Post KMW Part One...

Today my life is so fullfilled. Met all the talented people in the entire world and rock my ass out although I was dehydrated at the end of the awesome concert.

but, I will replay the scene like it is playing in my head at this very moment.

Thursday, 14 July 2011, 11 pm Dhoby Ghaut Mrt.

The 3dignity met and we were so excited. At this point, all of us were just wearing comfortable clothes except for Della. She was wearing something that she might wear to the concert.

My sister and I, as usual, brought so much and it was embarrassing because we packed to be comfortable as the last time we went to Kpop nite, it was so horrible. So, this year, we were determined to be as comfortable as the place can offer.

So we hop on the train from Dhoby Ghaut circle line and headed to the stadium with our bags and hopes.

Thursday, 14 July 2011, 11.30 pm Singapore Indoor Stadium.

When we reach the destination, there were music pumping out from the Stadium walls...and it was UKiss!!! I started jumping and screaming...and I thought the other maknaes would too but... they were calm, just putting out a smile.

I felt like a small kid but I just couldn't stop...and hold Christine hands and kept screaming and jumping...oh well, Hoon was so close... what do yout expect?

Anyways, when we got there.. we saw that there were some people crowding around a barricade so... like fans, we ran to it... except for Shirin; I guess she just didn't want HOT people to see her beautiful face, and we stood as near as we could...

THEN...

Nothing.

So we waited abit and then nothing happened and the crowd thin, so we went to sit near the barricade and open up the sleeping bag.

Let me tell you this, sleeping bag never felt so comfortable. I think it was the excitement and the fact that we were going to be comfortable enhance the comfortableness of the sleeping mat.

Am I making sense?

Then, after talking and eating (what else?), there was another van and Christine, Della and me rushed to the barricade and started waving at the bus even though we didn't know who will be inside but then I swear I saw Suzy waving (or her shadow...)!!!! I started screaming... and then the bus went in further in and ... nothing as usual. The girls were covered and we couldn't see anything.

So after all the "it was Suzy!" "Did you see that? She waved lah!!", we went back to our mattress and started talking and eating (Fried rice, if any of you were curious) again. While we were minding our business, Della went to the barricades again or went to buy drinks... I am not sure where she went and I am also not sure if Shirin was there even.. All I could remember from this is that I was sitting with Christine.. munching on something and we were chatting and a van pass by and stopped right infront of us and like before, we wave to it without knowing who was inside (seriously, it could just be random people inside) but a few of them wave back (or a few of them shadows). Later on, like maybe a few seconds ticked by, Christine and I stood up ...and the van went off... zoom in a flash.. Della came to us and said "it's Ukiss eh!!" And all I could think about was Hoon was in there... he could HAVE BEEN THE ONE WAVING!

As time went by from 14 July to 15 July, a bus came in to bring The Boss and X5 and this time, I remember not going because...I was not a huge fan.

A few hours passed and the bus was schedule to go out again, this time, Christine, Della, Shirin and I decided to stand near the ERP exit as the bus would need to stop for a few minutes. So we sat there for awhile with our coke in hand.

Suddenly someone said "Excuse me." We turned our head to the sound of the voice only to find that it was coming from the ERP intercom.

Then it continued saying the following.

"Please do not sit there."

As we were abiding citizen, we shifted from the place to somewhere nearer. Just a few steps away. As time went by, the bus for The Boss and X5 finally came out and we rushed and stood at the ERP gantry again...

When the bus was finally right infront of us, we waved! And GUESS WHAT?! KARAM WAVED AT US AND...

I STARTED SCREAMING LIKE AN IDIOT AND HELD CHRISTINE HAND AND JUMPED BECAUSE OF EXCITEMENT. I should know that I probably looked crazy..but I don't. I was just so happy that someone like them could appreciate someone like me. Its an amazing feeling.

Friday, 15 July 2011, 1 am onwards Singapore Indoor Stadium

You guys may think that being there should be exciting.. I mean, I have been describing all the sighting in vans and how great it was... but, honestly, that was just for a few hours... so by 2am, the stadium was empty, there was no official queue because apparently, the organizers didn't want anybody sleeping over the stadium, and we had to put our faith in a line that was start up by random people.

So for the next 9 or 10 hours or so, there was nothing going on, the place where we were seated was so hot because we were seated right under a spotlight, we couldn't sleep because of the condition, I started to smell like shit and it was just not pleasant even with all the pillows and sleeping bags that we brought.

I remember just being in a dazed and really unhappy because I can't sleep and even when I did, it seem like I didn't and I was always waking up perspiring like .... alot. I also remember walking with Christine and since we were tired, conversation was minimal and I didn't like it so I will asked random question and she would just answer it although the question was asked before. We would randomly sit down on stairs and find it comfortable and let sleep do its magic. It was like we were homeless.

By 6am, we came back to our spot where Della and Shirin was seating and were told that a security guard came and said that we have to pack up and leave as we weren't supposed to sleepover and the set up wasn't going to happen until 11 am.

Yeah, as if we were going to believe that.

We actually panic because of this and believed the security guard I thought of looking for updates regarding KMW on facebook, but there was nothing. They said that they were going to update regarding the queueing up formation before KMW but they didn't. So I gave up and panic on the inside because all this waiting would be for nothing if we didn't get the front part. But, with blessing, Christine and Shirin found the map where the entrance should be and we told the other 'friends' we made.

They didn't believe us and doubted. Which in turn just made us doubt ourselves.

But guess what? We were right and the random people line was split to Pen A and Pen B. Pen B people started to shift and because we were carrying so many things, we were not the first but we were the FIRST FEW.

But... this was still unofficial and even though we were trying to be calm, I could see that we were kinda doubting. But somehow, we kinda just let it to fate... I let it to fate grudgingly because if this was going to turn out to nothing, I dragged friends along to this grave and this realization upset me.

While waiting, we played alot of games and this get us very HIGH but then we got easily bored because we were using our energy too much. Or our energy wasn't enough.

