at least a decent job on the mother tongue and tomorrow, ONE PROJECT DOWN! Now, don't be too happy for me. There's like 5 more projects and they have ridiculous timeline. I am going bonkers in this school. It's draining my strength away and I am supposed to able to handle the stress right now...I am freaking 19.

Oh yeah, talking about age brings me to the date of my birthday; 23 September. Guess what? It's the day before promos examination! Such luck bestowed upon the PRINCESS POTTER. You know, I've been thinking that maybe, right, Joanne Katherine Rowling should tell more about what happened to Harry's career....I think he's the minister of magic...huhuhuhuhuhuhu!
He should be. ok....I am being ridiculous....SHOULD JUST STOP BEING A FREAK!

BUT I CAN'T!

To That Someone...Who seriously Have a Problem With ME being FAT

So hi.....Ok the title, I will explain later...too happy to think about that. Anyways, two days ago my life was complete. Wanna know why? Well, J.K Rowling last Harry Potter series has finally reach the ending. (people who are reading this blog right now and is reading Harry potter and the deathly hallows...please shut this down now...I don't want to spoil it for you)



The ending.....it was amazing and scary. Beautiful though, but there were alot of bump and bruises along the way. It is, i assure you, the most most most darkest book. I love every part of it. You will never get bored of it. HARRY WAS THE ONE WHO DIED AND WAS REVIVED AGAIN. FYI, not only two character who died. J.K Rowling might have wrote only 18 chapters when she said that to the press and the news about the last book because more than 2 people died....here's the list:
Alastor "Mad-Eye" Moody
The Minister of Ministry of Magic
Nymphadora Tonks Lupin
Teddy Tonks
Remus Lupin
Fred Weasley (OMG!!!!!!!!)
Colin creevey
Hedwig (Yup, be shock....she did not even spare that poor owl's life)
Dobby The Free House Elf
The heroes who died while battling the DEATH EATERS from Hufflepuff, Slytherin, Ravenclaw and most definitely GRYFFINDOR.
The teacher who thought MUGGLES STUDIES in Hogwarts wittchcraft and wizardry
Grindewald (The DARK wizard that Dumbledore faught.)
Crabbe (Draco's Malfoy pathetic sidekick....he kinda killed himself actually....casting a cursed fire around and got fried in the end. HOW STUPID WAS THAT? But I don't think anybody really cares about him. Anyway.)
Dirk and a few goblins.
The wand maker For Durmstrung Boys....I forgot his name.


For your great relieve.....
Hermione, Ron, Ginny, Luna, Seamus, Neville and Dean did not die. More to the interesting part........Hermione and Ron got married and had children and Harry and Ginny too. It was a great ending. A happy one. A deserving series. I cannot imagine anyone who want Voldemort or more to say TOM RIDDLE...(I dare....) win and there was no ending. I think J.K Rowling would get killed and the sales would definitely drop. People would tell and people would be tooo appalled to read an ending that doesn't has one. I think KIDS who stayed all night just to read more that 5000 pages in total would be devastated. And, come on guys, it was a children books in the beginning until we, the adults, started craving for a fairytale. So, I think everyone should be sastified.

To J.K Rowling,
You are the most amazing writer I have ever come across. I cannot thank you more how the HARRY POTTER SERIES has change my life and views of life. How friendship and courage and definitely LOVE proves to be the greater powers of all powers. I was not your fan when you first published the books. I did not even took notice and I am most definitely ashamed of it. I only got to know about the HARRY POTTER SERIES until my friend put that stuff right beneath my nose and made me read it. I can't thank that friend more cause if he had not done that, I would not have knew this amazing skills of yours to pull me through the rough time I had. J.K Rowling your beloved skills and books would be missed. It's sad to know that no more book after this would come out but if you are reading this (which is at great odds) i want to thank you again. YOU CREATED A LEGEND.

To That person On the TITLE.

Just because you're perfect,
Does not give you the right,
To insult me behind my back.

Just because you're beautiful,
Does not give you the right,
To laugh at my beautiful flaws.

Just because you're not fat,
Does not give you the right,
To make me uncomfortable

Just because guys are chasing after you,
Does not, in anyway, give you the right,
To look so smug and arrogant.

Please look at yourself in the mirror,
I know it's horrible when you do,
You're scared if i speak,
I am definitely much more beautiful,
THAN YOU.

To my friends....you know who I am talking about....he he he.

Yesterday.............A day to never forget!

Yesteday, the day that I saw Ian McKellen......The guy who act in X-men and LOTR. It was a play called King Lear. I basically understand the first few part but after awhile.....I totally lost track of time. It was a surreal blur. But i do get some part. And when shakespeare decided to have a tragic play....he really mean it. All the character died in the end....except for Edgar and a few servant. I think Kent went to kill himself. I am not sure, I have to read the play to understand.
So then the play ended at 11:45...Almost all transport were gone. But there were some bus home left....I could take it. But for Isabella, it was kinda problem. But, i didn't wait to see what happened....I am such a bad friend. Haiz. I apologized for thinking about myself.........to Isabella. So, all in all....the only good thing that happened is that i saw a super star...even that was so far up and i could not even see his face.....hmm...maybe it's not a good thing after all!

