Hey! SCRAP BOOK!!!!

Today, I am going to share with you guys something that is very special to me.

This is my scrap book. My new Scrap book!..

well, not really new.... it started when I was in MI.

It has alot of stuff in it.

Stuff like....Guys I am crushing on.

As per below:

I laughed my head off because there is this one sentence I wrote.

I had a crush on a Police Academy Guy in the Mass Rapid Transit (MRT)

Look at how detail I was.

I added me newest latest crush....and it's not the guy that so stupidly ask me the most stupidest question ever....

I added SHINee Onew in it!! I hope it... I hope in five years time....I still be like... "Oh yeah, Hell yeah!!!"

So Why am I posting all this? Well, like I said before, I want to share with you my scrap book. It's something I treasure...and you might want to know something about me...

Hahaha.

Who am I kidding?

I am just here to brag about the things I did today. You see, this scrap book has a lot of my obsession or something that I really love in my life.

My very first entry was about Harry Potter...then....Twilight. I would have loved to take pictures but that is not really important right now.

Since, I fell sick today due to circumstances yesterday which lead to ALOT OF TEARS AND ALOT OF CONFUSION ONLY ON MY END (to that DUDE...Thanks for the heads up for screwing my day), I decided to update my Scrap book with my latest, unshakable and most recent obsession.

SHINee.

This is the 2nd page....I totally forgot to take the First page....So...Well....ISN'T IT SO AWESOME? LIKE FREAKINGLY AWESOME!

Then, turn 'pagey' (that's how the Korean say it) You still can see my dedication for SHINee. If you want to know where I got all the pictures....

Well, 2 words.

POKER CARDS.

So what do you think? I really love it. I wrote:

I Love SHINee

In KOREAN NONETHELESS!!!

The next page is Minho.

Let me explain why I did Minho first. I just watched the athletic meeting the Idols had about 2-3 days ago.

And Minho...he was the most memorable one in SHINee...and the most amazing one, I have to say.

So he was on my mind today and it was automatic that I wrote his name first.

Ok, you caught me.

I had a dream about him.

He kinda like me in my dream.....so....he was on my mind today...

Isn't it super nice? I kept looking at it...and well, Minho is reallllllllly GOOD LOOKING.

Even with the most DORKIEST HAIRCUTS! (Talking about haircuts, Our Taemin had his hair done again!!! He looks like he came back from the past! He had his debut hair again! It's soooooo cute!)

So after I was done with Minho....I had the SHINee rush again, so I collected all (or the ones I can fit in the next 2 pages) I pasted them in the most Scarppy book way.... and here is the result.

As usual, I started to panic.....Why? It was because it was getting late....and I haven't done Onew part yet! I wanted to give Onew a 3 page dedication because he is the love of my life....Or so I think he is.

So I, quickly but with the most love, did his part.

I was really into it too. I didn't care it took more than 2 hours. I just was really happy...and it made me realize that I really love this man.

I seriously do....

And I got mushy.

I know some of you hate mushy....and I know which ones of my friends hate it...but I really can't help but pen a romantic poem for him...even though he might never read it...

But I was satisfied with the result! So here's page 1 & 2 for Onew's part.

After, I was done with Onew.....I was really really really tired. Got a really back ached cause I sat in the same position without shiftiing so much...So I decided to close the book ( or keep looking at my scarppy book artwork) and call it a night.

But I had to blog about this and since I am already on this topic....I wanna share 2 photos of Taemin I bought today at Comic Connection (Don't worry, Christine....it was just $2. LOL).

I just have to say that this boy...or man....is just really GORGEOUS.

REALLY.

HERE HAVE A PEEK.

Isn't he just adorable.....I couldn't help but bought both....I was planning to buy one. But, I couldn't! I just really had to have both!

Well, I do lack self control...so please pardon me.

Ok so that's all...

Good nite and

COMMENT!

(Yep, that's a DEMAND)

Just got to brag.

The man! This man! This boy! This guy! This male! The specific species...... I love him. He's the only one in my badge collection that have 2 badges. I can't help it. Every time I go to the store to buy all this SHINee stuff, I would buy something Onew related. And I would make sure that I have more Onew stuff... I retarded.