By 11 am, the sun started to rise up and I was getting anxious because nothing is being done and I asked Christine to tag along with me to check on the other side to see if maybe they set up a barricade for Pen A people... but, when we reach to the other side, there were no lines at all.

What I meant was that there WASN'T even a line. As in there was nobody at all... I started panicking inside...

The sun was rising as I mentioned before and we brought our umbrellas for this kind of situation and used it. We were like Princess of Candle land because we would melt from the heat. Muahaha...ok lame.

Suddenly, a group of people were walking pass us and looked at us.. then the talk was that those people were the organizers and the next minute I knew they were giving our water because it was hot but like magic, it rain a few minutes later and one of the organizer people came and said, "We are going to move you but please respect your friends and remember your position."

And so, the OFFICIAL line began and we were the first few people. Our chance of getting the front part of the concert was VERY high.

Then we needed to wait for another 7 hours.

While 2 hours passed and we were in the waiting line, there were these girls in Uniform who came at 1pm just cut the cue because their 'friends' were there. I was pissed off. I mean I can understand if it's one person...but it was 4 people. I remember Christine and I just kept on staring (the maknaes were buying food for us) at those girls and their "friends" and yet they avoided our gaze. So we started talking as loudly as we could saying that how idiotic it was, how unfair it and we kept on staring at those bloody uniform girls.

But still, they were as thick face as ever and they didn't even budge. Two of them even change into home clothes. That was seriously fuck up. When the maknaes came back with our food, we quickly complained to them and we could see fire in their eyes blazed and they were furious. But food was there and we ate like there was no tomorrow.

But while we were eating, the maknaes didn't give up and kept looking and I was so PISSED off as well so I kept talking loudly... The "friends" who let these bitches in came to us (I think they were getting very uncomfortable with ALL the stares that THE FOUR OF US were giving) and .... I was about to punch their faces if they said that we shouldn't stare at them.. but alas, they came to explain the situation.

They told us that the bitches were not really their friends and they DID told the bitches to go to the back because it would not be fair for the others who have slept over for more than 12 hours. But THESE BITCHES HAD THE GUTS TO SAY "NOBODY FROM THE BACK WOULD MIND"!!!

HOW FUCKING RETARDED IS THAT? Why wouldn't WE mind? Just so you guys knows, these are girls who are going to a SECONDARY school not some PRIMARY OR KINDERGARTEN, shouldn't they have some sort of BRAIN?

Christine said immediately "WE ABSOLUTELY MIND."

The original plan was to pretend to approach the "friends" and complain about those bitches so they would move to the back. We agreed to it and went on eating first but then these "friends" disappeared somewhere.

So we thought of waiting BUT THEN, there was this girl who ALSO WENT TO FETCH HER FRIENDS AND ALLOWED THEM TO CUT THE DAMN QUEUE.

Ok, lets just hold up here. Who gave you the right to just pull your friends in just because you slept the night before? SERIOUSLY, you don't equal to your 4 other friends. You equal to 1 person. How hard is that to figure out?

Back to the story, this change of event spiked our blood even more and we were really PISSED OFF. The maknaes were saying "Let's just tell them off." "Let's not wait for their 'friends'" We (the Unnies) tried to calm them down by saying that "Let's just wait for the friends. We planned this.." Honestly, I was kinda scared to approach them. I hate conflicts and I don't really fancy to be looked at as a bitch and this was why I wanted to stall the maknaes.

But it seemed like the "Friends" were not coming back anytime soon and I think Della had enough so she stood up followed by Shirin and went and approach the friends. By this time Christine stood up and I followed her immediately and she quickly went to the security guard and just explain the situations. The security guard came to the queue and approach ALL THE BITCHES (BOTH IN UNIFORM AND IN HOME CLOTHES).

By this time, you probably thought I just stood there... but no. This is because the security had no IDEA who cut the queue and yours truly POINTED EVERYONE OF THEM. I could tell people from the back was looking at the chaos that was made by 3DIGNITY. The security guard manage to get the bitches to move to the back. I actually heard someone from the back say "Thank you!". I also the "friend" just hiding away when they saw creating quite a situation. What losers.

So, wasn't that eventful? I should seriously just forward to the concert.

Friday, 15 July 2011, 6:30 pm Singapore Indoor Stadium

We were checked, tickets were collected and our hands were stamped with a logo "south". by this time all of us were readily made up. The maknaes looked like dancers and Christine looked like Emma Watson. And I just looked....... like.... me. Nothing brilliant, really. Was really overshadowed by the other three beauties.

But this is not upsetting. I was just really excited to get in. I keep reminding all of the three beauties just to run to the front part of the stage if there is no one and just keep running even if someone just ask us to walk instead.

AND WHEN WE GOT IN...HOLY, THAT WAS WHAT THEY DID...except for Della.. I really don't know where she went..but Christine, Shirin and I were running like mad because the front part was EMPTY and we just headed to that like bees to the bee hive.

Don't worry, Della manage to be with us too because we turn and saw her and scream different things.

Christine: DELLA RUN!

Shirin: WALAO, WEITING!!!! FASTER!!!

Me: WEITING! WHAT ARE YOU DOING! RUN!!!!!

So... then we waited again inside. However they were showing all of the sponsors and... there were a couple of eye candy showcased and I screamed when KIM HYUN JOONG was shown. That guy is just really super hot and there is no way that I can't scream seeing him anywhere.

When 7:30 came, the MCs came out and the whole stadium went wild!!! All the four us were already screaming like mad girls. or PSYCHOS. The MCs included Min from Miss A and Kevin from U-Kiss. I remembered that I kept screaming for Min to look my way but... well, she only looked later.

The first band to perform was FT Island.

They weren't the rookie but I think because they played real instrument and there will be so much movement, the organizers wanted to get that over with.

The performance was start off by Sarang Sarang Sarang (Love Love Love)! This was a great performance. I kept calling for Jong Hoon because I was trying to get him to look at Christine... because well, she luuuuurrrrvvvvv him lah. But that boy was so hard to get! He looked and then looked away!!!! But when he does give me an eye contact (Which was only one time) I just wanted to run away and hide. That guy was really so handsome and so gorgeous. I felt quite inferior.

