Who I am

I just read all my entries in this blog and I have realize in the past few days that I am quite a passionate person.
For instance, right now I am so obsessed with SHINee that I am going on a diet and actually trying to learn korean and only coming to YouTube to just watch their videos....Look at my DEDICATION AND PASSION...it's crazy! And before that it was Twilight and hence the twilight skin for this blog....

And before all this mayhem.... It was HARRY POTTER....

I realize that when I get obsess with things, I start to make this obssesion my life. So, well, all you guys out them better hope that I wouldn't be obsess with you....cause I really think I would stalk you down.

Just like what I am doing with ONEW/LEE JINKI..

Everything little thing that Onew/Lee Jinki does is so funny even when it's not that funny...I don't know, he just cracks me up and put a smile on my face..and make my heartbeat run a little faster than normal.

THIS IS NOT NORMAL.

I have such high hope for myself and finding out who I really am...well, it makes me happy. All I know now is that I am the person who I wanted to be...Right now, life is fun and awesome!

I am just a girl.
I am also the superhero.
I am me.
And that is why I am still here.

I breath life in now...I don't push it away..sure it gets lonely sometimes but now...work is good and I am really doing well...I am not bragging as I have never done so well in life as I have now....I am actully feeling bright and yellow and it's sunshine everyday. I love that I am obsess with Korean stuff because it keeps me occupied and for the first time, I feel like I am not taking life for granted.

Last time, I used to think to have an adventure you have to bleed and bruise, I mean come on! Movies like Indaina Jones or the Transformer...all have an amazing adventure....but now I realize, I am going through an adventure too....and I am not bleeding or bruising.....Life is freaking roller coaster and being obsessed with all this SHINee and Korean stuff just made the wheels move faster!!!

A devoted person.

I have been working my ass off at work and neglecting this blog. I am sorry....but, its not like people read it.

Anyways, I just want to confess.

Forgive me, because well, this is another obessesion.

I am obsess with Korean stuff.....It's been a month and it has not died down. There is sooooo much to know about this miracle that I just found.

I think I have blogged this before because I am feeling a sense of DEJAVU...but,seriously, who cares. All i know is that I am the only one that loves Onew like nobody does. I appreciate everything that is about him. His looks, his clumsiness and most of all, HIM. Lee Jinki or Onew is the best creation god has ever created on this face of the planet. I am grateful that Onew exist in this world so that I can spent my time just driking in everything about him.

Sounds like a pray, don't it?

But, guys, I really am obsessed with this korean stuff that I am jumping up and down out of excitement when I start my Korean classes!!!! I can't wait to say my name is Shilla in korean and I cannot wait to master the language and go to korea and marry a korean man!!!!!

WHOA! HOLD YOUR HORSES, SHILLA!

I love this obsession, I may turn out to be a stalker and get arrested and get a restraining order but....I love this obsessive feelings....

And being In love with ONEW/LEE JINKI is just super awesome.

Sure, some might laugh at me and scoff at me for dreaming too much. For being delusional....but if u have any idea how happy I am right now because of Lee Jinki/ Onew existence....you guys wouldn't scoff so much.

I am such a dreamer. I dream too much and get my heads in the clouds...but who cares? I mean where else can you find such elation unless it's fantastical? Reality pretty much is okay right now....but hearing SHINee say that I am pretty everyday from my Ipod makes me feel like a girl and yes, feel very pretty. So you haters, suck on that!

Anyway, I can't wait to meet Isabella and Christine this friday...I am going to bring my laptop and seek Christine advice before I buy the CDs of SHINee online. Have to be precise and careful...

Ok, back to looking at Onew.....

YES!!!! CLICK PLAY.

I love CHRISTINE's blog

Recently, if you guys didn't know, I am really into this korean band called SHINee and I really absolutely adore them. Their music is a bit of RNB and Pop...It's really nice and I recommend people to watch it, love it and support these boys.

I am not exegerating when I say that these boys are THE princes we, girls, have been dreaming of and drooling over. Just google them in the engine search.

Oh, if you cannot believe that I am eating my words yet again, you can blame Christine....and her blog. I don't know how many time I said this, But it's the freaking the encyclopedia of all the KOREAN bands....

And her latest blog was partially dedicated to me. And every bit of info I took in...really really made me think I should have been there for MY ONEW....

He fainted, guys!!!! and somebody carried him and he was really weak and....he almost look dead.

God, please have mercy...don't take his soul yet. I haven't even met him and we're meant to be together.

WHOA, I SOUND LIKE A FREAKING STALKER AND A PSYCHO.

I don't want to sound like another Fangirl but I really can't help it! Why why? Why am I like this?

The thing about Christine blog that I love, Shes not delusional....She's factual....and she love SHINee like a bigger sister and I am freaking older than her and I am blushing and laughing like a stupid girl with no IQ.

Haiz....it's been about 2 weeks in since I ate rice and I really miss it.

DON'T WORRY GUYS....I am eating a bit of carbs from mashed potato....and sometimes I "mashed" the potato myself. LOL. and it's really kinda of shitty.

I love you, Onew. I do. Find me, ok?

Saranghe,

SHILaa.