HOON is BLOOD TYPE A!!!!

Just realize that the love of my life share the same blood type as me.

Amazing.

I love you, Hoon.

Updating

I haven't been updating for a while and now I will.

Not for you.

But for me.

I realize when I pen ( or Type) my thoughts down for the day and when I read it in the future...I can see how much I change. So when people tell me I am so different from when I was then, I would believe them.

I just want to pen a thought that I love to waste my time on love. Really. It's so pointless but apparently my heart have no way to see it.

Am I getting too emotional? Shall I explain the situation first? Alright, I will.

Situation:

Guy: Prof. X

The first time I saw Prof. X, I was attracted already. It suck cause I brand myself as someone who doesn't fall for just looks... but, apparently, this time I did. Firstly he looks like this guy.






















Of course.... Not as handsome, but somehow he have something similar. So with me and my big mouth...I went to tell him.

"Hey, I just have to let you know that you look like one of the KPOP star I know."

The moment I said this. I cringe at my stupidity. Seriously, I think desperation is making me stupid...knocking off my IQ to a single digit.

Prof X looked at me and laughed.

"Ya, I know! Because of my small eyes, right? Thanks lah."

Now, he's funny too... I liked him even more...I am so... easy.

So, now I like him alot and the more I know about him the more.. I just...fall. He's funny, adorable and just... a nice guy (Although, his fashion may need some help... he wore shorts... with slippers...)But of course, how can life be fair, huh? It never was for me...

Instead of the guy just not being interested in me... life decided to make me fall for someone who would not even give me the time of the day but make me like a guy who is so obviously chasing another girl.

Who, apparently, have a boyfriend.

So it's like playing catching, although none of them know we are actually just running in circles.

Me chasing after him. Him chasing after her. and she... just not realizing this and just be a friend to him.

I just wish he turn back somehow...and this false hope that I never fail to have...it's killing me.

I can just not chase Prof. X, right? I totally can and I should. I mean, where the hell have I place my pride and dignity. I should just stop and I tried.

I swear I tried... but yesterday, the me with the no brain, went out to buy things to do my nails and all the while when I was doing my nails.... I was thinking, would Prof. X think it's nice when I show him later at work...

WTF.

Why am I like this? Fall so many times. Got rejected so many times. Got hurt so many times. But I am still the same.

Great, huh?

wow! Best Fanfic ever

So here I am... Blogging while I am suppose to work... But I saw this and I really had fun imagining...

U Kiss Scenario : Celebrating Christmas Together. [3]
Hoon
You : Yeoboseyo?
You picked up your phone, the other end remained quiet.
You : Yeoboseyo?
You asked again. Hoon started to cough into the receiver, clearing his throat.
You : Hoon?
Hoon started singing a Christmas love song. You smiled and listened to him finish the song.
Hoon : Look out of your window.
You got up from your bed and draw back the curtains, looking down. Hoon drew a huge heart in the snow and stood in the middle of it. You smiled and jumped off your bed, grabbing your coat and ran downstairs.
Hoon : Merry Christmas!
He smiled, opening his arms wide as you crashed into him. You looked at him and kissed him.
You : I thought you said you’ll be in Japan.
Hoon smiled mischievously. You smiled and hugged him tight.
Hoon : Hey.
He squeezed your waist a little and you looked up at him. Hoon pulled out a bracelet which has both your names engraved on a small metal plate.
Hoon : Like it?
He looked at you as you took the bracelet from him, touching the names.
You : I love it.
You smiled and kissed him on the lips. Hoon smiled and held you close to him.
Hoon : I love you.

Do you think so?

Made my day.

Thanks for Letting me smile (Let go)

I don't know how to say this

I don't know how even start

We have been together for so long

Together, we had our own bliss

But I can't ignore my heart

We have been together for so long

You look at me with a smile

Tears in your eyes 'cause you know

You held me hand for a while

Tears in my eyes 'cause I know

You're letting me smile

You told me that it was ok

You're letting me smile

You told me it was something

That only you can give

You're letting me smile

I feel pain for you

Maybe, I'm stupid to let go

But all I said was

"I am so sorry"

Beautiful and wonderful day

Will always be in my heart

I am so grateful to have met you

It seem like this is the only way

I'm sorry that I am breaking your heart

I am so grateful to have loved you

This may be the end of us

I wish I could turn back time

To a happier us

To a place where I never would hurt you

The tears fall from your eyes

It fell from mine too

I don't want to hurt you

We stand together, two statues

Both clueless of what's ahead

The moon shines bright

You're letting me smile

Letting me go

You don't want to fight

not anymore

I turn and walk away

I don't turn back

I am so sorry

I want to say thank you

But not now

Till we meet again

This is a reply to Infinite's Can U Smile. I am just so inspired by their song lately... it just moved me...so sad... I will put the translation of the song here.

I remember that feeling from
Long ago when I looked at you
I remember that time when
I knew you, you knew me
I wanted to be like you
hang out with you
I think about those desperate times
But it's merely a memory
that has passed by

And can you smile? smile...
you want this
you hope for this
I can't seem to have you with only my heart

And can you smile? smile...
I said to leave
I said I'm okay
It seems like I can give you nothing
but this to you in the end

I remember long ago
when i received your heart
you were overflowing me
and i'm thankful
i think of those time

we love each other
we were at our happiest
then came across farwell
you were overflowing me
I'm sorry
I can't hold you back

And can you smile? smile...
you want this
you hope for this
I can't seem to have you with only my heart

And can you smile? smile...
I said to leave
I said I'm okay
It seems like I can give you nothing
but this to you in the end

And still, still in the end, still I..
but probably in the end, I still..
And still, still in the end, still I..
but probably in the end, I still..