Hai....So nice. Being in a band... These boys are driving me crazy!! How can 5 beautiful and talented people come together? ...... You boys are the reason music is alive for me.

Look at that!!!!!!! I bought that from Comic Connection. Ok...where else? All my five boys are there. Its so nice to start collecting all this.

But It's getting in tooo deep my pocket.

But I can't help it. I just pick and pick and pick until I feel like I can't breathe anymore. Then I go to the counter.

And the man....he's knows I ate the bait! He knows toooooooo well. He will take something that is not on the shelf yet and would show me...

And I would be like..

"Yes. this one. and this one. OOOOOHhhhh...this one. Definitely."

Why am I like this? I have tooo many stuff already. I wonder if one day I can still sell this on Ebay,... When I am over them.

Or when they finally become my friends...

I wish I was normal person who goes "there goes that crazy girl who think she's supporting them by buying all these.....junk."

Ok.. No. I don't want to be that person.

I rather be crazy. But, seriously, I need to get a life...get myself out there. Maybe not now..........

Enjoy the pictures....

Lots of love,

Roshilla Lee

The Lucifer Album (1-5)

I have been trying to do a video vlog about this...but somehow, nothing seem to come out right.

It would be the lighting, the things I am saying...

Sometimes, it was just EVERYTHING.

So, I am here. Blogging about it instead.

To start off, Let's take the first track off from the album.

Up and Down.

This song has a very "Highway" feeling about it. You know that song that you want to listen to when you're driving the highway? Letting your hair down and just letting the wind into it.

It's the song that you don't want to have on if you're lost though.

It's very upbeat and you can hear our boys very harmonized in this one. (not that they're ever not harmonized)

The music is about a very complicated girl who has mood swings. Honestly, I think it is. Ok. A very pretty complicated girl that have mood swings. And this kind of girl make the day of our boys...

they're singing things like

"You're a roller coaster ride"

"This is why it's so fun."

Hopefully, this is just a song they sing because, I am not that kind of girl. I don't have "mysterious" embracing me when I walked by.

It's more "SO TYPICAL" that is pasted on my forehead.

Anyways, on to the next song. The next song is called Lucifer.

This song, as the boys have many time claim, " is urben electronic". So I can't say anything about the song genre. I really love this song.

As so many million other girls.

I feel like this song is for those crazy, inhumane, really silly fangirls.

I would admit that I am a fan of this boys...but I would NEVER stamp on someone and not CARE that someone got hurt just trying to get these boy attention.

While I was lining up for the damn Q tickets with my sister, we met very very passionate fan who comes of scary...and I think SHINee knows about this.

Lucifer is about, as our lovely Taemin put it "about a men complaining that he felt very tied down because of the woman and he is asking his woman to believe in him."

The best part of the lyrics was Jong Hyun part.

"If this is love, if you love me, don't do this to me."

I felt this line is the most.....outstanding line. Why? because I feel like I could be a really clingy girlfriend. I mean, you have to cut me some slack, don't you think? 5 years with nothing. Not even a small bleep of romance in the air.

Nothing.

So I think if I ever find someone....I would be so clingy that the person can't breath. I would like to apologise for the future (near or far). I don't mean to be so "by your side" but....I can't help it. I love you. I need the attention. So....if you don't want me to so clingy..then ask me to listen to this song...and I would totally get it. But you have to understand that I will be piss for few days.

Sorry.

So the next song on the album is called Electric Heart.

I find this song...super sexy. I mean they're singing about candy and stuff.

When I hear a song about candy or something sweet...I can't help but think it's sexual.

I mean come on...hello? Candy shop? by 50cent?

And "milkshake" by...that girl with an afro hair?

This song is similar but not so sexual I guess. They sang it in a very robotic manner. A robot with alot of melody. This song is about a girl that the boy finds so rude but yet so attractive.

"Your arrogant, conceited attitude
My heart feels like it’ll explode"

This is the song you want to sing to that girl/guy that every one wants and yet you think that you are destined to be together.

Obviously, I like this song...but once again, I am kinda jealous because this song is not at all a description of the type of girl I am.

Do guys really want girls who are conceited? Girls who play around? Girls with such a mysterious aura?

I guess so....Sucks to be me.

The next song is called A-yo.

