For Hafizah. Love you.

Hey babe! I hope you're reading this. Before I start, let me just say that I am already missing you so dearly. I cannot imagine not making funny jokes and you're not there.


Just can't imagine the scenario.


The decision you have made, I will never contest. I hope, in this decision, that you find your happiness and greatness in it. I know you will love every minute you spent doing what you like. When I heard it for the first time, I swear, I was thoroughly happy for you. I was beyond happy. I know how happy you will be if this were to happen. But, nevertheless, I was completely shock. Not because, I was jealous or anything like that sort but I suddenly realize, that you will be gone. No longer there with me to talk to. No longer there to smile and laugh at my stupidest joke ever. Then, I realize, it was all "I"s in the sentence, I will shove them aside for you happiness.




You will be miss by me sooooooo dearly. I really love you as my own sister and I am so happy you're part of my life now. It's a signed contract and you cannot vanish on me ever. I hope we still keep in contact and I WILL EMAIL YOU EVERYDAY FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE just to see what's and how's it's been going for you.



I cannot believe you're leaving by this wednesday.


I will soooo miss you. You're like a sunshine....and cute. And extra bonus points.


I am going to wish you all the best and hope you find friends that will love you just as much as I love you and I hope even more but I do not think anyone can beat my love and care for you. Not in a million, billion and gazillion years.





As I am typing this, there's an ache in my heart. I will sorely miss you. Guess what? I will miss you even more than my ex. I hope you do know how much you mean to me, babe. I tell you how much.......oops....I cannot even put it in words.......I will show when you ask me.


I know this may sound cliche but YOU mean much more to me than the world....even if it's cloned! LOL.

I hope this does not make you cry.....cause I am about to. Brawl over and cry my eyes out....till it's sore and I can't see.



I want to say...don't leave, Haf. Don't. Stay.



But I can't.



It's too selfish and I want YOU to be somebody someday and I will not stop you from the great things that you can be. You WILL be.




Don't cry.




If you need me, I will be here. For you. Anytime.



I am missing you already....




Love you forever,
Shilla.

This is GR8!

Yo! It's been ages!.....Well, ages since I wrote in here.




Now I am 26, married, and I have 2 kids!







OK...NOPE. That's just lying.






Anyway, I am just here to blog as usual since I am taking more time to edit videos that are undone. I got a new subscriber today! Yeah, that makes it 13 subscriber! Hahahaha. Unbelievable. I wonder what would happened if I really loss all the weight and become a total beeyatch. I wonder if that would get me subscriber. Well, enough of this subscriber talking...let's get into the real deal.






HANNAH MONTANA WILL BE A MOVIE!






Yeah! April Tenth is the date! I can't wait! I LOVE Hannah Montana and I know that I am not suppose to but whatever. I love the series to bits and would buy the series if it ever comes out in dvd or vcd. It's awesome. The series, I mean.


So, anyone joining me?



Anyway, I went out after the whole CNY celebration in school. The three of us (Isabella, Christine and me) were pretty much a gloomy bunch. I don't know why, but we were kind of tired I guess. I knew I was because I was sick the day before. I finally got to have the opprtunity to go to Christine's house. It's nice. There were baby and toddlers photo around. I got to see a glimpse of Christine's childhood and man, she really have grown. She was such a cute girl although she did look like a boy sometime but what the heck, She's a true beauty now. And her siblings too....pretty. It's like (Isabella and I discussed) they were on their own league. No competition. Unlike my sister and I. We look so similar that if we dress the same, we're practically twins. And I am always the one looked over. My sister is always the pretty one and she denies it. That makes her humble too. And that leaves me with more to fight with.



Anyway, I love my sister to bits and it's sad that I get jealous like this. But I am only human.






So that's about it.....





WAIT.







Twilight sequel has be dated to premier by this year. Well, the end of the year. I cannot wait! I hope it is much better than TWILIGHT.










Got to go. SEE YA ALL IN SCHOOL.

I do not get it.

I am so sick of it.


Stop asking me this question.


What are you going to do this new year?


The answer is NOTHING.


I won't party,
I won't be with friends celebrating the coming year,
I won't drink and get drunk,
Lastly, I am not planning to GET LAID AND LOSE MY VIRGINITY.