[Rap]
But I was suffocating from
those frequent words of yours
You say that my way of talking and
actions make you lose your words
make your anger rise
on this violent night
the stars light up the sky,
the moon shines
you go steadily on your path of stars
the night is coming
it is covered only by other stars
but the moon always stays there
I will always be here for you, want you

And can you smile? smile...
I want you but..
I'll hold you but..
your smile is fading beside me

And can you smile? smile...
I said to leave
I said I'm okay
You might even be happier
if you leave my side

Be Mine (Story)

Author's note: I was inspired by the song 내꺼하자 (Be mine) so much that the image of this story below came to my mind and I wanted to share with the world.... or internet. The characters are fictional... and anything that seem to be related to the real world is PURELY coincidental.

Jiyu tried to take her breath in but it seem like she was choking. There she was standing in a place where she promised she would never had to be in again. She could hear her heart breaking and there was nothing much she can do about it.

"I can't be that guy anymore." He said; it was just a whisper but it seem so loud and Jiya felt her tears rolling down her cheek.

"Please don't do this. I love you, Joon..I..." Jiya said but her words were breaking because of the tears that she has lost control of.

"I am so sorry, Jiyu." With that, Joon walk out of the room leaving Jiyu with nothing at all. Jiyu felt pain in her chest and her hand went to her chest in an attempt to save it from breaking but as she knew, it was pointless.

Jiyu couldn't hold her cries anymore and cried out loud. Nobody would hear anyways and she was all alone once again. She scream in anger as it was HER fault that she was this position again. She have always put her heart on her sleeves and now she is just reaping the reward. She can't count how many times her heart broke because of love.

Once the tears had cleared and the screams stopped, Jiyu got up from the floor and head out of the room to reality. He heart broken. Her life a mess. And there was nothing much she could except move forward. This time she vowed to keep out of love's way.

THE NEXT DAY

Jiyu was waiting for her best friend, Hoon, outside of school. She wanted to tell him what happened the night before. She's been crying all night before sleep finally save her. She have also ignored the thousand phone calls she had been receiving when she was crying last night. She just didn't want to burden anybody else with her pain. It was her fault anyway...

The bell rang and yet, Jiyu still waited for her best friend who was running and eating breakfast at the same time. The boy never change. When he finally looked up from the food he was munching in his hands, Jiyu waved at him. At first, he smiled then he had an angry face on.

"I called you the whole night yesterday." Hoon said when he was infront of Jiyu. Jiyu felt guilty because beside his angry exterior, Jiyu knew that he was worried and he cared for her.

"I didn't mean to make you worried. I was just-" But Jiyu was cut off.

"Trying to mend things on my own. God, Ji! We have been best friends since forever."

"I just didn't want to-"

"To what? to hear me say I told you so? Why would I say that, Ji!" Hoon exclaimed, getting more frustrated. Jiyu wanted to calm him down and she looked at him in the eyes.

"I just didn't want to worry you, Hoon. I didn't want to trouble you at all." Jiyu said, her tears falling down as she could not control them. Hoon heart broke at the sight of his bestie crying again. He gave her a hug to help with keep herself 'together'. He knew she was falling apart.

"It's ok, Jiyu. Don't cry, ok? Please don't cry, I can't bear to see you cry like this. Let's just get to class, ok?" Hoon said as he wiped away Jiyu's tears and headed towards school. Jiyu felt the burden on her shoulders lifted and somehow, she felt happier. Her spirits lifted a little.

5 HOURS LATER

Hoon was sitting opposite Jiyu while she was explaining the whole situation that happened yesterday. Jiyu didn't cry anymore and it seemed like her heart was mended already. She could see Hoon's face turning more stoic especially when she told him about the part where she broke down. Hoon held her hands to comfort her and she was glad that she had the most amazing best friend in the world.

"Well, he's an ass anyways." Hoon said.

"Hoon, he's not an ass. He was actually doing the right thing if you think about it. He wasn't falling for me and the relationship was just not working." Jiyu said and sighing at the same time.

"He broke your heart and that make him as ass. I am going to kick him out of my soccer team" Hoon said, smiling viciously.

"Hoon! You can't do that. He's the best player you've got. Don't make it personal." Jiyu said panickly.

"Dang.. why not? He should face the consequences! You're not letting him go just like that, are you?" Hoon said, incredulous at his friends patience and lack of wanting to be revengeful.

"The best thing right now is for me to just move on with this life. And maybe not put my heart on the sleeves anymore." Jiyu said sadly and look down at the table. Hoon lifted her head so that he could see her eyes.

"You don't have to do anything, Jiyu. You just have to be you. I will protect you. I... I.." Hoon wanted to finish his sentence but the bell rang and Jiyu hurriedly got up.

"Shoot! I have to get to class. Mr Kim is not going to be happy if I came to class late. Again. I will see you after class?" Jiyu said as she run for her class, waving goodbye. Hoon waved back and finish his sentence when she was out of sight.

"I love you."

2 WEEKS LATER

Jiyu's heart was beating very fast when she made her way towards the aeroplane. Jiyu and Hoon are going away for their very first holiday to Singapore together. They have saved enough for a holiday together.

