Yo.
How is everybody doing? I hope peeps are fine and I am doing well if, you know, any of you wondered.
So today post is undecided. Let's just start.
Looks has, somehow, seem not much of a criteria for me. I fall almost easily and it's easy to play with my feelings if you knew me close enough. The problem with me is that I want to fall in love so bad that requirements are flown out the window.
If you're male, that's good enough for me.
Oh boy, wasn't that stupid? I settled for anything and wanted something out of nothing. It was like a downward spiral of just desperation and a big hole that just keep sucking me in.
Why do I my post always talk about me and falling in love... so far nothing have worked out. SO why?
To be quite honest, I don't know. Being in love is some sort of magic that we created, I suppose. Who isn't jealous looking at couples being lovey dovey? holding each other? talking to each other... etc etc.
As you all know, weight is an issue for all the guys I liked....except for that New Zealand dude that briefly dated me- he had an issue with my blog about him...I kinda miss him though.
They have a problem with it and it makes me want to lose weight cause I like them so much and if they just give me a chance, they would have known... but then I fall off the wagon and they're disgusted.
They get disgusted with my weight. My WEIGHT. MY BODY.
And whatever I had been showing from the inside, whatever my character...it's never taken into account.
I don't know how many times I've heard that whatever someone have on the outside most probably won't last at all and character is something to be cherish and known.
Are those people not there when all these were said? Or have they not hear it at all? It's just sad.