hey I am back with my story

sO....I took one day to actually re-think the story....So anyway, this dude(if u haven't read the story below, u should be ashame of yourself!) name was Jeff, and amazingly, he was a muslim, which i don't know why is so surprising to me. Maybe i am too much a bimbo! ha ha ha....so i guess all the four of us look like nice people so he decided to chat with us, which was cool cause we learnt so much from him...like firstly he was a paramedic so he gave us suggestion tips on what to do if we have problem with our body. i have no problem except the fact that my body extra fat and i know the solution to it so i did not ask him anything at all. So like the saying always goes, TIME FLIES WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN. next thing i knew we were talking and it was already 8:45 pm. so the girls started to pack and we went to the toilet leaving YJ with Jeff. so when we were out of the toilet...christine look at the arrival tv and saw a flight from korea...being a DBSK obsessed fan, she seriously thought of them(i read her blog) and so we waited......and waited......and waited.....no DBSK. ha ha ha...and we went back home....leaving Jeff...even though we look like university student, all of us didn't thought of a way to keep in contact with Jeff...not even asking for E-MAIL! How smart was that? So that's about the event that happened on saturday.
So what happened TODAY?
Not much...YJ didn't came cause his wisdom tooth "conveniently" needed attention and so...he plucked out the wisdom tooth and do not need to come to school for a WHOLE WEEK! So it is just the gals and me. Then, we had our lesson in school and we didn't do any project for 2 days and tomorrow there's this stupid movie that we're all supposed to go at esplanade. What a waste of time, seriously. And on SATURDAY, THE BOOK HARRY POTTER WILL BE RELEASED AND I AM GOING TO HAVE IT! I wonder what's going to happened. I really hope Harry won't die. Please just make it a HAPPY ENDING. It's just the right thing to do, J.K Rowling....It's a 7 series book for heaven sake.
You know i asked alot of people if they're excited for the MOST anticipated book....not many of them cared!
AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES SOOOOO MUCH OF WHAT WILL HAPPPENED TO HARRY POTTER IN THIS FREAKIN SCHOOL?

I Think I just DELETED everything...haiz.

Hey there Peeps! It's been a short day today and I am home so early. So i thought to change my blogskin...It seems like a smart move...but seriously, it was not. I think I've lost everything I ever wrote in this blog...well now i guess i have to start anew, haven't I? So let's start by the story last saturday. It was the day where my literature group wanted to discuss about the project. So yours truely decided to meet at dhoby ghaut station. But it was all a distorted process, cause christine"don't worry, by september, I will have my phone" was impossible to get contact. I met YJ first, as usual....sloppy as always and so we waited. So, if anyone know YJ and I, they should know that we cannot stand the sight of each other and so, being the girl that has nothing better to do, started to shoot YJ with all my nonsense and believed it or not guys, YJ actually entertained by defending himself....which is, of course, pathetic. So in the midst of me winning my argument with YJ, my phone rang and christine voice cam through. I could hear she was abit pissed having waited about 1/2 hour. Then the three of us waited for Isabella. She came an hour later....but she told us before hand so it was cool....anyway, my brilliant idea backfired again by me making a decision to study at P.S! Being a weekend, i was to blind to see the signs that people would want to go shopping! Amazingly stupid...i felt like a total BIMBO. Anyway, we went to the airport instead. So we wasted alot of time...seriously. So Christine suggest we go another terminal, cause the terminal we were in were awfully crowded...but that decision was a dreadful mistake. Why? Well, this terminal was just as crowded and even more noisier...but we settled anyway...our project was literally shouting at us.
So then we're doing our stupid project, hate it, hate it, hate it. Then, suddenly, some guy asked us if he thought the speech he made were good for his students. when he was talking, I FELT LIKE I WAS IN BIMBO WORLD. I understood nothing. So christine asked if he ws teaching a University students and he answered yes.
"I think they will understan...cause we're not university student." Christine said.
"Oh, Ok" said the small dude. You know what that means? The four of us look like UNIVERSITY STUDENT!
And yet, here i am struggling with my school.....write in later to finish this story....
It's a long one.

Omg!!! Today was an amazing day...well everything did not realy turn out rite but we (Isabella, Christine, Y.J and me) had so much fun! Well, we did get something out for the lit project. We got what each character was supposed to be and then we found a new friend. Jeff. He's nice u guess....we talk alot. Mostly it was guys vs girls...and as we all know, Y.J always losing in the end..thanks to mui....hahaha. Ok, i think i sound evil. But nevermind. well, all of us talk about different topic. Like marriage. Wow, I hope to get married. i hope someone does wanna marry me. Marriage would be a nice step to take with someone u truely love. someone u wana give ur soul to. Haiz.....what a beautiful life would that be? Amazing i guess.

But anyway, let's talk about another topic. Harry potter!!!! I went to watch the movie on the public premier. I am not trying to be biased here but i really feel strongly that it is the best movie ever produce by any other director for Harry Potter movie series. It's not a children flick anymore. It's dark and intense. I have to admit they change quite a few stuff....but the point of the story was still there and it's seriously difficult to put more that 700 pages into a 2 and half hour movie. You've got to give David Yates the credit! So if anyone wanted to watch Harry Potter...do it fast! you won't be dissappointed! Trust me!