So what? Am I boring that I don't celebrate the new year? That's total bullshit! I mean, so what if people should celebrate and party because this year ended, I don't think I am obliged to do that. And just because these people party doesn't mean they have a life and I don't! It's so ridiculous for one to even think that partying means life. Like having a social contact means life! Ok people, let's get our head out of the shallow waters shall we? Party does not equals life! Please, this is a subjective matter. It differs for everyone.


Defination of life to me does not include partying, drinking, smoking or having sex like nobody business. That is not life to me. Life to me is simple and a fantisical world i frequently visit. So there. This is my explanation and stop giving me that she-doesn't-have-a-life snide look.

Back off,

Shilla

I watched Twilight.

OK.....So I should start off saying sorry.




I AM SORRY.




To those who wanted to watch twilight with me and have been messaging me. I am so sorry. I couldn't reply and I couldn't reply because my prepaid is low and my pay has magically vanish. Like I have said before, I am pretty sure Harry Potter is part of this theft. I have been ignoring him for quite a while and I don't blame him.



Anyway, before the theft of Harry Potter with my pay, I pre-booked twilight movie almost 4 time over. I did this because I didn't go to Gold Class. Back to topic.....Twilight was amazing and great. It's definitely not as gr8 and awesome as the book but pretty good. I give it 3 stars out 5.



Here's why it gained only 3:

#1: The very first starting of the movie was already.......lame and funny. When Edward smelt Bella for the first time in the book, it was suppose to be intense and frightening but in the movie....well, Robert perception of it was all wrong because I think he did not read any of the Twilight book. He acted like he wanted to puke........which, by all means, was ridiculous. Vampire do not puke.


#2: There were many scenes that could have atleast squeezed inside. And some of the scene we could just ignore.


#3: The "falling in Love" theme was just toooooooooooooooooooooooooo fast. If you didn't concentrate, you might miss it. It's really toooooo fast. And nobody falls in love that fast. Not even for Vamps.




So, all in all, I still prefer the book than the movie but I guess that is bound to happen. I can't wait for Harry Potter now! And I cannot wait for the Twlight DVD to be available soon so I can buy it and watch it everyday!



And now, since Twilight is being made a movie, people are jumping in the twilight wagon and claiming themselves to be Twilight fans without reading the book and I hate that. They're in the wagon for the movie which pale in contrast with the book! How could they? Well, I refuse to see them as Twilight fans until they read the book and not fall for the superficial. C'mon, Edward Cullen is NOT Robert Pattinson!

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla

My fantasy WILL happen TOMORROW!

Hey peeps!



YAY!




I AM OFFICIALLY GOING TO BE BONKERS TOMORROW BECAUSE.....TWILIGHT SNEAK PEAK IS TOMORROW AND I HAVE ALREADY BOOKED IT. I WAS THE FIRST FEW. HAHAHAHA! I CANNOT WAIT AND YOU CAN SENSE MY EXCITEMENT BECAUSE I AM LITERALLY SHOUTING AND SCREAMING USING CAPS.




LET ME COOL DOWN. MY HEARTBEAT IS REALLY PUMPING. WHY AM I STILL USING CAPS......





Ok....I have tried to make my heartbeat slower. So now, I can blog without shouting although I can hardly contain my excitement! YAY! It's going to be tomorrow y'all! Then finally I can rest in peace. And I am going to watch it TWICE tomorrow because I can't watch it in GoldClass. Wanna know why? My pay....simply vanish. It went to the air and magically disappear. I have a feeling that Harry Potter is behind all this because lately I have been neglecting him but I don't care. Right now....all I can think about is Twilight..Tomorrow...Twilight...Tomorrow....Twilight....Tomorrow!




I think I would gush like a baby! Finally after waiting all these while and now the time have arrived. I am going to watch THREE time actually. I will watch it twice on the same day (Tomorrow!) and the on the SEVENTENTH I will be watching it again. This time ALONE. YAY!



For all those who wants to watch it with me on the eightenth, please let me know through phone or email.


HERE'S MY CONTACT NUMBER:
90147182


HERE'S MY EMAIL:
roshillacullen@hotmail.com



Please do it before monday because I am going to book early. And to those who wants to go, I might need you to transfer your money to my account so I can book. So email me fast and Do it A.S.A.P.