"Are you happy?" Hoon asked when they reached their seats and smiled at his friend who was unable to calm herself down from all the excitement.

"Are you crazy? We are going to have a blast all the one week we're there. You told me there was Universal Studios, right?" Jiyu said, narrowing her eyes at Hoon.

"Yes, there is! Chill.. I am not going to get your hopes up and then murder it. I am not mean, you know." Hoon said, feigning to be hurt. Jiyu stuck her tongue at him and close her eyes as the plane started to move. Hoon felt his heart stumbling and jumping out of joy. He have made up his mind to make sure Jiyu have the best time of her life.

IN THE HOTEL IN SINGAPORE

Jiyu and Hoon looked at the huge bed, dumbfounded. The hotel room that they have reserved was supposed to have two twin beds but instead the hotel did a mistake and they end up with a room with only one king size bed. The worst part was that there wasn't any couch for Hoon to sleep on.

"Let's just make the best of it." Jiyu said, throwing her stuff on the bed. Hoon looked around the room.

"I will just sleep on the floor. There is enough space for me." Hoon said. Jiyu frowned at her best friend.

"Don't be silly. You'll sleep in the bed with me. You'll be no fun tomorrow when your back hurts. And I want to have FUN." Jiyu said making sure to emphasize the word 'fun'. Hoon laughed and joined Jiyu on the bed, taking off his shoes and socks. Jiyu headed to the toilet to clean up and Hoon rested.

Hoon awoke with a start when he felt something cold caressing his face. His vision was blurred but he knew Jiyu hand that was touching his face. Her cold hands. This activated his worried mode.

"Are you cold? Do you want me turn up the temperature?" Hoon said coarsely as he just awoke from a deep sleep. He could hear Jiyu chuckling.

"No, it's ok. I am ok. I wish you stop worrying about me so much." Jiyu said, turning to face him. Hoon turn his position and face her.

"I can't. Your hands are so cold." Hoon said in a whisper. He doesn't know why he was whispering but it suited the atmosphere.

"It's not just that, Hoon. It's everything. You worry that I don't sleep well or when I have a cold. You worry about everything about me, my friend." Jiyu giggled. Hoon laughed as well and realized that he does that.

"I can't help it. You're very important to me." Hoon said. With a suprise, Jiyu kissed Hoon's cheek. Hoon could feel his heart beating loudly at the contact and he was caught off guard. Hoon could only looked into Jiyu's eyes.

"Thank you for worrying about me." Jiyu said and even though her heart was beating hard, she went to kiss Hoon's forehead because she wanted to let him know that he was just as important to her. But when she was about to go back to her position, Hoon's hands captured both side of her face and he moved in to kiss her.

Hoon did not know what has gotten into him but with all the kisses that she was giving, He became braver and although it was just a platonic kiss from her, he just could not hide his feeling any longer and kissed her the way he have always wanted.

He just didn't expect her to be kissing back.

When she did this, Hoon could feel his heart exploding and he knew that she must have heard it but he just couldn't care. All he thought was how wonderful it felt kissing her. How his life seem to be complete when he was kissing her.

"We should stop." Jiyu said, looking into Hoon's eyes. She didn't want to hurt the friendship and she didn't want to lose Hoon. She was just afraid. Hoon could see this in her eyes and he smiled, his hand caressing her cheek in reassuarance.

"Jiyu, you know who I am, right?" Hoon asked.

"Yes."

"You see me now, right?"

"I do."

"Then you know, I will protect you now." Hoon said. Jiyu just kept silent because she knew that he will do that but she just didn't want to lose him.

"Let's do this together. Take this path with me and you know that with me, you will never hurt again. I love you, ok? so much and it hurts me so much to see you in pain. Is hasn't been easy for you, right? I can't-" Hoon was cut off because Jiyu leaned in to kiss him again. This time she kissed him with all the pain, all the hurt and all the love she had for him.

"Be mine." Hoon said as a statement. Jiyu smiled.

"Ok." With that, she kissed him again and the night became a wonderful fairytale.

THE NEXT DAY

When Jiyu woke up, Hoon was not in the bed instead he was eating his breakfast. What happened yesterday night seem to have gone and just stayed behind with the moonlight. Jiyu cleared her throat and sat up.

"You woke up late.. and I was hungry so I ordered food." Hoon said, still stuffing his food in his mouth. Jiyu just smiled and got off the bed to head to the toilet. Suddenly, Hoon stood up and blocked Jiyu from going to the toilet.

"What are you doing?" Jiyu laughed as she tried to pass him.

"Pay the toilet fees." Hoon said. Jiyu stopped trying to pass him and looked at him questioningly. Hoon cheekily pointed to his cheek and just waited for Jiyu to 'pay the fees'. Jiyu laughed and went to kiss Hoon on the cheek however, Hoon turned his head the kiss ended up on his lips. Jiyu smiled when she realized this and lean in closer to kiss him more. Hoon hugged him and kissed her back just as passionately.

Last night wasn't a dream, after all. Hoon thought to himself and he was happy right there in her arms. So was Jiyu...

END

MY FAV REVIEWER

I just wanted to blog that my favourite reviewer of all time... replied to me on twitter!!! so cute lah!!!!!

Ok toodles!

After something horrible happened on twitter... the world needs balance and this is something awesome to me!!!! I Love it!