This is an inspiring song. People who have big dreams and feel down, you guys should listen to this song!

I listen to it when I feel like trash and feel like the world would be better off without me. This song keeps me going and I think alot of people can relate to the song.

It has a RnB groove to this song. It's has a very chilled out beat to it. The melody of the songs make you want to dance even if you can't. So, this is quite a groovy song if you asked me. But you didn't.

I am just telling.

The next song is, by far, the song that showcase Jong Hyun amazing vocal talent.

This song...well...even without knowing the lyrics, you would know that its a sad song. A broken song. A song that has daunting hunted feeling.

The song basically is about a man who love a woman so much to the point of obsession that the woman can't breath? Much like Lucifer...but this time it's from the "lucifer" POV?

I don't know....the direct translation doesn't really make sense. I think I would need to learn Korean properly to understand it.

The lyrics are complicated...things like this are being said:

"Why is my broken leg standing here?"

"your lips that left me shouldn't love, don't love me, I threw you away"

"Have fun noises left me? You seem so far away."

It doesn't make sense right? I know....But I love this song so much because I think that this song is about a man who leaves a woman he loves so much for her own good? Like when Clarke Kent left Loise Lane? Or when Edward Cullen left Bella? or when Harry Potter broke up with Ginny Weasley...

And also, Jong Hyun's voice is the killer!! He's so amazing here....and it seem like he knows the confuse feeling so well, furthermore, he wrote this song. So, alot of fans are wondering who is the girl that Jong hyun left and regret doing it.

I think he just wrote it not because he experience it before. I just feel like he might have watched alot of drama when he had no schedule!!! LOL.

Ok...so that's all for now....No. 1 to 5...

I will continue the rest some other day....!!!

BYE PEEPS.

Trying to shake it off

Do you guys know the feeling of being addicted?

I know that feeling far too well.

There were:

BSB

BRITNEY SPEARS

ROMANCE NOVELS

ROMANCE MOVIES

HARRY POTTER

TWILIGHT

EDWARD CULLEN

RUPERT GRINT

and now?

K-POP.

I have been through this so many times...and usually, the feeling of being addicted dies off...it's just so different this time.

I am still so hype about it. I still feel so new to it.

It's like there so much more to explore and I want to explore it.

It has become a repition.

Something that I can't seem to shake off....

I just wish I was that normal girl. I wish I wasn't so easily influence....but, I have to ask myself. If I had never known about K-POP...Would I be happy? Would I easily smile just at the sight of those K-POP music videos?

Can I live without knowing such a wonderful soul like Onew exist?

I don't think so.

This is all apart of my life now and my goal is to be an entertainer. I want to be apart of this K-POP entertainment industry.

It's aiming high...But....I want to be apart of it. So I don't care.

BTW, I am finally going to see SHINee soon at the Korean Pop Night concert. I hope Onew doesn't see me. I just don't want him to know that I exist. Right now, I am fine with my one sided love for him. He doesn't have reciprocate.

He deserves it.

Life is not great but it's going well...I don't have anything to worry. It's just work now. I wished I hadn't signed this stupid bond. I feel so tied up.

I hvae been wondering lately....I am 22 this year and yet to have my very first kiss.

I think I am worse off than the 'cat lady'.

When would I get it? Can I not wait anymore? How much more do I have to put myself out there?

I like what Christine said in her blog..

Illusions becomes delusions.

Something that never were reality turn into something that you believe. Delusions. Such a bad description...but soooo gooood.

Do I even make sense tonight?

I am not so sure...

GD nite..

I LOVE ONEW.

To ONEW

It's seem a bit crazy
For me to love you from here.
All that I have been hearing lately,
"Shilla, you've changed", I hear fear.

I can't help but feel more
The more you sing
The more I adore

So my love may never be known to you
And somehow, I am accepting fate.
Ten million other girls feel the same way too.
And I am hook on the bait.

Sometime I feel like, how can you not know this?
All the things I am doing,
All the things I am buying,
just to be that one person
to be the one supporting your dream.

People tell me,
'You're delisional"
"You're a hopeless case."
"You're just one of those."

It hurts.
But if my love is one of those
That makes you smile.

Then all of this, all of this....

Is worthwhile.