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla

Thursday night With Twilight

As you can see from the title, it's inspired by the book "Tuesday Afternoon with Morrie." I saw the book and I heard it changed people's perception on life and the so often it's-a-very-good-book-you-should-read-once-in-your-life saying. So this is also the reason why it has inspired me to write the title above. Twilight changed my life and it's a very good book that if you have not read it, you must be insane or just plain stubborn.


So talking about twilight bring us to the Twilight HATERS. They, apparently, exist everytime there's something good in this world. God created them so all of us would be sane. But, nevertheless, they still bug me and make me go insane like nobody's business.
So here's the deal, one day or afternoon on my lunch break, I was sitting there feeling so shitty as it is because Stupid Bitch(SB) already gave me a morning lecture on how OUR wrapping is below the standards and she kept looking at me as if it was my fault when all the while I have been inside the office doing the receptionist shit. Then as if that is not enough, I went to the counter to do wrapping and a really old lady who reminded me of my grandmother came up to me to ask for a book and since she was alone, I said I would help her find it and take her to the information counter. I couldn't just point and direct her using my hands with this lady because I have a weakness for old people who look like they're lost and need my help. So I was being courteous. I told one of my Co-worker that I will be gone for awhile. So I did that and when I came back, SB was there waiting for me to come back and DEMANDED where I was. I told her everything and do you know what she said after I explained? She said that I SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE THAT AND I SHOULD HAVE JUST DIRECTED HER WITH MY HANDS. WOW!!! Now I know the reason why Singaporean are NEITHER gracious NOR courteous because instead of being rewarded, WE GET A FREAKING LECTURE FOR IT. Fuck SB. Then when I was about to go lunch, I headed to the locker and fucking SB was already inside the locker room to pounce again. This time she repeated the scene at the counter and she asked me if I THREW THE BUBBLE WRAPPING IN THE DUSTBIN.
So this is how the stupid conversation goes.

SB: Shilla I heard you threw the bubble wrap in the dustbin.

ME: Uh no. It was there when I reached the counter.

SB: Because I receive feedback that it was in the dustbin.

ME: Yeah. I know. But I was not the one who threw it.

SB: So why didn't you ask anyone why was the bubble wrap in the dustbin.

Me: Well, I thought it was used.

SB: Next tine you should ask who threw it.

Me: But I don't know if it's trash or not. I didn't know that we cannot throw bubble wrap.

SB: It's bubble wrap leh.

ME: Yeah. Well, no management told me anything about BUBBBLE WRAPS.

SB looks at me as if I was stupid and I feel like punching her face because I was already so angry.

SB: Ok lor(sarcastically) Next time Please(another sarcastic tone used here) ask.

ME: Ask why there's trash in the trash bin? (I am acting dumb just to piss her off. Here, I am already using my 'american accent' just to piss her off more...it worked because she glared at me and I wanted to joy out of it.)

SB: No. Why the bubble wrap is in the trash.

Me: Fine.

I walked out. This was before lunch. My appetite and my hunger vanished and I gave my food away.

So that happened before lunch, so I was sitting there feeling all sad and angry then this one girl came and sat down with her friend and started to diss Twilight and those girls who SQUEL AND GIGGLE for twilight. She insulted them and she's been spreading stuff to customers saying that twilight is shit. Well...fuck her! Seriously. Fuck her to death. Stupid girl. What is wrong with people who cannot stand happiness. Ok, so maybe those girls who squel and giggle can be irritating and annoying but at least they're not squeling and giggling over porn or stupid shit in the world. And it's so stupid to tell about something you don't know. I asked her if she read the book and that stupid girl said NO! WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK? You don't know the story and you go about dissing it? Haven't you heard the saying don't judge a book by it's cover, it does imply literally, asshole. So, that was a bad day and it was really ruined that I really felt like running home and cry. I didn't know who to talk to and I didn't know who would understand. So when I reached home, I cried by myself and it's silly because I am crying for Twilight. And a bad day.