Post KMW part 2

SO sorry, that I have to make a part one and part 2 of this entry...It's just that the memories are still quite etched to my brain and I would like to tell it like how vividly I see it every time I think about Korean Music Wave.

So the next part of the concert is after TeenTop performed is Miss A! I was anticipating for this one too because it's 3Dignity songs! Ok.. well, one of the song that we practiced and put it on YouTube.

So they sang three song, Breath, Love Alone and Good Girl, Bad Girl. The amazing part is when they just sang to an upbeat song and they immediately fall into a song where vocal chops are needed... When I heard Suzy sing... OMG, that girl CAN sing. I remember Christine turning to me and saying, "Suzy can sing so well!" It was really true... I mean I think most people already know that she can sing but the reason why I was so surprised because....well, I did diss her singing ability before. In breathe, she did not really sound that well and I remembered telling someone that she is just another pretty face. But, right here and right now, I would like to apologise for my comment and take it back. Suzy is a wonderful singer and my ears were delighted when she sang!

So this time round, the boys behind us were also looking forward to the performance...I mean they kept screaming "Suzy! Suzy! SUZY!!!" So as a favour, I wanted Suzy to actually eye contact with them! For this to happen, I started to scream for Suzy as well... but... I wanted Min to looked at me too so for selfish reason, I screamed Min's name the most. Funny thing is, Mis is NOT my bias. Fei is... but I was kinda reserving to call Fei because... it might sound like I was calling her "fat".

Miss A was really awesome and I could feel the four of us really dancing to it and this was a fun performance!

NEXT..

IS U-Kiss!

I have been waiting for their performance because well, I wasn't a big fan of Ukiss but I made an effort this time because of a certain SOMEONE and U-kiss, from what I have been hearing, is really good!

When they first came out, I already saw that "particular" someone and started screaming right away. The whole performance by Ukiss was spectacular and I remember just dancing and screaming to it.

Omg, Eli is seriously a very good looking man. That boy is asian now, isn't he? So what does he look slightly caucasionist? I screamed his name every time he came up front. I had several eye contacts with Eli, Kevin and SOMEONE .

I also remembered that AJ wore a malay wedding dress. hahahaha! Ok, its not a real malay wedding dress but it sure as hell looked alot like one! I remember screaming to Shirin that he was wearing a Malay wedding dress... Maybe he was coming to propose to her. Muahahaha! Anyways, When Ukiss was introduce by the MC, every one went nuts! And it's great because Eli and Kevin can speak english fluently. The MC asked the unoriginal question on what they love about Singapore...

Eli said that the whether here was awesome, it was hot and that he could wear a singlet if he wanted to. This comment set all the girls to a frenzy! So I started screaming take it off.. but it was only followed by a couple of people and we were drown by the scream when the MC said "So are you going to take it off?" Eli only pretended to take it off and smile when the girls started screaming. Why do you tease us Eli? why why why?

Nothing much to say because... I fell in love here during U kiss performance and I want to talk about that someone last..

When Ukiss ended their performance, I could feel my heart racing because the next performance was... 2NE1! I kept thinking about CL CL CL CL!!!! So when the MC came out and said that U kiss had to go back... alot of people .. well.. didn't hear it but started screaming for the next act! The whole stadium were roaring and it was just a different kind of cheer than the rest. It was like everybody was giving the previous sneak peak of screams for the other performance.. although I have to say that my scream for that SOMEONE was not a sneak peak at all. .. The chanting begin and even when MIN introduce them, her voice was drown.

2NE1!

2NE1! OMG! 2NE1 was coming on stage and I remember that our camera was flat.. well the good one at least. I told this to Christine and was about to cry because, I can't take my Idol, CL.. and I needed more than just a memory to remember her and like a good friend, she offered her phone and so, I had her phone in hand and started to record!!!!!!!

The first performance was Fire! and... I remember just screming my head out to the song! It totally hyped me up and there she was! CL! in her yellow holed transparent plastic jacket! Omg, you couldn't believe how many times I screamed her name and sang with the song! I saw a YT vid when this was perform, omg! When the sang "eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh 2NE1" everybody was trying to do the hands up dance move!!! That was just so damn fantastic!

When They sang " I am the best" I started to jump up and down because for the first time, I truly know the fan chant for this one and the performance was wicked! It was bloody brilliant and I sang every word of it. I could see from 2NE1 that they were kinda surprised that we know their song and were really amazed. CL kept saying thank you and said "Thank you for being so awesome. This is our first performance and you guys are so amazing!" After she said this, the next performance was "I don't care" and she said "I want you guys to sing and dance with us!" Of course this spark a fire in me, I would do ANYTHING for CL! When the song started playing, Christine, Shirin, Della and I started dancing to it. AND GUESS WHAT? the camera just went to our part. It wasn't on record on put on live but we dance our heart out and it was somewhat captured... I hope there is a DVD for this so CL can see me!!!!!!

OH! I totally forgot.. 2NE1 sang LONELY too and this was a slow song, I thought absolutely that this was the time to take the opportunity to scream and waved for CL.. But alas, I can't get all my wish come true now... She did eye contact but she didn't wave back so I am not sure if she saw me or was just staring into space. I would like if she saw me... CL I AM YOUR BIGGEST FAN!

The whole 2NE1 performance was dope and just fucking brilliant. It was seriously the highlight of my life.

