A denial PROBLEM

I have been wondering...since there is not much I can do besides wondering.. why people keep DENYING when they are in love with their best friends. I, personally, don't think it's embarassing to actually feel this way. So it might be a tricky situation but when you keep telling me about how much you don't feel that way about your supposedly best friend, it just makes it more obvious.

Have anyone read the book "He's just not that into you"?

Well, I have.

So I can TELL the sign when someone is into someone.


I am not asking people to tell the dude you're in love with him. I know the situation. Heck, I have been in the situation and telling that friend that you love him more than you're suppose to could actually cause damages. But please for crying out loud, DON'T DENY IT.


I am not him. I am a friend and I will understand. We might even have a few laughs about it. I might even agree that he's HOT.

Or something like that.


Anyway, I took the entrance test today.

It was HORRIBLE as some of my closest friends have already known. The drawing part was fine and then I realize I didn't even finish my paper. Ass.

And the stupid invigilator keep saying
"Read the questions carefully and over and over, people. Understand the question. Nobody is suppose to talk to anyone or ask what the question is meant. If you understand, then it's good. If you don't, then too bad."

What a way to make me panic. EVEN MORE.


After I finished my poster, I knew I lost it.



But, I wish I make it. I know I have some creative juices, it's just wasn't it full form today.



Wow, talk about a DENIAL PROBLEM.

I will get the result in 3 to 4 weeks and I am praying hard I will get in. I am hoping they see some talent in me because I really do want to learn to do videos and stuff and it would be quite fun making videos as a job.


If I don't get in, I might retake my O's again.


Wow, what a life I am having.

Hearts4Ever guys,
Shilla.