Anyways, I have more. So today was my last few days as a gift wrapper because I would be inside doing more recep stuff. Today was the best day of my life because the people I worked with outside were cool people that everytime a customer came with any twilight merchadise, they gave it to me because they knew how much I love it and I wrap it very neatly and well. I was really happy today, smiling most of the time. Then I went for dinner, had KFC, then came back to the wrapping counter. While I was wrapping one of the stuff from a customer, my head was dizzy and I felt like I was spinning. I, suddenly, wanted to puke and I couldn't feel my head. One of my co worker, her name is Ci Jie, asked me to run for the washroom but everyime I wanted to, the feeling of puking vanish and I was fine. I felt real bad until THIS AMAZING CUSTOMER CAME AND TALK TO ME ABOUT TWILIGHT. It was so much fun! She said she was still reading Twilight and asked me if she could skip the books. At first I told it was fine because Bella (She's a character from Twilight; the main character to be exact.) always explain stuff that would make your furrowed brows become smooth. Then she asked me which one is the best to me. I told her in this order;

Numero Uno:

TWILIGHT

Numero dos:

BREAKING DAWN

Numero tress:

ECLIPSE

Numero....uh...Four?:

NEW MOON

So we just kept on talking about twilight and it really made my day or night. I was so glad I met her and it was nice chatting with her. It was really great. She was in doubt on whether she should buy all the books at one go and I told her she should because there was a promotion for customers and she will crave for more after she read finish one of the series. And to even brighten up my day.....she bought everything. She told me I could be a good promoter for twilight. I told her if that ever happened I would be honored and be really happy even with shitty people like SB.

Another thing that I remembered today was this Filipino dude. Once again this goes out to Christine....why are all you filipinoes....so good lookin'?

He bought a Twilight collector book as a present ( Hint to friends for christmas present) and I was so intrigued by his face that I thought to myself that I have to talk to him. So I attempted at flirting. I know...ugh. But I don't know why, I just had to. But instead of it sounding flirty...it just sounded.....customer service-ly. Pathetic. Nevertheless, he replied and we talk a very little then I ran out of things to say so I kept my mouth shut. But then....he tried to keep talking. I swear he was flirting but I was toooooo scared that I could be wrong so I replied back in a customer service-ly manner. Pathetic and sad. Just sad. Pathetic. I can repeat this a thousand million time but I don't want to be down tonight.

So that was all. And now...I have updated on my life...I expect all my friends who have blogs (CHRISTINE) to update their blog no matter how busy they are.

BY THE WAY...DO YOU KNOW THE WORD AREN'T IS OFTEN USED WRONGLY. FOR EXAMPLE:

AREN'T YOU HOT, FILIPINO DUDE?

THIS IS WRONG BECAUSE IF YOU TRANSLATE WITHOUT THE (') THINGY, IT WILL BE LIKE THIS.

ARE NOT YOU HOT, FILIPINO DUDE?

THIS IS HOW IT SHOULD BE:

YOU AREN'T ON TIME.

BECAUSE THIS IS HOW IT WOULD MEAN:

YOU ARE NOT ON TIME.

I just had to say this...so people won't do it again. IN an ESSAY.

Hearts4Ever,

Shilla

OFF day again! The Day of REST!

So....How are my lovelies doing? I hope everyone is fine because I am totally brimming with happiness. You should know why I am so happy!


TWILIGHT.


Yeah. That's right! I know what you are thinking and I know that it's lame but I cannot, in any other way, help myself. Anything and everything that has to do with Twilight made me super happy. It's how life is for me right now. Ha!



So, yesterday, I folded 41 POSTERS OF TWILIGHT. I folded every single piece with a smile on my face that my store manager was surprise! I mean he didn't understand why I was smiling rolling posters. Well, it's because the posters were twilight posters. I was going bonkers. I want one of it but since I bought the movie companion too early, I can't. So, I complained and whine (quietly) but one of the department managers heard me anyways and asked me what book I bought, hence I told her about the book from the previous Blog (which is posted below). She listened and went away, only coming back with a BAG! The bag is awesome because it has "the twilight saga" posted on it! I mean how crazy is that? So, tomorrow I will bring the bag to work from now on!


And although I want the posters, I don't think I should buy it. You have to buy a book or any twilight merchadise, I can't splurge. I have to save for Christine B'day outing and I dun wanna be out of cash. Now that I am away from the posters, I can actually think straight. I feel like I am Edward when he first met Bella. All he wanted to do was kill her and nothing else. Just like me, everytime I am surrounded by Twilight mayhem, all I want to do is purchase them. Nothing else matters.



So I miss my girls. All of them. I miss them so much and I cannot help but cry sometimes. I feel so lonely and I hate the fact that I cannot meet them without cash. Damn this world. I really wish all of the girls and I will go out one day. That's of course after my pay.