In CL words, "You guys know who is coming up next, right?"

BIGBANG!

When the MC came out... well, they don't really have to say much. This is BIGBANG we are talking about... it seem like the whole stadium was on earthquake with screams mixture of both boys and girls! Its crazy because this was the band THAT EVERYONE WAS WAITING FOR so it can't get any more exciting!

But when BIGBANG came out and perform, it got even more exciting! I remember singing to it, jumping to it... calling TaeYang's name as if my life depended on it. But that boy did not wave back! It was so hard to get his attention, really.

So right before the MC came out, TaeYang was "say yeah!" "Yeah!" "Say yeah!" "Yeah!" "Say yeah! yeah!" "Yeah! yeah!" when the MC came out to have a little conversation with them and said "How is it to perform her for the first time?" Taeyang immediately said "It's the second time. Second time." Seriously, Taeyang was high and so cheeky! Once the Mc asked him what is his favourite Singaporean dish, he said that he hasn't eaten any singaporean dish and maybe the MC would like to introduce to him one of the SG dish, at this point Shirin was pointing to herself and said she was taeyang favourite dish but he didn't see this... BUT GD DID AND HE LAUGHED AND SHOOKED HIS HEAD! GD spoke in Korean and because there was not subtitle... I REALLY COULDN'T UNDERSTAND.

Oh well, I have to say that this year performance, GD was much more hyper and he smiled alot and it was a different performance he performed last year... I bet he had a good night sleep before as I think he's not working on any album anymore.. SEE WHAT A GOOD NIGHT SLEEP CAN DO to one?

Big bang ended the concert and it's amazing because there was a shouting of "Encore" and "BIGBANG" when they supposedly ended..I was so tired and the MCs wasn't helping.. But they did perform the absolute last song and... that was the end..

I remember TaeYang saying "I love you, I love you so much!" Well, TaeYang, we love you too, honey.

So now let's talk about the one person that I have been dying to talk about. Hoon from Ukiss... That guy... well, his voice is just pure pure pure gold. I kept screaming his name and I think he noticed me.. All the during Ukiss performance, I just kept looking at Hoon when he came near my place..

Hoon, have found a way to my heart and ... I think I fell in love. So, Onew has a new competition and Its crazy... I love them both. I am trying to find more about Hoon and realize that he is just as clumsy! But there is seriously not much about Hoon... why~~~!!!! Anyways, Hoon stole my heart and I will be rooting for him forever.

I made a poem for him.

The stage light came up

I have never seen you before

In the darkness, I see the outline of you shadow

The next moment, you gave me a show

I forgot how beautiful your voice is

I forgot how beautiful you were

But, babe, now that I reminded

You're the only one that matters here.

There were times when you look at me

The moment is unforgettable

and maybe its just me being delusional

But in this time, you're the only one that matter

The moment it ended, the world stopped.

I took my moment to look at you.

You're still so beautiful

And I am in love with you, Hoon.

I wish he reads this... and not see how stalkerish this is...I love you, Hoon. You're the best!

LOTS OF LOVE PEOPLE!

Post KMW Part One...

Today my life is so fullfilled. Met all the talented people in the entire world and rock my ass out although I was dehydrated at the end of the awesome concert.

but, I will replay the scene like it is playing in my head at this very moment.

Thursday, 14 July 2011, 11 pm Dhoby Ghaut Mrt.

The 3dignity met and we were so excited. At this point, all of us were just wearing comfortable clothes except for Della. She was wearing something that she might wear to the concert.

My sister and I, as usual, brought so much and it was embarrassing because we packed to be comfortable as the last time we went to Kpop nite, it was so horrible. So, this year, we were determined to be as comfortable as the place can offer.

So we hop on the train from Dhoby Ghaut circle line and headed to the stadium with our bags and hopes.

Thursday, 14 July 2011, 11.30 pm Singapore Indoor Stadium.

When we reach the destination, there were music pumping out from the Stadium walls...and it was UKiss!!! I started jumping and screaming...and I thought the other maknaes would too but... they were calm, just putting out a smile.

I felt like a small kid but I just couldn't stop...and hold Christine hands and kept screaming and jumping...oh well, Hoon was so close... what do yout expect?

Anyways, when we got there.. we saw that there were some people crowding around a barricade so... like fans, we ran to it... except for Shirin; I guess she just didn't want HOT people to see her beautiful face, and we stood as near as we could...

THEN...

Nothing.

So we waited abit and then nothing happened and the crowd thin, so we went to sit near the barricade and open up the sleeping bag.

Let me tell you this, sleeping bag never felt so comfortable. I think it was the excitement and the fact that we were going to be comfortable enhance the comfortableness of the sleeping mat.

Am I making sense?

Then, after talking and eating (what else?), there was another van and Christine, Della and me rushed to the barricade and started waving at the bus even though we didn't know who will be inside but then I swear I saw Suzy waving (or her shadow...)!!!! I started screaming... and then the bus went in further in and ... nothing as usual. The girls were covered and we couldn't see anything.

So after all the "it was Suzy!" "Did you see that? She waved lah!!", we went back to our mattress and started talking and eating (Fried rice, if any of you were curious) again. While we were minding our business, Della went to the barricades again or went to buy drinks... I am not sure where she went and I am also not sure if Shirin was there even.. All I could remember from this is that I was sitting with Christine.. munching on something and we were chatting and a van pass by and stopped right infront of us and like before, we wave to it without knowing who was inside (seriously, it could just be random people inside) but a few of them wave back (or a few of them shadows). Later on, like maybe a few seconds ticked by, Christine and I stood up ...and the van went off... zoom in a flash.. Della came to us and said "it's Ukiss eh!!" And all I could think about was Hoon was in there... he could HAVE BEEN THE ONE WAVING!