Hongki was intense as ever and it so hard for to get eye contacts from him... not that I tried or anything tho... mostly just concentrated to get Jong Hoon to see Christine. I felt it was important for him to see Christine and I don't know why tho. So back to Hongki, he seem to like our side because well, you know his hand movement right.... well, like crazy girls, we mirrored it. IT SERIOUSLY WAS SO MUCH FUN TO ME!!!!

After performing the first song, the MC came out and asked FT Island to introduce themselves. Not that people don't know already. So here, the MC had a few conversation with FT Island. I can't really remember what Hongki was saying but the thing that stood out was that when the MC asked what was their favorite local and I remember saying out loud "again?"... How unoriginal are we and how many times must we asked this? And they ALWAYS seem to answer Chilli Crab.... is that really the ONLY local dish that taste so good? But anyways, Hongki didn't really answer Chilli Crab... but King Crab.. Which is known to be a Japanese cuisine. I didn't realize this or I don't think anybody else for that matter cause mostly we heard "crab"... Jong Hoon realize this and kinda laughed at Hongki who in turn just looked embarrassed.

So FT Island sang 4 songs...which was one more song than last year. Sarang Sarang Sarang, Hello Hello, Bing Bing Bing and I hope. I think our side was really crazy because Jaejin actually came to our side and shake his butt when Hongki went infront to the T-Stage. I wished that we hvae recorded that because right after Jaejin shake his bon bon... Jong Hoon did it as well. I could feel myself screaming like it was the first time I've seen a HOT guy shake his ass. I was so glad too!

Bon bon shaking never fails to make me happy. What can I say? I am a perverse person.

Seunghyun seem to be in a daze, tho. He doesn't seem to be into it like the rest of his hyungs. And Minhwan was just... too far. I remember screaming his name but he was too far off the stage that it was pointless. Why KMW!!!???? Everybody was not playing Live... next time just strap a toy drum set on Minhwan shoulders so he can interact with us too!

It was really sad when the first performance ended... and this was FTI. So I was already very high and wanted more!

The next performing acts are Touch! ... So before this, I was dared to scream "TOUCH, YOU'RE SO HOT." and when the time came, I did what I was supposed to do.

But the thing that shocked me were... that THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY VERY HOT AND GORGEOUS. I was so gobsmack by their hotness that I could not stop screaming! I had alot of eye contact with one of the member of Touch..the hottest one.

I was just looking around google and found out that TOUCH meant The Original Undeniable Charismatic Homme. But back to the story, TOUCH's songs were quite good and its even better when you have 5 men dancing and grooving for your.

I was so crazy for them that I started showing heart shape hands to them. One of them smile and pointed at me and I scream yet again.

Here is a picture of them in case you're just curious:

I am not quite sure which one smiled at me because I was doing the heart shape... but the point is I KNOW the reason why he pointed at me. It wasn't because he find me attractive or anything.. sad knowing this realization... but he was smiling at pointing at me because I was unintentionally doing one part of their dance. They had a dance which included a heart shape hand movement. The dude probably thought I was a fan...hahaha, well, I am now... since they were so hot. Hey, you have to give beautiful people some time... it's just the rule of the world.

So after performing one song, the MC came out again and TOUCH introduce themselves, screams evolved and I just kept on screaming "Touch is so HOT" so many times. I think it kinda got their attention that there was a girl who looked crazy and they waved. Which just made me ... say the line some more. After the conversation they had with MC, they sang and dance again and I was just really having fun mimicking their move as possibly as I can.

After Touch perform it was Dal Shabet and X-5

.. and seriously, I was not pumping up and down for this one. Firstly, Dal Shabet... was just... the replacement for SNSD... same sound, same high voice.. same showing off of legs... it was just.. boring. X-5 on the other hand... I was told that they were tall guys and I would like to add they are tranformers boys. They were dancing like robots and it was, just like Dal Shabet, boring. During both the performance I didn't do much. I even yawn for one of the performance. So not much here.

After this was THE BOSS or DaeGuNaMa or DNA. Not sure which name they go by these days. But in the concert, they were introduce as THE BOSS.

The boss performance was highly anticipated but not for me... I rested for this one also but they are good. I knew some of the parts of the song they were performing, mainly the chorus... so I sang along but I wasn't really a fan and I didn't do much. But at least for their performance, I did not yawn, I was entertained and Hyunmin have got better. He wasn't as nervous as before.. I screamed Karam name and Shirin whispered to me that he was 15...and I told Christine this info... so, I scream "Karam, I want to take care of you!"...

But Shirin said that the she gave us wrong info... Karam is actually 19. Oh well... he does look like 15 if you ever have the chance to see this boy in person. I still can't grasp the fact that he is older than Taemin.

Taemin looked older, right? I am just making a point... I should go back to my concert story.

The next performance was TEEN TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG TEEN TOP! TEEN TO THE EFFING TOP!

I WAS anticipating for this performance because I have blog about these awesomely talented boys before and it was exciting to see Changjo and Niel for the first time. I also felt my motherly instinct kicking in because I wanted them to know that they have fans here and we love them all! So I started screaming and singing along to their song and even mimick the Clap hand movement, the superman move for supa luv which I saw CAP laughing when we did that move. We must have looked silly... heh!

When the MC had the mini conversation with TEENTOP, at first, L.Joe was speaking in english and I really was not listening...because I kept screaming for Niel, Ricky and Changjo. But what did get my attention was when L.Joe said, "I'm sorry, I don't quite understand." Then Keving translated for him. What I like about this was the fact that L.Joe was not ashamed to ask again because he knew he tried to speak in english. And that's all that matter!

They sang all their single; clap, angel and supa luv, I remember having a few eye contacts with Changjo... It was crazy because I forgot that he probably can be my kid brother. Nevertheless, there was one time that he pointed and waved at me and I seriously went nuts by screaming at the top of my lungs!

All in all, Teen top excited me and their performance was fabulous and it was great to see that many people around me supported them because they do deserve all the love! TEENTOP rocks my socks!!!

I will just have to stop here for now... Tell me what you think, ok?!!!!