Oh yeah, there's a sneak for Twilight on the 12th. I am not sure yet but that's what they told me. So I am going if there is a sneak. Hopefully, the timing would be ok and there's a midnight show if I am working the afternoon shift. So anyone wanna come?


I miss you girls. Isabella, Christine, Liyana, Hafizah and Razia.

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla

I finally have my sanity in place.

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I bought the Twilight The complete Illustrated movie Companion. I feel like my anxiousness have calm down a little bit but not so much- I get so hyped up when someone tell me something about Twilight. Even if it's someone over the phone who, by chance, just wanted to know if there is stock of Twilight book in the store. I get so excited just answering it. Today, there was 3 people who asked me about Twilight over the phone. I was overly answering them. Seriously, I was. Here's a few examples.


#Example UNO

Me: Kinokuniya. Good Morning. Shilla Speaking. Can I help you?
Customer: Hi. I want to ask you if you have stock on the Twilight series.
Me: Yes, Mam! We do. We have it in hard covers and it comes with a package
that'sthe series in one box. It's quite value for money and I think if you want to buy
Twilight, you should buy the whole series because it's really a good story.
Customer: Er....yeah. Thanks. Bye. (hung up)


#Example DOS

Me: Kinokuniya. Good Afternoon. Shilla speaking. Can I help you?
Customer: Yes. I was wondering if you have Twilight?
Me: Yes. (My manager said not to answer too much. But I so badly want to.)
Customer: How much is it?
Me: Well, Mam, for the Twilight series there are two versions. The original cover cost
about $17.07 and the movie version cover is cheaper-it's only 13.95. The movie
covers comes in 2 sizes and 2 version.
Customer: Hmm. That's interesting. Which would you buy.


At this point of time my heart was accelerating!!! Finally, a customer who wanted to know what I, Roshilla Cullen, thought!!!! So I kinda told her that I would buy both because I am the Twilight fan. She laughed and asked me if the book is good. I told her ( I think I screamed) that it was! After I did (explain to her how good the books were), she told me she would buy the whole set and said I was convincing!!! I was so happy that I told everyone! I made BUSINESS for them!


So all in all. I am happy today. Mostly because of the book that is posted here. And, of course, the amazing customers who asked me about Twilight. It made my day!

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla

Finally...A time to update!

Yay! I can update now....because I am having an OFF day tomorrow...So I can sleep late tonight and use the time to update on my life.





Life is good. Work is fun. I am a receptionist. I sit down almost everyday. I am not that tired.





One thing I found out about working with others in KINOKUNIYA is that I hate perfectionist. I really cannot be with them. Or around them. They irritate the life out of me and I can die just being so.....irritated. Fussy. Seriously, I cannot make one mistake. They give me these kind of 'are-you-stupid?' look. I mean if one is a perfectionist, at least tell me how to do that something and not accuse me of not listening. People make mistake and it's too bad when a perfectionist cannot accept that.





So Twilight will be out soooooooon. I cannot wait. Seriously I can't I am going to love every minute that I spent just watching it and go crazy. I think Illysa ears will bleed...Muahahahahaha! I cheated too. I read reviews. Well, I only read one and the reviewer said that Edward and Bella character was believable because of the actors!!! I knew my darling Robert Pattinson could do it....He's hot as it is..... I LOVE YOY, ROBERT!!! You're the best!


Ok so that's all....Pretty boring, huh? Well, that's life for ya!

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla

Twilight premieres today. I cannot help but feel a little down.

What's up?


Sorry. But I am not in the mood. I am here to whine.


So if you don't like it. Please, there's the X red butten on the upper right hand on your laptop. By all means, press it.


So, Twilight is premiering in this very second....I cannot imagine that. I didn't go to YouTube at all except reply to some of my comments. Well, one of my comments. Other than that, I absolutly avoided YouTube and other great website like MSN or Yahoo! or Google. I just go to my mail, answer some email (Mostly from Amirah) then closing the computer or reading some Fanfiction. This is only the first day and I already feel like I am dying. I have to keep this up for the next 3 weeks before I can go back to the normal life. Thank god, really, that I am working NOW. This is the first time I feel so helpless. Even Harry Potter has a WORLDWIDE premiere. I don't get it why TWILIGHT doesn't. I seriously don't.


