Chapter 13
It’s been four months and Daniel Radcliffe was no longer the man that he uses to be. Carla died a month after the findings of her cancer. She refused treatment and she just wanted to enjoy life. Carla spent the whole month with her family, friends and of course Daniel. Daniel was the last one to hold her hands as the eyes that he had love slowly became blank and the loosening of her hands in his indicating she had left. Left him forever.
After just days of Carla’s funeral, the paparazzi and press were merciless and asked him about Carla. He couldn’t believe such beasts exist on the face of the planet. He could not get out of his house until his dad came in and talked to him for awhile. Now Daniel went out as usual and although the press and paparazzi were still asking question, people were soon forgetting about Carla. But she haunted him day in and day out. He just could not forget her and almost cried himself to sleep every night. The memories of her were left in photographs that he keeps under his pillow so it was easy for him to keep her alive in his heart.
“Promise me you’ll move on, Daniel.”
Those were the last words that she had left him and wanting to fulfil his promise, he did try to move on. Tried to be happy. Tried to go on dates. Tried to go out to party. But that was the problem, he tried. All of which brought nothing but guilt and longing in his heart even more. He wants to be with her. There was nothing more that he wanted. She was his life and now that she was gone, he felt that he was dead. Daniel got up from his bed and walked over his study table to take out a pen knife that he used to cut papers and what not. He placed the pen knife on his wrist and was about to slit it open before his dad came in and quickly snatch the pen knife away. Daniel was breathing hard and looked at his father.
“Daniel, what the hell do you think you’re doing?” His father bellowed. His father face was burning and there were angry tears that fell from his father eyes. Daniel felt guilty not because he wanted to kill himself but because he had made his father cried. But he can’t live anymore. He didn’t want to. Carla was waiting for him and he could feel her calling him.
“Daniel, please. Let us talk.” Daniel’s father gestured to the bed and Daniel followed suit. Both of the men stared at the floor at loss of words. Daniel was thinking of Carla and what she would do if she had been here. Would she smile? Would she laugh? Would she hold him tight? The questions were pushing him to breaking point. He just could not figure out how he could not think of anything else but Carla. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Speak, son. Just tell me how you feel. It will help. If it doesn’t, I swear, I will give you this knife and you could kill yourself. But you have to tell me every bit of truth about your feelings. Just let it out.” Daniel could not believe his ears, was he given the permission to die and be with Carla if he let out what’s been going on in his head? The longing to be with Carla increase and he just let it out to his father.
“I want to be with her. I can’t live like this. She is in my mind all the time and she’s haunting me, dad. I see her shadows hiding everywhere.” Daniel said as tears started to fall and he could feel the weight of sadness started to life the more he talked out loud to his dad. He kept on talking and he felt great talking about Carla to someone who listened. The more Daniel poured out the more he realized that he felt better and he felt like what he did was wrong. Killing himself was not what Carla wanted him to do. He knew this before but telling someone about this just helped him to understand better.
“She wanted me to be happy. Wanted me to move on. She wanted me to be happy. With or without her.” Daniel finished as his tears just slide down his face like a waterfall.
“You just said it. She wanted you to move on, Dan. Not kill yourself.”
“But I miss her so much. I am longing for her. I don’t want to be alone.” Daniel said as he realized that he was going crazy because he was alone.
“Daniel, you’re not alone in this. Imagine her mother at home. She lost a daughter, Dan. But she’s strong because of Carla. She’s being strong for Carla, Daniel. Maybe you’re being selfish. Maybe you don’t love as much as you think you do cause if you do, you would be strong Daniel. For Carla.” Daniel looked at his father and could not believe the words that were coming out if his mouth. How could he say such a thing? Daniel loved Carla more than he did himself. Daniel was so angry that if his father was a stranger, Daniel would have punch his face. When his father got up to leave, he walked to the study table and placed the pen knife.
“You can kill yourself, now.” His father said and was about to walk out of the door. Daniel got up and took the pen knife and placed it on his wrist once again.
“YOU THINK THIS IS A JOKE? HOW CAN YOU SAY ALL THOSE THINGS? I LOVE CARLA MORE THAN ANYTHING! I WANT TO KILL MYSELF SO I CAN BE WITH HER!” Daniel bellowed. His father turned calmly and faced Daniel.
“Do you realize how selfish you sound? Son, you’re doing this for yourself. If you love Carla, you would have think of her. How she wanted you to be happy for her.” With those words, Daniel’s father left and shut the door. Comprehension dawn on Daniel like never before. He dropped the pen knife on the floor and sat on his chair. His hands covering his face as his father words played in his mind. He realized that he was, indeed, being selfish. Daniel look at his reflection on the wall, he hated the selfish person he saw. Carla would not have wanted this for him. He should try, this time with all his heart, to fulfil the promise he made for Carla again. Daniel nodded to his reflection to assure that this was the right thing to do. To move on.