MORE COMING UP! MISS A, UKISS, 2NE1 AND BIGBANG.... AND SOMETHING THAT I AM JUST DYING TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT... HOON.

GOOD BAMS!

Almost one year and half now.

So I have been in the KPOP scene for almost 1 1/2 now.

The more I know and all the new bands that I am exposed to, I love it!

But, I am here to talk about... My love.

Onew.

I am still soooo in love with him.

I cannot believe it but he is just so adorable.

If I ever ever ever manage to get my voice out there... I Will write a SONG ABOUT HIM.

and just place the title Onew.

Just make it obvious.

SO, you know... That BOY.

I am here to talk about that man.

You have no idea what I am talking about, right? Ok. So I had this amazing idea of writting about all the dreams about that one man who always turns out to be the LOVE of my life...but I can NEVER see his face.... It's always blurred out.

Have you guys have that kind of dream before?

I better get to the dreams... I can feel it slipping through my brains.

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DREAM 1

I remember this dream was just a whirlwind. I remember holding on this guy's hand and we were running. At first, it felt like I was in someone else's body because it's like ...I finally woke up... and here I was running around, holding this stranger's hand....but, I could not careless.

At this point, we were still running around (and this man's face was still blurred out) ... We we running and running.... and then I realized....

I was horny. (Muahaha! Just being honest)

So, actually, we were running and giggling because we were finding a toilet to do the deed. How kinky and dirty that was?! But that was what we were doing... (please don't forget that this is a dream, people)

So, finally, after running around stairs and bumping into alot of people (because apparently, we were in a party) we found a toilet that was available.

It was HUGE!! (What I meant was the toilet....not the...you know...) and I just felt it was more like a closet.

Well, he started taking off his shirt and trying to get off mine....but then, I woke up.

Yeah, I know, talk about an anti-climatic ending, right?

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DREAM 2

This dream was really... like a story,,,and it was like a chinese gangsta story, y'all!

So I was the girlfriend of this guy,, who the name I totally cannot remember now...but all I know I belong to him and he controlled me. And in that dream, I was in love with that... it felt like I was being protected and cared for... since I was so desperate for any kind of attention in real life... this controlling man that my subconscious created was kind of like a salvation and I loved it.

Fine. I was his bitch. I know all of you were thinking that...

Anyways, in this dream, I knew I arrived to this downtown block that was vacant (except for gang members and drugs addicts coming to buy drugs)...so, people were pointing to me to this room when I was roaming around... I finally open the door and there he was (his face blurred)... So here's how the dialog went down

Me: Hey...

Him: Where did you go?

Me: I was just-

Him: Did you meet other guys?

Me: No! I was j-

Him: Then where did you go?!

Me: I was just coming here and I am-

Him: I love you so much... why can't you love me just as much?

And this time, he broke down....(but didn't cry)...and he came and hug me...and I was ok with that! Can you believe it? I was literally.....really in love with this due and all i did was actually hug back...and we kissed.

How fucked up is that?

So back to the story, while were romantically hugging..there were gun shots everywhere and he grabbed my hand and we ran...but got seperated and he screamed...."meet me at starbucks!"

so I went searching for starbucks...BUT THERE WAS NONE AROUND. At all!!!! There were alot of Coffeebean shop... but no Starbucks. By this time, I was really just panicking... and I bumped into my family...and I really asked them...where is starbucks? and they said it was around the corner...

So the corner I went... and NOTHING! ..... Then, I went around....and started crying... but right before I woke up... The last scene, was a rider on a biker passing me by...and I know it was him! but that scene. was like telling me...he was letting me go.

YUP. I ain't his bitch anymore.

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DREAM 3

This dream...was the sweetest.

This third blurred face guy that I dream about... was my husband.

He was really the guy I was so content to be with. We were talking about something and he was explaining to me that he had everything firgured out and he wants kids.

And If you know me, I don't really like KIDS. But the way he was pleading with me was just really hypnotising...and I said Yes.

And then we started to have names... I immediately put dibs naming the girls if we have them..

I told him that first daughter name would be Charlotte Nur Isyafina... and he smiled and repeat it...like this:

"so....Charlotte Nur Isyafina LEE?"

Then....yes, you're right.

I freaking woke up....

Could it be, I was dreaming about Onew? .... this dream just really spoilt my whole day at work and I kept saying how I just want a good husband... everyone was so annoyed.

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So that is all the dream about those blurred faces man who made an impact in my life and made dream that I cannot stop thinking about.... and all the "what if" question just keep popping.

Alas, these dreams keep a smile on my face but ....it still remain a dream. which sucks.

It would have been so much sexier if I was REALLY A GIRLFRIEND TO A CHINESE GANGSTA!

MUSIC VIDEO REVIEWS

So, You have to click on the link below to see what I am talking about.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ld95rZy27hI&feature=youtu.be

So, I just came back from my girl, CHRISTINE's, blog and I have to admit, she does goooooooooood reviews. Anyhoos, first up is my FAVOURITE boy band, SHINee.

They came back or 'debut' for the first time in Japan with their MOST epic song "Noona, you're so pretty" or Replay -君は僕のeverything.

It's the same concept although... argh, I just really... wanna complain that it should not be Yoona. Come on! I get it that SNSD(ork) are getting quite popular in Japan.... (It would have been Kara but ... they... well you know the story) BUT DO THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO USE SOMEONE FOR SOMEBODY ELSE'S SAKE?

What I am trying to say is, when SNSD(ork) had Gee and Minho was in it, people (like me) are saying "oh god. how pathetic can they be? using Minho's popularity.... damn you bitches." and now, its like hogging somebody's spotlight is like part of a clause in the contract they signed.

AS IF SHINee NEED ANY HELP FROM HER.

I am pretty sure SHINee can be popular on their own., so SM stop with the 'rubbing off popularity' thing already. You should try to trust your groups more. Argh!