As time went by from 14 July to 15 July, a bus came in to bring The Boss and X5 and this time, I remember not going because...I was not a huge fan.

A few hours passed and the bus was schedule to go out again, this time, Christine, Della, Shirin and I decided to stand near the ERP exit as the bus would need to stop for a few minutes. So we sat there for awhile with our coke in hand.

Suddenly someone said "Excuse me." We turned our head to the sound of the voice only to find that it was coming from the ERP intercom.

Then it continued saying the following.

"Please do not sit there."

As we were abiding citizen, we shifted from the place to somewhere nearer. Just a few steps away. As time went by, the bus for The Boss and X5 finally came out and we rushed and stood at the ERP gantry again...

When the bus was finally right infront of us, we waved! And GUESS WHAT?! KARAM WAVED AT US AND...

I STARTED SCREAMING LIKE AN IDIOT AND HELD CHRISTINE HAND AND JUMPED BECAUSE OF EXCITEMENT. I should know that I probably looked crazy..but I don't. I was just so happy that someone like them could appreciate someone like me. Its an amazing feeling.

Friday, 15 July 2011, 1 am onwards Singapore Indoor Stadium

You guys may think that being there should be exciting.. I mean, I have been describing all the sighting in vans and how great it was... but, honestly, that was just for a few hours... so by 2am, the stadium was empty, there was no official queue because apparently, the organizers didn't want anybody sleeping over the stadium, and we had to put our faith in a line that was start up by random people.

So for the next 9 or 10 hours or so, there was nothing going on, the place where we were seated was so hot because we were seated right under a spotlight, we couldn't sleep because of the condition, I started to smell like shit and it was just not pleasant even with all the pillows and sleeping bags that we brought.

I remember just being in a dazed and really unhappy because I can't sleep and even when I did, it seem like I didn't and I was always waking up perspiring like .... alot. I also remember walking with Christine and since we were tired, conversation was minimal and I didn't like it so I will asked random question and she would just answer it although the question was asked before. We would randomly sit down on stairs and find it comfortable and let sleep do its magic. It was like we were homeless.

By 6am, we came back to our spot where Della and Shirin was seating and were told that a security guard came and said that we have to pack up and leave as we weren't supposed to sleepover and the set up wasn't going to happen until 11 am.

Yeah, as if we were going to believe that.

We actually panic because of this and believed the security guard I thought of looking for updates regarding KMW on facebook, but there was nothing. They said that they were going to update regarding the queueing up formation before KMW but they didn't. So I gave up and panic on the inside because all this waiting would be for nothing if we didn't get the front part. But, with blessing, Christine and Shirin found the map where the entrance should be and we told the other 'friends' we made.

They didn't believe us and doubted. Which in turn just made us doubt ourselves.

But guess what? We were right and the random people line was split to Pen A and Pen B. Pen B people started to shift and because we were carrying so many things, we were not the first but we were the FIRST FEW.

But... this was still unofficial and even though we were trying to be calm, I could see that we were kinda doubting. But somehow, we kinda just let it to fate... I let it to fate grudgingly because if this was going to turn out to nothing, I dragged friends along to this grave and this realization upset me.

While waiting, we played alot of games and this get us very HIGH but then we got easily bored because we were using our energy too much. Or our energy wasn't enough.

By 11 am, the sun started to rise up and I was getting anxious because nothing is being done and I asked Christine to tag along with me to check on the other side to see if maybe they set up a barricade for Pen A people... but, when we reach to the other side, there were no lines at all.

What I meant was that there WASN'T even a line. As in there was nobody at all... I started panicking inside...

The sun was rising as I mentioned before and we brought our umbrellas for this kind of situation and used it. We were like Princess of Candle land because we would melt from the heat. Muahaha...ok lame.

Suddenly, a group of people were walking pass us and looked at us.. then the talk was that those people were the organizers and the next minute I knew they were giving our water because it was hot but like magic, it rain a few minutes later and one of the organizer people came and said, "We are going to move you but please respect your friends and remember your position."

And so, the OFFICIAL line began and we were the first few people. Our chance of getting the front part of the concert was VERY high.

Then we needed to wait for another 7 hours.

While 2 hours passed and we were in the waiting line, there were these girls in Uniform who came at 1pm just cut the cue because their 'friends' were there. I was pissed off. I mean I can understand if it's one person...but it was 4 people. I remember Christine and I just kept on staring (the maknaes were buying food for us) at those girls and their "friends" and yet they avoided our gaze. So we started talking as loudly as we could saying that how idiotic it was, how unfair it and we kept on staring at those bloody uniform girls.

But still, they were as thick face as ever and they didn't even budge. Two of them even change into home clothes. That was seriously fuck up. When the maknaes came back with our food, we quickly complained to them and we could see fire in their eyes blazed and they were furious. But food was there and we ate like there was no tomorrow.

But while we were eating, the maknaes didn't give up and kept looking and I was so PISSED off as well so I kept talking loudly... The "friends" who let these bitches in came to us (I think they were getting very uncomfortable with ALL the stares that THE FOUR OF US were giving) and .... I was about to punch their faces if they said that we shouldn't stare at them.. but alas, they came to explain the situation.