Sorry it took so long people, but now I know where I am heading you bet you will see more. BTW, I started something today and that is A Harry Potter Fanfic... I might create a website just for it soon...I'l let you know.

It’s the end of school. The end of hard work. The end of stress. Not. This is like summer break and I guess it is somehow true. It’s summer all year round in Singapore. Jealous? Don’t be. It’s not exactly fun. Like how summer should be. I did not attend school today as my illness really got the better of me; I have been trying to self heal and not seek doctor’s treatment, I really could not hold back the pain and decided it was time to go to the doctor for some medicine and of course MC. The bloody damn school needs it. I have been reading a lot of blogs lately and I have different response to it. Some blogs are really cool to read because they are really descriptive and interesting. It makes you see a picture instead. I hate blogs that are so difficult to read. Blogs that does not make sense. Why write something that does not make sense at all? Bloggers should know that blogs are meant for the general public to read. If you make it so difficult to understand, people would be piss. Maybe not. But I definitely am. I am not Sherlock Holmes, you know. I hate trying to read ‘between the lines’. It makes me feel like I am sitting for a test. So, I have found a new crave. It’s called the “House”. It’s a series that just aired in Singapore tonight and I fell in love with it immediately. Isabella has been talking about how she feel she is losing the “zest of life” lately and she’s really stress about it. I guess I have to agree with her. The education system is so systematic. I feel like we’re walking zombies trying to live. But we’re just dead. I need to get away from Singapore. It’s killing. That should be in the news headlines. A new murderer is roaming around; Singapore. I hope that’s the right punctuation. As everybody knows, I have video vlogs on YouTube. Ok, I guess not everyone knows about it. But, just so you know, I have an account and I do make videos. Lately, there have been really little viewers. I am not affected by it but I guess I am affected with what I make. They’re so fake. I realise that I act in my videos. I am trying so hard to be funny. When I don’t have to try because I am funny. I am not boasting. It’s a fact. So next time, I will try to be more real. And not fake it. Or bitch about someone in particular. I cannot believe what ‘she’ has done in the past. She even wrote it in her blog. It was disgusting. So now I bet you think I am hypocritical because I am not making sense. So here’s the deal. Let’s name ‘she’ Dahlia. Dahlia is pretty much a boaster. She gags and gags day long. She’s all about religion but the stupid thing is she does what she criticise and that is smooching a guy and talking about it on her blog. The shitty thing is she is not the only one I know who are hypocrites. There this dude who don’t like girls with short skirts and all. He claims that it’s ridiculous and against our religion. Let’s name this dude Andrew. Well, apparently, he has a gf and he does all the stuff that our religion forbids and post ‘kissy-kissy’ pictures on MySpace. So much for that. Just so you know Andrew, you’re a jackass and you really are on my nerve. Please do not make me hate you because I am on the verge of doing just that. Don’t be so pretentious and act like you’re so religions because if you were,you would know this particula fact that our religion states; holding a girl is just as bad as eating and touching pork. So just stop all your shit. Please. This blog is a bit random but I just have to let it out here. I need people to know. I just like that idea. People knowing me without knowing me. I want to watch Prince Caspian. I have not returned the book (Chronicles of Narnia) and I owe the library more than $5. Oh well. Thanks for reading. Do leave a comment. Haha. That’s what most youtubber say at the end of their videos. Sadly, I am part of the crowd.