Well, what can I say? I don't really fancy song being converted to Japanese... I just am not one of those who can... adapt. I really LOVE the Korean version ... this Japanese conversion just sound really weird and awkward to me... But the MV, well, it's well made. Loving the colours, loving the set, loving the story behind it... loving Onew's acting. Hehe.. I can see his beautiful face now, not that the others don't distract me... they're all good looking now especially Minho.. but my eyes... are just diverted to Onew when they are dancing as a group and this made me realize something too..

ONEW CAN'T LIPSYNC TO SAVE HIS LIFE.

Not that its a bad thing. It's just a really cute adorable thing (don't judge me). And I think I get the story, at the end where Christine's said she doesn't understand why Yoona had to be there.. I think she's like their music teacher or something. Or just somebody to teach something. or Maybe not. Maybe SHE IS HOGGING the spotlight.

So will this be in my Ipod? No, because I just don't fancy it all. Not these conversion....

Ok toodles.

O.M.G this is so boring.

So here I am. It's about 4:53 in the morning and I still am awake. Its so boring right now that I think if a cat peed, I would have called it entertainment.

So today was an interesting day.

Considering.

Slept with so much nightmare the night before due to anxiousness of buying the ticket to Korean Music Wave. This time around, Proof Label (the organizer), did the most unexpected move by teaming up with SISTIC and selling the ticket online. It was most definitely because (although this might totally be just my opinion) of last year MAJOR crowd that turn up at Somerset 313 and the chaos it all cause by having a physical line up for the MAJOR tickets.

Alas, the ticket was sold online this time... and ... well, technology CANNOT be trusted due to instability.

So the day finally came on the 7th of May, which was yesterday, and my friend and I decided to call each other and BOTH be online to book the ticket just in case the site crash.

and it seem that there could be a chance that the site might crash.

So there I was, in front of my laptop with my earphones from my phone plugged into my ear (I wanted to be hands free) talking how nervous we were.

Then 12pm came...and the site LITERALLY started to slow down due to overwhelming traffic. My computer didn't reach the page first but Christine's did. So she went ahead to book the ticket.

So while booking and proceeding to payment... You know how these days the visa have a 3D verification programme where they send One Time Pin(OTP) only to your phone to authorise the payment? Well, Christine reach that page and I received the OTP and she keyed it in only to be denied payment due to the OTP is wrong. So, I checked my phone again, told her the SAME DAMN OTP again, she keyed it in correctly...AND WE WERE DENIED AGAIN.

Christine tried it again, and ALAS, my card was disabled to make any online transaction.

Well, this time I was already panicking thinking the seats were all taken and that our dream to be standing in the mosh pit as 3Dignity was gone..So, like an idiot, I just make the booking again and was brought to a page for the 3D payment verify thing again. only this time in BOLD RED it said the following:

YOUR CARD HAVE BEEN DISABLED TO DO ANY ONLINE TRANSACTION. PLEASE CONTACT UOB AT 1800 222 2222 FOR ASSISTANCE.

My panic mode escalated, so did Christine because I was, literally, screaming "shit! my card have been disabled!!! my card have been disabled!"

And without thinking, I dialed the bank and accidentally hung up the phone... I think.. by this time, Christine WAS panicking too. I think she might have been running around the house, screaming for her dad to borrow his credit card to pay and swear that we will return it...

but that is just what I imagine because I called the bank, got all of it sorted out and called Christine up while I did the booking. Of course she picked up by the second ring and I was still trying to put in my personal details (a particular thing that I HATE about internet booking) Christine was preparing too with her dad's card at hand.

Well, we actually calm down and concentrate. So since the ALL the money was in MY card, we both decided that I try it one last time. So this time, I did the booking..(the mosh pit was still available) and I tried as calmly as I could to do the booking even though I was shaking...I reach the 3D verification page...key in my OTP....and VUALA! I manage to book us our PREFERRED mosh PIT!

We screamed and laugh and I was jumping up and down because....all of this amazingly happen within 20 minutes.

It felt like forever.

So that is what happen today. Crazy, huh?

So THE 3Dignity are definitely going to the KMW this year! It would be super duper awesome! I mean Big Bang and 2NE1... TEENTOP? MISS A!!! it would be a SUPER awesome day!!!!

But you know what? After all this... our anxiousness and fear of the tickets being sold within minutes... guess what? The mosh pit and other GOOD seats are STILL AVAILABLE. so... if you want to go...GO NOW~!!!!

http://www.sistic.com.sg

nights PEOPLE!

HOW TO WRITE THIS.

How do I write this without regretting it later? To even pen this thoughts is difficult. I wanted to write in a journal but.... I feel so lonely in my journal.

Its just me, myself and I there.

Its amazing how I am just sitting here trying to write something that truly have been hurting me but thinking of ways to avoid writing insensitively.

Because when it comes to hurting me, people just say what they want to say.

It must be the glorified feeling one can get when I put my head down and just shut my mouth up.

Most of the time, things said to me catch me off guard and all I can do is feel the pain riding up my chest, slowly spreading out.

I wanted to defend myself but it will just appear calculated.

I wanna die. Kill myself.

THEY ARE COMING!

HAVE YOU GUYS HEARD?

I hope you guys did...BIG BANG AND 2NE1 are FREAKINGLY COMING!

You know what this mean?

It means....SORRY, Jang Geun Suk that is coming in this april...I am really sorry, but priorities are priorities.

Back to topic, I got this awesome news from of course, (WHO ELSE?) Christine Solano, while I was in Isabella dorm room... where it was really absolutely boring because Isabella was taking a bath and there was no tv...

I almost jump out of the window but alas, the window was blinded... you know, with blinders.

This is awesome news for this year, I kinda regretted not going for the Super Show that was held here (though I don't know why, I am not even a big fan of Super Junior)

But this is BIG BANG and 2NE1! I can't wait AT FUCKING ALL! I really wish we get the front PIT AGAIN.

This time no giving up! and I am keeping my leave! so that I can line up and shit... Hopefully, we get awesome PIT standing or the VIP standings.

I hope SNSD are not coming. Or SHINee.

Not that I don't want to see my favourite boys....but if they are overworked...the performance will be just disappointing like the last time and as a Fan, it felt like my whole worlds burnt and crashed down. So....I would rather see them where it doesn't effect so much.