They told us that the bitches were not really their friends and they DID told the bitches to go to the back because it would not be fair for the others who have slept over for more than 12 hours. But THESE BITCHES HAD THE GUTS TO SAY "NOBODY FROM THE BACK WOULD MIND"!!!

HOW FUCKING RETARDED IS THAT? Why wouldn't WE mind? Just so you guys knows, these are girls who are going to a SECONDARY school not some PRIMARY OR KINDERGARTEN, shouldn't they have some sort of BRAIN?

Christine said immediately "WE ABSOLUTELY MIND."

The original plan was to pretend to approach the "friends" and complain about those bitches so they would move to the back. We agreed to it and went on eating first but then these "friends" disappeared somewhere.

So we thought of waiting BUT THEN, there was this girl who ALSO WENT TO FETCH HER FRIENDS AND ALLOWED THEM TO CUT THE DAMN QUEUE.

Ok, lets just hold up here. Who gave you the right to just pull your friends in just because you slept the night before? SERIOUSLY, you don't equal to your 4 other friends. You equal to 1 person. How hard is that to figure out?

Back to the story, this change of event spiked our blood even more and we were really PISSED OFF. The maknaes were saying "Let's just tell them off." "Let's not wait for their 'friends'" We (the Unnies) tried to calm them down by saying that "Let's just wait for the friends. We planned this.." Honestly, I was kinda scared to approach them. I hate conflicts and I don't really fancy to be looked at as a bitch and this was why I wanted to stall the maknaes.

But it seemed like the "Friends" were not coming back anytime soon and I think Della had enough so she stood up followed by Shirin and went and approach the friends. By this time Christine stood up and I followed her immediately and she quickly went to the security guard and just explain the situations. The security guard came to the queue and approach ALL THE BITCHES (BOTH IN UNIFORM AND IN HOME CLOTHES).

By this time, you probably thought I just stood there... but no. This is because the security had no IDEA who cut the queue and yours truly POINTED EVERYONE OF THEM. I could tell people from the back was looking at the chaos that was made by 3DIGNITY. The security guard manage to get the bitches to move to the back. I actually heard someone from the back say "Thank you!". I also the "friend" just hiding away when they saw creating quite a situation. What losers.

So, wasn't that eventful? I should seriously just forward to the concert.

Friday, 15 July 2011, 6:30 pm Singapore Indoor Stadium

We were checked, tickets were collected and our hands were stamped with a logo "south". by this time all of us were readily made up. The maknaes looked like dancers and Christine looked like Emma Watson. And I just looked....... like.... me. Nothing brilliant, really. Was really overshadowed by the other three beauties.

But this is not upsetting. I was just really excited to get in. I keep reminding all of the three beauties just to run to the front part of the stage if there is no one and just keep running even if someone just ask us to walk instead.

AND WHEN WE GOT IN...HOLY, THAT WAS WHAT THEY DID...except for Della.. I really don't know where she went..but Christine, Shirin and I were running like mad because the front part was EMPTY and we just headed to that like bees to the bee hive.

Don't worry, Della manage to be with us too because we turn and saw her and scream different things.

Christine: DELLA RUN!

Shirin: WALAO, WEITING!!!! FASTER!!!

Me: WEITING! WHAT ARE YOU DOING! RUN!!!!!

So... then we waited again inside. However they were showing all of the sponsors and... there were a couple of eye candy showcased and I screamed when KIM HYUN JOONG was shown. That guy is just really super hot and there is no way that I can't scream seeing him anywhere.

When 7:30 came, the MCs came out and the whole stadium went wild!!! All the four us were already screaming like mad girls. or PSYCHOS. The MCs included Min from Miss A and Kevin from U-Kiss. I remembered that I kept screaming for Min to look my way but... well, she only looked later.

The first band to perform was FT Island.

They weren't the rookie but I think because they played real instrument and there will be so much movement, the organizers wanted to get that over with.

The performance was start off by Sarang Sarang Sarang (Love Love Love)! This was a great performance. I kept calling for Jong Hoon because I was trying to get him to look at Christine... because well, she luuuuurrrrvvvvv him lah. But that boy was so hard to get! He looked and then looked away!!!! But when he does give me an eye contact (Which was only one time) I just wanted to run away and hide. That guy was really so handsome and so gorgeous. I felt quite inferior.

Hongki was intense as ever and it so hard for to get eye contacts from him... not that I tried or anything tho... mostly just concentrated to get Jong Hoon to see Christine. I felt it was important for him to see Christine and I don't know why tho. So back to Hongki, he seem to like our side because well, you know his hand movement right.... well, like crazy girls, we mirrored it. IT SERIOUSLY WAS SO MUCH FUN TO ME!!!!

After performing the first song, the MC came out and asked FT Island to introduce themselves. Not that people don't know already. So here, the MC had a few conversation with FT Island. I can't really remember what Hongki was saying but the thing that stood out was that when the MC asked what was their favorite local and I remember saying out loud "again?"... How unoriginal are we and how many times must we asked this? And they ALWAYS seem to answer Chilli Crab.... is that really the ONLY local dish that taste so good? But anyways, Hongki didn't really answer Chilli Crab... but King Crab.. Which is known to be a Japanese cuisine. I didn't realize this or I don't think anybody else for that matter cause mostly we heard "crab"... Jong Hoon realize this and kinda laughed at Hongki who in turn just looked embarrassed.