Anyway, Job in KINO is fun. Tiring but fun. Better than working at Jenap's place. Although the pay is less. I am happy there. Friends there are great although they are young as always. No surprise. I was asked to trained as a receptionist. I tell you, it's alot of work. But it's fun picking up calls and transferring them to the different department. Ha! Then in the office somebody brought up TWILIGHT and I couldn't help myself and started claiming I am the biggest TWILIGHT fan here and would use my first pay to buy TWILIGHT stuff.


I would. Seriously. But firstly I have to put money for Twilight movie outing aside. Which I think will be about $200. Don't frown. I seldom get the opprtunity to splurg and after TWILIGHT, I don't know what else I am going to do. Probably nothing. So the rest of the money is safe. I just need to buy other Twilight stuff and one of the Harry Potter collector series. Don't frown again.



So, I still haven't heard from anyone about the outing and I am guessing that none of you wanna come with me soooo I made plans with my sister. (Don't worry Amirah, I planned for ours.)
We're seriously going to watch it in GOLD CLASS and if you guys wanna join, please please contact me.


Christine, BTW, can we postpone the BIRTHDAY thingy again? I will get my pay by end of this month but it comes as cheque so it will take around three days and I have to be sure I have enough cash, So it would be a great party...I was thinking could we postpone it after the 9th of december? Pretty please. Then you won't be disappointed. Tagged me ok? Let me know. Prepain is down...so email or tagged me. I will check and reply.



So as I was saying, I declared in the KINO office that I was the TWILIGHT fan. So the person in charge of the children books department stood up and looked at me (her name is AGNES). She asked me question that surprised me and made her impressed because I answered swiftly. I mean come on! It was TWILIGHT questions. So here was how it went:



Agnes: So you're a Twilight fan?
Me: Yeah. (Look Proud and Smug)
Agnes: So do we sell the twilight series in packages?
Me: Yes. Definitely.
Agnes: Do we sell the hard cover?
Me: Yes. Individually and in packages.
Agnes: And how much does the packages cost?
Me: $144.85
Everyone in the office (Including Agnes and myself because I was surprise I could remember): WHOA!


So....this just show that I am THE TWILIGHT Fan to beat. Seriously. Ok enough of being smug.

Hearts 4Ever,

Shilla.

Another Poster...another day made!

This is another poster of Twilight that I found in Dobhy Gaut (is that the way you spell it?), I was so happy because it was so huge and it was on ALL the four pillars....I was about to go crazy! People seriously thought I was going insane. I was standing in front of the four pillars for at least 10 mins each. I'm CRAZY.

So that really made my day.

Extremely. Totally bliss out.

Anyway, another thing, I got the job from KINOKUNIYA. Yes, I am selected and I hope I will be happy working there. I know I will be dead beat but with all the books that surrounds me, I think that would somehow balance it out. At least I will be close to all the TWILIGHT books....love love that idea! Especially...very near Robert Pattinson aka Edward Cullen photo.

So I will start tomorrow and I hope I do the job well. Not willing to screw up...so my future of cash flows....is secure. And I WILL BE ABLE TO WATCH TWILIGHT IN GOLD CLASS AND BE CONTENT WITH IT. Haiz, it is suppose to be just a few days later...and Twilight would be release in the States and Philippines. Thank god I am working. I will avoid all the mayhem in YouTube and ignore it all. So I would not be jealous.

Got a message from Ms. Queck...Told me about a Lit lecture tomorrow. People who are not working should go. I wish I could.

Anyway, Got to go. I will try to get more posters that are up and running and post it up and see my excitement grow!

God Bless,

Roshilla.

BTW...I have not heard from ANYONE WHO IS GOING TO WATCH THE MOVIE WITH ME!!!! Hello? Anyone coming?

Just when I thought I gave up...

So that's the new trailer from Harry Potter! I cannot wait. I thought my love for it died down cause I have been caught in TWILIGHT mayhem....But it certainly was just hiding. I was jumping up and down with this trailer. I am so glad now! I can't wait for the movie...THOUGH, admittedly, not that excited because it's centuries away.

Ok...so I am exaggerating.

It's just a few months away. 8 months and 2 days away exactly.

Anyway, hoping to see all my friends soon. Miss them like crazy!

THE POSTERS ARE UP AND RUNNING!!!!!