And of course, who needs nine annoying girls (hey! that's an opinion and everyone have a right to, at least, one.) plus, without these nines... we can minus off SONEs.... ok I understand that not ALL of you SONEs are crazy...but most of you are. I met you guys in KPOP night.

Some of you were even wanting to step on people!

So...minus SONEs is alot!

I can't wait to meet all the VIPs and BlackJacks because the last I heard, you guys are AMAZING fans! Hehe, I am not a VIP or a BlackJacks but I LOVE 2NE1 just as much!

Sometimes, I feel like this is not happening, but hopefully it will happen and we can all be HAPPY...

I remember the last time being in the front, you guys, it was amazing because they looked at you or probably you think that they are looking. Either way, the feeling is awesome.

So are you guys prepared? Well, MY FRIENDS AND I ARE! BIG BANG AND 2NE1 here we come!

Send my Prayers.

As most of you may have already heard, Japan was hit by the Tsunami. It also hit Hawaii. I saw it and I was working when the tsunami hit Japan.

I saw the news and it was called the pacific tsunami.

It makes me think. What the hell I am doing.

I know I said it before...but the world is so big to me now. Many things are happening while I was there in front of my desk, talking to ungrateful people, talking to my colleagues...sitting there. Safe.

While, there were people we were running away... trying to save their lives and their loved ones at the same time.

I saw the news and noted that this was prepared for. It was anticipated and the government have evacuated everyone they can.

The last I saw the news, the death poll was 32.

All this happenings made me wonder what God's message is. Live your life now and give back whenever you live?

It's a question that never get answered because I believe that God know that his children will figure out something from what he's trying to say.

I feel like I am in a literature class.

I pray for those who were there when the disaster happen. I'll pray for you and your family. And I pray for all those who survive to be save...and for those who have loss to find the one they love soon.

And for those who died, I hope you be in a place where peace and loves overflows.

The Girl On The Side

Do you remember me?
I see the way you look my way
Well, I remember you
Oh yes, I do.

Let's go back in time
A time that once was
Everything passed your lovely eyes
Even me, Even me.

Remember those time
The girl on the side
Who cheered you on
Who gave you her time
And embrace your faults.

She sat there alone
You came by her side
Without thinking twice
You tell her about
Finding the one
With that brilliant smile.

You remember those time
She smiled with her eyes
But what you didn't see
Is the cracked in her smile
The break of her heart
Was hidden well.

The girl on the side
Seemed so happy
To see you find love
She smiled everytime
and said
It's a beautiful world

You came up to me
clearing your doubts
"The girl on the side?"
I looked up and smiled
"That's right."

New Bands

So the K POP scene is something that is always REFRESHING and EXCITING. Why? Because they never fail to come out with cool bands and AWESOME chreography.





So I have always been a big fan of some of the 'older' group. For example is (none other) SHINee. They've been in the industry for almost 3 years. Debuting in March 2008 although I have only known them for a year and I am already waiting for their comeback (Which I hope is soon).





I realize I tend to catch up on things really fast. Like how I catch up on Twilight just because I found it by chance. I read all the 3 books within a week and became one of those people waiting for the last installment.





OK... So now, I am digressing but I was tying to make a point.





Anyways, since I have become a fan of the 'older' groups such as SHINee, Big Bang, 2NE1, Beast (although not so much now), FTisland and 4Minute. I have tried my very very very very best not to find out about other bands. I just pass by them saying "uhm", "Ok" and "oh".





But my sister and her everlasting criosity will always find out new bands and would always shove it into my face. I try to ignore it. Try to be cool of it. But, alas, I got curious too and look at the MV as well.



Well, tonight, I got curious about Teen Top. They are this 6 members bands that are constantly beng compared to others. I think they have been compared to 2pm once. But, come on, these boys are ORIGINAL.



See this vid for example.




SEE? Do YOU SEE THAT? Nobody else can pull off a superman move with really alienated hairstyle and STILL look calm cool and superbly cute. I like this video and it make them more interesting.

I am also superbly jealous of this boys. I mean, LOOK AT THE EYE MAKE UP. Their eyes became larger and I WANT TO HAVE THOSE EYE MAKEUP!!!

I have to say Niel has really good vocals on this one. He was standing out in "BAKSU" or know as "Crap crap crap crap crap crap MAD MAN" song but in this onem he STANDS OUT.

It's interesting to take interest in these new bands because although you go like "wow, they're really good looking and and amazingly talented", you can't help yourself from thinking "they're YOUNG too. How old is THAT GUY? 14?"

All these new bands have really really really YOUNG talent and it kinda make you feel like a cougar and ,guys, I am only only 23. That's says alot. I am not suppose to feel like a cougar but I do.

So, that's all. NITES.

I hope for all this, I made a point somehow. DID I?

DEAD weight.

I feel like a dead weight. No, seriously. Like I am dead.

I think this is post valentine's day stress. I just don't know what is bothering me. Something is seriously irritating the life out of me but if you were outside looking in, you would think I was calm.

From the outside, I looked tired, haggered, not even close to average looking and sick but calm.

I feel pressured. Over what? I don't know.

Maybe my bills. (Oh god, aren't they piling at their own accord.)

But I feel like that's not it.

This is something DEEPER. (Sound like an effing green guru.)

I wish I can share this with someone...oh wow, this is yearning. For a BF.

ARGH. Do I have to do this EVERY year? Coming to this blog, blogging about how lonely I am and how having a BF would make everything A-OK!

That's funny.

And I NOT going to do it. Post valentine's day stress or not, I am not going to wallow. I do that on a daily basis and not just a typical date (Queue in VALENTINE'S DAY SCREAMS).

I still feel the dead so I am guessing this is not about wanting to have a boyfriend. Guys, I am sooo tired.

I got really sick last night, the flu just came right at me. I went to the doctor and she... well...the doctor is kinda weird and I was already in a foul mood (what's with the waiting of an hour in a private clinic) that all her jokes to make me feel like I am 10 years old was not that funny. In fact, I just wanted to punch her.

