Hey babe! I hope you're reading this. Before I start, let me just say that I am already missing you so dearly. I cannot imagine not making funny jokes and you're not there.
Just can't imagine the scenario.
The decision you have made, I will never contest. I hope, in this decision, that you find your happiness and greatness in it. I know you will love every minute you spent doing what you like. When I heard it for the first time, I swear, I was thoroughly happy for you. I was beyond happy. I know how happy you will be if this were to happen. But, nevertheless, I was completely shock. Not because, I was jealous or anything like that sort but I suddenly realize, that you will be gone. No longer there with me to talk to. No longer there to smile and laugh at my stupidest joke ever. Then, I realize, it was all "I"s in the sentence, I will shove them aside for you happiness.
You will be miss by me sooooooo dearly. I really love you as my own sister and I am so happy you're part of my life now. It's a signed contract and you cannot vanish on me ever. I hope we still keep in contact and I WILL EMAIL YOU EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE just to see what's and how's it's been going for you.
I cannot believe you're leaving by this wednesday.
I will soooo miss you. You're like a sunshine....and cute. And extra bonus points.
I am going to wish you all the best and hope you find friends that will love you just as much as I love you and I hope even more but I do not think anyone can beat my love and care for you. Not in a million, billion and gazillion years.
As I am typing this, there's an ache in my heart. I will sorely miss you. Guess what? I will miss you even more than my ex. I hope you do know how much you mean to me, babe. I tell you how much.......oops....I cannot even put it in words.......I will show when you ask me.
I know this may sound cliche but YOU mean much more to me than the world....even if it's cloned! LOL.
I hope this does not make you cry.....cause I am about to. Brawl over and cry my eyes out....till it's sore and I can't see.
I want to say...don't leave, Haf. Don't. Stay.
But I can't.
It's too selfish and I want YOU to be somebody someday and I will not stop you from the great things that you can be. You WILL be.
Don't cry.
If you need me, I will be here. For you. Anytime.
I am missing you already....
Love you forever,
Shilla.