So as all of you can see, The Twilight saga is FINALLY getting some life in Singapore! Although I am, honestly, not that happy because they still have not, under any circumstances, change the bloody damn date, I am contented that the posters are already up around our little island. I was dying out of impatience. This, by the way if you're curious, was taken at Kovan MRT station. I actually was sooooo shock to see it there. I wonder if I asked for the poster when the entertainment value have run off, they would give it to me? I bet not. I had exprience. Yup, that's right. I asked for the Harry Potter poster from MJ, they just scoffed me off as if I was retarded.

So, I have also checked some of our movie websites (Cathay and Golden Village) they have this particular movie in the 'Coming Soon' section!!! I seriously went ballistic. My sister was frightened. I can't wait for this movie to come out!!!! I am literally going to die once it comes out. Though I will be working on that day with Robinson. That's right, people, I got the job. But I don't know if I want to accept it...I am still waiting for Kinokuniya to accept me. I rather work for them. Seriously. Imagine me around all those BOOKS and their collection of Harry Potter and Twilight. I would be sooooooo happy. I really wish they call me soon. I only have until wednesday. At Ten. In the morning. Please let me have that job. The interview was fine. I don't know if she photocopied any of my certificate or not cause I was busy trying not to shake so much when she (The INTERVIEWEE) had me on a gift wrapped test. And she was so close. I was under so much pressure. But, all that considered, I did well wrapping the books. Well, at least it did not fall off or rip open.

Gosh! If I accept the job from this Robinson, I know I will be tired like hell. Work 6 days a week and only have 1 day rest. It's not even a weekend. And it only start on the 18th of dec! The premiere of Twilight. So I have to keep the current job I have now. A receptionist and Admin Asst that is not really needed. I hate my co-worker. Seriously. A complete whiner. Keeps on bitching about the boss. But I really can't blame her, the boss is not nice either. But I rather the boss than my co-worker. She thinks she's all great and exprienced. Ha! That sounds wrong but what the heck, who cares?

I have been doing a newsletter for this company and as much as I disagreed with Christine yesterday complaining about my current job being lame and boring and, surprisingly (because I sit all day), tiring, I enjoyed making the newsletter and am proud with the result. It looked nice....and it's all my HARDWORK for 2 hours. Not bad for a first-timer. Plus this would look good on my resume to NUS(Journalism), now I have a small taste of what it feels like to do an article. Absolutely amazing!

So....I end here. I am so glad that I saw this poster!!! TWILIGHT is really showing in Singapore! I can't wait. I promise myself that I will never buy the pirated disc that I know I will be tempted to buy once I know it is available.

Another downside though, I checked the gold class tickets...Damn. They raised it. After 9 years. Why couldn't it just be 10 years, where Twilight would already be a DVD? Whatever. I am still watching it there....just for the comfort and sastifaction of waiting and not being able to go on it's ACTUAL premier release which is on the 21st of November...which is 7 days away! All you who will get this luxury, just so you know, I HATE YOU.

So enjoy the poster and call me if you want to catch it with me....and you can't make it on the relase date in Singapore. I think I am going to watch it about 3,000,000 times. No excuses.

Email me if you want to have a TWILIGHT outing. I still haven't got any replies from any youtubber in Singapore. Damn.

This is the mail if you wanna go catch with me and have a TWILIGHT outing:

roshillacullen@hotmail.com

I know. Don't ask. I am obsessed. With Edward Cullen. And Robert Pattinson. I can't make up my mind. At least with Harry Potter, I know who I like and it's definitely Harry Potter and NOT Daniel Radcliffe. But with TWILIGHT....Robert is too damn fine to be ignore.

This is the first Tv spot for Twilight for the states!!!!

The second Tv Spot for Twilight!!!

This is the third Tv spot for Twilight!!!!

I know, I am obsessed. I am goingto watch this movie like there is like no tomorrow....So I probably will be watching more than 3 times on the same day!!! Can't wait!

Anyone wanna join?

Definitely watching in GOLD ClASS....hahaha...waste my money...

But...must pay your own if you wanna join me....hahaha

I am about to die.

Living life to the fullest.

That's the most ridiculous thing ever.

Death, I feel thee presence.

Why does thee stay at one place?

Take me away.

Take me away.

Take me away.

For my soul never made a difference.