Yikes. I am getting violent.

You know, I am a fan of my own voice. No matter, how many times I get rejected when I auditioned, I still think my voice is good. Not great but good enough and I want to share it. So I go to YouTube.

Even that is not working out. I mean 3 views in 3 days? PATHETIC.

Still, I like listening to my own voice. Am I weird.

I just like to shout out to people who leave comments in my blog to stop sending me stupid things. Seriously, can't you just be nice and not leave a comment with a URL on your name that leads me to a stupid site that sell medication?

Or say mean things on my blog. I seriously don't need constructive criticism right now.

Ok, nites.

NIGA HIGA

I know alot of you probably know this guy. But if you don't know and you came passing by my blog... Well, he's just tremendously funny.

He talks about random things and everything he says make me laugh.

and...it's also probably because I have a crush on him. But he is cute and I am a sucker for cute, adorable, funny guys.

Like teddy bears.

The weird things is I HATE teddy bears. Maybe because my ex gave to me a Teddy bear gift. I use to punch the shit out of it.

I wonder why I am STILL single. Is it because of my weight? But I have seen that other girls....just as fat as me...having someone to hold. You know what? I am a prize to win. I am. I totally am.

Wow...that sound more desperate than I intended it to be. I gotta to do something.

I think I am gonna quote from Anthony Hopkins

"We, scientist, are always looking for proof. The thing is, what are we going to do when we find it?" - The Rite.

Scary quote, huh? This is why I tend to believe and ignore. The best option there is.

You know, I heard a rumour mill that Onew ideal girl is someone from After School... and I was told that she was nice and sweet. Ahem, I think I am nice and sweet too, Onew. Will you just look my way!!!

Ok that DEFINITELY does not sound nice and sweet. Sound more like a sour grape.

To say that I am in love with Onew is an understatement. Seriously, I try to dream about this guy, think of this guy, wonder what he's doing when I am doing the most boring-est thing. I could actually be smiling if he found he's perfect other half...and jump off a cliff to end my life.

LOL.

This is a random...blog. WTH.

MY late late late BLOG

So this is way overdue. But I think I should tell you my version of K-POP nite in Singapore on 23 October 2010 (I told you it was overdue). Christine told me she have read Shirin's version and found mine exciting but I have not blog about it yet.

So here it is.

The very very very full version.

It started the day before, Shirin and I went to the expo at about 3pm and we went there fully clothed. Like with make up and everything. So we went straight to hall 2 and found that not many people were there.

I guess not many people are as paranoid as we were but Shirin and I were DETERMINED to get awesome places for our very very FIRST KPOP concert together.

So, in realization that not many people were there, we went to eat lunch and wasted time at the Texas Chicken (the wannabe KFC) and we were imagining all the great things that could happen and wondered what kind of standing pit we would get.

I was a little scared for the standing part. I wasn't hoping for the very front row BUT I was hoping to get at least a place where I can see all these beautiful people. Shirin had the same thoughts too so we talked some more just to relieve stress of the next day ahead.

Ok, let's fast forward to midnight. Since EXPO close at 10, we were shoo-ed to sit outside of expo where people were getting really noisy, restless, and the sones and shawols were just getting irritating. Shouting and screaming....and dancing to their songs. It was MIDNIGHT, mind you.

But, we got to know some really awesome people although right now, I can't really remember their name, they were wonderful human beings. You wanna know why? Well, they were lining and staying overnight FOR THEIR FRIENDS.

It's crazy, I know. Why would someone do that? I certainly wouldn't...unless I could get into the concert too.

So anyways, i think it was about 6 am, the security guards were opening the entrance. At this point of time, everybody was rushing...and all the SONES were SLEEPING. The JOY!!! So everybody rush as usual. Alot of "don't push", "HEY!!!!", "IF YOU GUYS PUSH ONE MORE TIME, THE CONERT WILL BE CANCELLED" was happening but as crazy KPOP fans, we couldn't careless and humanity seem to vanish.

We did get pretty good standing at first until the damn rain happened. Everybody in front started to pull their damn friends in. In other words, CUTTING THE QUEUE. Seriously, where was the basic manners, huh? Yes, we get that you're friends and all but that friend of yours didn't stay overnight and we DID. So please. LEARN SOME MANNERS.

When the rain stopped and considering those people who cut the line, we still had decent seat although most of us were feeling grumpy and unhappy. I mean, all of us was shifted at least 10 people back. Do you know how annoying that is....

OK. Fast forward to concert.

So by 6pm, the doors started to open and people were madly rushing in... SOME START TO EVEN TRY TO CUT THE QUEUE AGAIN! Anyways, we didn't give them the chance because we started to rush too.

Once we got in, we REALLY did get the best stading area. I am not even joking. Right UP FRONT. Where the BARRICADES were situated. We were THAT close to the stage. Actually, we were the closest to the stage.

The first band to perform was FT Island. Honestly, I was not a big fan and I am still not a big fan now, they're cool but I am just not a fan yet. Anyways, knowing this fact you would think that I would not have scream. But I did. THE HELL I DID. So effing loud. Even my sister couldn't believe it. I didn't even knew I was screaming out loud. They started singing and OMG, Seunghyun was really as awesome looking as he was on tv. He LOOKED exactly the same. So, since my sister and I just finished watching maknae rebellion, he was the only one I though I know beside Jonghoon (who is the Christine's biased) who was playing his damn guitar on the other side of the stage, I started screaming his name so that he would have eye contact ME or something BUT he had some issues with his guitar and kept looking at Jonghoon, who kept nodding to him. Shirin was screaming "OI! you! you! hey! hey!" because she told me she forgot his name....or she forgotten. And I was screaming like crazy because I just wanted him to EFFING LOOK AT MY SMUDGE MAKEUP FACE! But, alas, he still didn't. SUDDENLY, Jaejin went upfront (like infront of his mic stand and played the bass for us!) I didn't know how I manage to do it but I just went "JAEJIN!!!!!! OMG!!!! JAEJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNN!!!!!!" I think he was sastified because he started playing with a swagger, ya knaw whut I mean?

