Chapter 15
Daniel was getting fed up. Nothing that he was doing was getting Megan closer to him. He did everything he could to get her away from that stupid boyfriend of hers. But, instead of getting her closer, she seemed distant lately. He only gets to see her during rehearsal and nowhere else. One day, when all of them were finished with rehearsing before going to the real set for real filming of the movie, Daniel quickly caught up with Megan before she could escape.
“Hey Megan, can we talk for a while.” Daniel asked. Megan sighed and nodded.
“Sure.”
“In private? Is that ok?” Daniel said, his eyes pleading. Megan felt sorry for him and followed him outside the room to the canteen. When they finally reach there, Megan sat opposite of Daniel and looked at him expectantly.
“Are you avoiding me?”
“Yes.”
“Why?” Daniel asked as he felt his blood boil with anger. How could his fear be coming true? His heart pumped with fear as Megan tried to say something.
“Daniel, I don’t think this conversation will get us anywhere. Please, Daniel.”
“Megan, I want to know why.”
“You’re scaring me, Dan. I feel like I am being haunted by you.” Daniel tensed up when Megan said those words. His brain started to work again and he knew that Megan was scared with his action but he could not help it. She was the closest he could get to her. Megan smiled sympathetically. Daniel was repulsed with himself. How could he let Megan fear him. He should not be selfish. Megan explained to him in a tone that Megan hoped to be comforting. After explaining, Megan squeezed Daniel hand’s and walk away. Daniel stared at his hand. He thought he was over Carla garner but facing reality, he was far from over.
Daniel drove all the way home with his head questioning himself. He was really confused on why he was reacting this way towards Megan. He heard a small voice in his brain saying that she was Carla. Daniel stopped in front of the porch of his house and stayed in the car, contemplating. What can he do to make sure that he has move on? Should he really seek professional help? Daniel knew the answer to that. it came like lightning. The answer was definitely yes. It was time he see someone professional to help him through this crisis.
As Daniel sat in the large sofa that could have fit 3 people, his palm was wet from all his perspiration. He did not know why he was so nervous. One thing for sure, his dad was delighted when Daniel finally wanted to get help. His father was the first to recommend his friend, Ms. Cullen, to Daniel saying that she was the best psychological practitioner in town. Daniel did not delay and called her straight away. The sooner he solve his brain problems, the better he would be. He would not allow himself to be mentally derange. Finally , the door to the big room creaked open and in came, Ms. Cullen. Daniel mouth fell open. She was the most beautiful person he had ever seen in his entire life.
“Good morning. I hope I did not keep you waiting.” She chimed. Her voice was full of bells that seem to soothe him like a song. Daniel did not respond not because he could not find his voice but because his voice was nowhere to be found. So, he just nodded.
“So what can I do for you today, Mr. Radcliffe? From you father, he said that you have a hard time adjusting after the death of your girlfriend.” Ms. Cullen said as she sat on a chair that was opposite daniel’s and crossed her legs, with a clipboard on her lap. Daniel could feel his heart pumping and his brain suddenly squashed. Ms. Cullen was outrageously beautiful and he could not understand why he was feeling all hyped. He could no longer hide the feelings that were making his blood rushed through his veins as if there was a cut. Suddenly, he faintly remembered why he was there in the room. He came here to heal. To let Carla be just a memory in him and not control him. He did not knew for one second that he was already healed. It was like Carla was working her magic on him again. It was like she wanted to make him crazy thinking of her so he could finally see what he has been waiting to help him heal. In this case it was who.
Ms. Cullen was still patiently waiting for Daniel to say something and Daniel could not help but muse at the thought that he must be acting very weird right now. Daniel sat up straighter-or as straight he could- and took a deep breath before he began. For the first time, it felt like he was a new born. The scent coming from Ms. Cullen was amazingly beautiful.
“Well, I think that is about right. A moment ago.” Daniel replied to her. Ms. Cullen face was puzzled. Daniel smiled at her knowing that he probably made no sense at all.
“Ok...well, why don’t you tell me what is it that is bothering you so much. You can tell me anything. It will be just between us.” Ms. Cullen said as she, once again, stared at Daniel waiting for a response.
“I miss her. For awhile, I think her memory has been haunting me. I could not let go..” Daniel said as he went on about Carla like he never had to anyone. Amazingly he felt the weight on his shoulders being lifted. It was not the same as talking to his dad about Carla. This time, Daniel was not as angry and he knew why. Ms. Cullen was the one listening this time. This actually made it a lot easier for Daniel and although he knew that Ms. Cullen was listening because she had to, from her facial expression, Daniel could not help but feel that she wants to hear it. As if she really wants to help him heal.
After one hour talking and listening to advice, it was time to leave. Daniel made it a point to have another appointment with Mandy. That was Ms. Cullen first name. Daniel was glad that Mandy was nice enough to see him again although it was 2 weeks later.
“So I will see you on the 23rd of September then, Daniel.” Mandy said as she held the door to her office.
“Sure thing, doc. It’s really nice in here. Quite comfy.” Daniel said as he put on his parka in the office; looking around seemingly to appreciate the decor of the room. When in fact the real appreciation he would have given would be to Mandy. Daniel looked at her for the last time before leaving and hearing the click sound the door made when Mandy shut it behind him.