This blog today will be about something I have been noticing. Friends, do you remember I told you that I had a crush in school. (all my friends should know who I am talking about.)

So I was not the only one who have notice this but Christine too....

He's been looking at me.

I think he figured out that I LIKE HIM.

Or somebody must have told him.

Damn....Hahaha....I think he thinks that I still am crushing over him. Which I am not. A little.

Ok, yes, to me, HE IS STILL CUTE.

But the hair have got to go....

So weird. He keep looking at me as if saying....

"HA! This girl like me....What does she thinks now?"

Here's what I think:

YOURE A GOOD LOOKING JACK ASS THAT DESERVE A SLAP FOR YOU TO WAKE UP AND SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL I AM.

HA!

So irritating.

Just needed to let it out.

Ok.

Bye.

Love Shilla.

So it has been a long time since I wrote a new blog here. I am really sorry about the lack of updates but I hope that none are that unhappy.

So, tomorrow I will know my fate on whether I make it to year 3. I kinda already know what it is and I am not trying to be pessimistic but I am facing the facts. The conclusion is that I won't be making it to the next year and MY FRIENDS WILL BE MISS DEARLY........especially my 3 best friends of all my life. Know that you 3 have change my life to a better one and I LOVE ALL OF YOU WITH ALL THE CORE OF MY BODY AND SOUL.

I hope when I say this, it doesn't sound like goodbye....BUT I do love all the three of you.

To ISABELLA,
You're a great friend. No, that's understatement. You're incredible and such an amazing soul. There would be no one out there as good and as great as you. You're irreplacable. The days we share with laughter and happiness and the one time I made you mad and your incredible ears that never get tired listen to my chatter and your patience...I thank you for being my friend. MY very FIRST friend in MI. The very friend that I care soooo much about.....You're the best.

Your strength to achieve what you want never fail to amaze me and when you look at me with that look so that I became ashamed and start to study. Once again, you're the best.

To CHRISTINE,
Well, what can I say? There's no word to describe you either but I will try my best.....Let's start with your pretty-ness, shall we? You are so beautiful, Christine (inside and out) and you are very nice to me. No....You're very kind to me. I like the part that we can always talk about guys and I like the fact that you don't judge me just like Isabella.
There's more, of course...but I just can't find words to say it. I can see that you care about me and you, too, never ever asked me to shut up....you listen to my chatter with patience and I never felt the need to shut up....

To Liyana,
Liyana, you're are my small angel. I am sooooo happy your heart accepted me and I love that you always search for me for help and I am glad when you are just beside me. Just you there, it's such a comfort that I have never found. You complete the rest of us and I will be so sad not talking to you and meeting you in school when I am gone. But I will always be here for you.

I love you guys so much and I wish things were different for me so that I can stay......I will cling on to hope to the very end.....But if I don't make it.......You KNOW that I love you.

Hafizah and Razia,
I have not forgotten you two. You are my younger sisters and I love the both of you....with all that I can. I will miss you sooooo badly. You guys always make me so happy in class and I love that sometimes we talk about anything under the sun and act bimbo....hahahah....

Nisa,
Your friendship is one of the thing that I will cherished till the day that I vanish from this place of the planet....You're so funny with you reactions and you retorts...it's just so cute. I will never forget you my friend.

I hope no tears is shed when reading this like I am now. I cannot imagine the future without you all....I really can't. If there's one thing I will regret when I don't make it...it's not that I didn't make it to year three and my dream have somehow vanish, but at the possibility that all of wil never meet again. Me, lonely...somewhere. Missing you all.

My heart has broken before and now it feels like it's tearing apart just with the knowledge that we won't see each othe everyday......I don't know how I will face it when reality will take over this knowledge.

Seriously, guys...this is worst than breaking up with my boyfriend.

So much more worst.

On better note,
I recommend that ALL OF YOU should read The Host by Stephenie Meyer. It's not a series, so don't worry. It's really a good book and really nice. It's sci-fi romance...but mostly sci fi....and even though you're a sci-fi hater.....you will love this book, no matter what!

I need to read more...I am actually craving for books and I am dying to read something new and nice.

So who is going to watch twilight with me? I need to know!!!!! Just a few more months..........

OK good day ya'all,
Roshilla.

THE TRAILER!!!!

TWILIGHT LAST TRAILER

Mandy said hi to me...WITH GREAT NEWS!!!!