So the first performance was really awesome although I don't know all the song...but JAEJIN kept me pumping....ah.. I mean jumping for more KPOP!

Next up is Z:EA. OK. This is going to be short. They were not really on the remember note. All I know is that I kept smirking at one of the member because he was showing off his swagger and I just wanted to fool around. Apparently, he didn't buy my smirk and tried his swagger on me again and I smirk again and he did AGAIN. OR it could be just me imagining. But I swear he smiled three times and I just didn't really reply with a scream.

Next up was infinite, I knew abit of their song although I did mixed up Myongsoo and Garam (The boss) up. But anyway, they're ok.... I only sang the part where they sang "Dorawa, Dorawa, da shi dorawa!"

After that it was DNA....another one that I don't really care about.... I can't even remember what I did here.

Then....It was SHINee. My favourite band was coming up! I screamed when the host said "Noona naumu Yapeo?" I don't know....My Onew was going to be on stage and breathe the same air as me. Although the crowd was really loud, I could hear my heart pumping nervously. This guy that I am in love with was going to be there... I could feel the silence and my heart beating. It was a weird feeling.

My sister pass me the cam for me to record... So I hold the cam and stood on standby, ready to scream out loud. SHINee came out singing Ring Ding Dong, everybody screamed. I tried to scream but when I saw Onew, My voice just went into hiding. I was really in love with this man I don't even know (I still am today) and he doesn't even look my way. As all of you know by now, he made a mistake and he seem stress about it.

Remember the camera I was holding? I gave it back to my sis because I was shaking so bad. Like I was nervous.

SHINee sang four songs and at the end of every song, everybody else was screaming and singing along but there I was....I could not scream so I clap enthusiastically for each of the song. I was a bit disappointed, honestly, with the performance as all of them looked tired and so haggard...and Onew...he was so hard on himself....or maybe that was how I saw it....and plus it was minus Jong Hyun and the group became smaller.....

So after that very weird experience with SHINee the next performance was SNSD and I think the guy beside me had an orgasm in his pant after they came out perform their slutty + cutesy = SUCCESSFUL PORN STAR DANCE which wasn't really that delightful to watch although I have to say Hyoyoen (is that how u spell her name?) looked awesome and pretty. Argh....Tiffany and Jessica was at their epitome of being stupid and irritating screaming in their microphone with their american english slang....gurl, puhlees.

The LAST ACT was BIG BANG!!! OK at this point, I regained my energy because I kept quiet through out the whole slut show, I started screaming "Taeyang!!! Taeyang!!! Taeyang!" and this was even before they perform. So once they got on stage my taeyang's went alot more and the volume got louder and louder.

UNTIL

Daesung just came to the front and waved at US! Della, Shirin and Me started to scream like mad and "OMG, DAESUNNNNNNNNNNNG@!==!@#$#%%!!!!!!!!" happened. Daesung cooly shake his amazing hair and LOL! literally. He did laugh out loud...like he found it funny girls react to his wave is such a crazy manner.

But I didn't give up on my taeyangs....so I continued to scream "Taeyang! Taeyang!". But then Daesung came again this time with Seungri and the both of them just concentrated on our row. There were so many eye contact that I was never going to wash my eyes with anything ever. There was even a point where I was so tired from all the jumping the song made us do....but Seungri pointed at me and encouraged me to jump more... I remembered I screamed LIKE HELL!!! SEUGRI POINTED AT ME! ME!!!!!

Still, I did not give up on Taeyang.... even scremed " TAEYANG TAKE YOUR SHIRT OFF!"... and it was fruitful...because Taeyang pointed to my cam and did a swagger move....and I think I was busy looking at him....drooling....

So that was it! An amazing night. A long blog.....hope you guys like it.

NITES.

Life....you suck!

Yes. You suck.

You do, like, totally!

Firstly...i just have to say, can't you be nice? Just at least put a non difficult dream in my head and be nice to me?

For example, you could have put like a normal achieving career in my head....like being a teacher, a nurse, a.....an academic career!

Argh, you're soooo annoying! Why do you make me want to be a singer. And put me in a place where talents are.....freakishly ignore to the whole entire world!

And let's not forget you made me poor and you made me the child of Parents who do not believe in the arts. Especially music.

So so so annoying.

Well, guess what? Not going to give up, you mean sickly stupid LIFE!!!!!

I will find other ways! I WILL!

Argh! (Storming out....)

its 5 am and...

It's 5 am and I decided to write something about life and the journey we all have with it.

I understand that Life can be something that is nasty and mean because I have been in a boat where Life made hope something that no one should ever lean on. It made death so much more welcoming that sometimes I would cry in tremendous pain asking why death have not came to rescue me.

But Life have been great too. The bad are numerous and uneventful but when Life decided to give back...it gives back huge.

For without the pain and trouble Life had put me through...I would not know the difference between people who use me and people who love me. I would not have friends who I treasure so dearly in my heart today if I didn't have friends who used me till no end.

I am sure that I, sometimes, come up a bit irritating. Always so optimistic about the future. Always seeing the glass half full. Even I get irritated with myself because no matter how many time life burnt my hope for sunshine, I still lean on to hope.

I believe that everybody is a star. Yes, one of those in the sky. Strong, bright...a life of it's own. Not stealing from the sun. It's not easy to make everyone see that in themselves. But I wish everyone would...because I believe I am to.

I will admit that Life do destroy me sometimes. Breaks me into a million pieces. My heart shattered. My tears creating a river. Life have tortured me....and is still torturing me. But here I am. Still standing. Still hoping. It's true, you know. What doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger.

The thing is, nobody told us how difficult being strong is. But Life made us realize that there is no other way. The only way to be happy is to be strong and to believe because in the middle of us believing and life destroying us...in that split second, we're happy. All those fantasies...all those dreams....in that moment we see the beautiful happenings.

So that is why I still hope and still look forward to the future (although I am not sure what I am looking forward to) because in this moment before Life comes to take it all away, I am truly happy. I might be a singer (audition) I might be great at it. Heck, I might even end up with Onew.

In this very moment.....I am happy.