So FT Island sang 4 songs...which was one more song than last year. Sarang Sarang Sarang, Hello Hello, Bing Bing Bing and I hope. I think our side was really crazy because Jaejin actually came to our side and shake his butt when Hongki went infront to the T-Stage. I wished that we hvae recorded that because right after Jaejin shake his bon bon... Jong Hoon did it as well. I could feel myself screaming like it was the first time I've seen a HOT guy shake his ass. I was so glad too!

Bon bon shaking never fails to make me happy. What can I say? I am a perverse person.

Seunghyun seem to be in a daze, tho. He doesn't seem to be into it like the rest of his hyungs. And Minhwan was just... too far. I remember screaming his name but he was too far off the stage that it was pointless. Why KMW!!!???? Everybody was not playing Live... next time just strap a toy drum set on Minhwan shoulders so he can interact with us too!

It was really sad when the first performance ended... and this was FTI. So I was already very high and wanted more!

The next performing acts are Touch! ... So before this, I was dared to scream "TOUCH, YOU'RE SO HOT." and when the time came, I did what I was supposed to do.

But the thing that shocked me were... that THEY WERE ABSOLUTELY VERY HOT AND GORGEOUS. I was so gobsmack by their hotness that I could not stop screaming! I had alot of eye contact with one of the member of Touch..the hottest one.

I was just looking around google and found out that TOUCH meant The Original Undeniable Charismatic Homme. But back to the story, TOUCH's songs were quite good and its even better when you have 5 men dancing and grooving for your.

I was so crazy for them that I started showing heart shape hands to them. One of them smile and pointed at me and I scream yet again.

Here is a picture of them in case you're just curious:

I am not quite sure which one smiled at me because I was doing the heart shape... but the point is I KNOW the reason why he pointed at me. It wasn't because he find me attractive or anything.. sad knowing this realization... but he was smiling at pointing at me because I was unintentionally doing one part of their dance. They had a dance which included a heart shape hand movement. The dude probably thought I was a fan...hahaha, well, I am now... since they were so hot. Hey, you have to give beautiful people some time... it's just the rule of the world.

So after performing one song, the MC came out again and TOUCH introduce themselves, screams evolved and I just kept on screaming "Touch is so HOT" so many times. I think it kinda got their attention that there was a girl who looked crazy and they waved. Which just made me ... say the line some more. After the conversation they had with MC, they sang and dance again and I was just really having fun mimicking their move as possibly as I can.

After Touch perform it was Dal Shabet and X-5

.. and seriously, I was not pumping up and down for this one. Firstly, Dal Shabet... was just... the replacement for SNSD... same sound, same high voice.. same showing off of legs... it was just.. boring. X-5 on the other hand... I was told that they were tall guys and I would like to add they are tranformers boys. They were dancing like robots and it was, just like Dal Shabet, boring. During both the performance I didn't do much. I even yawn for one of the performance. So not much here.

After this was THE BOSS or DaeGuNaMa or DNA. Not sure which name they go by these days. But in the concert, they were introduce as THE BOSS.

The boss performance was highly anticipated but not for me... I rested for this one also but they are good. I knew some of the parts of the song they were performing, mainly the chorus... so I sang along but I wasn't really a fan and I didn't do much. But at least for their performance, I did not yawn, I was entertained and Hyunmin have got better. He wasn't as nervous as before.. I screamed Karam name and Shirin whispered to me that he was 15...and I told Christine this info... so, I scream "Karam, I want to take care of you!"...

But Shirin said that the she gave us wrong info... Karam is actually 19. Oh well... he does look like 15 if you ever have the chance to see this boy in person. I still can't grasp the fact that he is older than Taemin.

Taemin looked older, right? I am just making a point... I should go back to my concert story.

The next performance was TEEN TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG TEEN TOP! TEEN TO THE EFFING TOP!

I WAS anticipating for this performance because I have blog about these awesomely talented boys before and it was exciting to see Changjo and Niel for the first time. I also felt my motherly instinct kicking in because I wanted them to know that they have fans here and we love them all! So I started screaming and singing along to their song and even mimick the Clap hand movement, the superman move for supa luv which I saw CAP laughing when we did that move. We must have looked silly... heh!

When the MC had the mini conversation with TEENTOP, at first, L.Joe was speaking in english and I really was not listening...because I kept screaming for Niel, Ricky and Changjo. But what did get my attention was when L.Joe said, "I'm sorry, I don't quite understand." Then Keving translated for him. What I like about this was the fact that L.Joe was not ashamed to ask again because he knew he tried to speak in english. And that's all that matter!

They sang all their single; clap, angel and supa luv, I remember having a few eye contacts with Changjo... It was crazy because I forgot that he probably can be my kid brother. Nevertheless, there was one time that he pointed and waved at me and I seriously went nuts by screaming at the top of my lungs!

All in all, Teen top excited me and their performance was fabulous and it was great to see that many people around me supported them because they do deserve all the love! TEENTOP rocks my socks!!!

I will just have to stop here for now... Tell me what you think, ok?!!!!

MORE COMING UP! MISS A, UKISS, 2NE1 AND BIGBANG.... AND SOMETHING THAT I AM JUST DYING TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT... HOON.

GOOD BAMS!