Oh by the way, I hit a dead end for my story. If you have any ideas, do contact me at shillluvrsharry@hotmail.com. And please don’t send me some miracle shit. Carla is dead.

I am writing this on Microsoft word so I can just cut and paste. The internet connection is so corrupted with viruses and I am cannot get online. I hate this. So much hatred in me. I should learn how to appreciate. Trying. Oh no. My hands are getting numb.

Chapter 12
The story that Carla was hospitalised was all over the news. Carla could not help but feel a little discomfort at what she’s becoming in the public eyes. It was as if she was someone who was important to everyone when in real truth she was just a normal person with a big craving for Mr. Softee right then. If only the nurse was not really looking into her diet so carefully. Carla was awaken by her friends. Her real friends; friends who would never leave her no matter who she was. They smiled at her and talked about school and their normal life. Vanessa; Kathy’s closest friend compared to the others, was going to audition for some musical movie by Disney. Carla was so happy for her and was sure that she would get the role because she can sing so well and dance way better than Carla could.
“I am so nervous, Carl.” Vanessa said when the others went home; Vanessa was always the last one to leave so she can clear her doubts and have comfort words thrown at her by her closest friend.
“Why? You’re the best, V. There’s nothing to worry about. Just try your best and who knows, you might do what I did; get the co-star to be your boyfriend.” Carla said as she laugh. Then, suddenly, Daniel came in the room with a frown on his face. He looked at Vanessa and nodded his head towards her to acknowledge her presence. Daniel sat down beside Carla and kept quiet.
“Ok, I have got to go. See you tomorrow, Carla.” Vanessa said as she felt uncomfortable in the tension that Daniel was creating. Carla looked at her and waved goodbye until she was out of sight. Once Vanessa was gone, Carla reached out for Daniel’s hand and held it. Suddenly, Daniel looked at Carla with a look of pain as if the words that he was going to say were going to cause him all the energy he had in his body. Carla was getting tense and confused.
“Daniel, what is the matter?” Carla asked as he squeezed Daniel’s hand.
“Carla, they found something in you.”
“What do you mean?” Carla asked as confusion was overflowing in her brain. She could not register anything and suddenly, Daniel’s eyes ware filled with tears.
“Carla, they found that you have...” Daniel could not finish his words and looked away. He was really angry with himself because he was making Carla panic and scared. It was shown through her pretty face. She squeezed Daniel hand but this time she held the tension because she wanted to know. Daniel looked at the pretty face again.
“Carla, you have cancer.”
When Carla heard the words that came out of daniel’s mouth, she felt like laughing. Not because she was crazy but she was sure that Daniel was just fooling around. However, Carla realized that Daniel was looking away and she understood from that moment on that no one would joke about this. Carla was laughing still. Daniel looked at Carla because he was worried about her laughing away. Didn’t she understand that it was not a joke? Daniel grab Carla’s shoulder not unkindly and shook her to reality. Carla stopped laughing. She stared into the face she loved so much and tears were welling up so fast that it dropped in an instant. Daniel hugged Carla.
“Daniel, I am going to die.”
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Haikal was sitting at his office looking at the documents in front of him. He was feeling tired after all the patient he had seen for that day. He believed in miracle and he knows that if medicine and science, there’s always god to turn to; he tells that to all of his patients. He was an oncologist. He loved his job because this job creates relationship for him easily and have more than just one family. Although sometimes it killed him to see his some of his patients pass away, he always tell himself that this was part of life and it will always have an ending. Haikal was looking at his watch, it was way past his working hours but he still felt the need to go through the files in front of him because he was a doctor who could be there for someone who is in real need. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door.
“Come in.” Haikal said. He was a little confuse as he was not expecting anyone to be visiting him especially after his working hours. When the person came in, he was shocked to see Daniel.
“Daniel, please take a seat,” he said as Daniel sat down, “what can I do for you?”
Daniel did not answer him and instead kept silent. Haikal was feeling a little uncomfortable since he was the cause of a couple fighting. He did not know what has gotten into him. Carla looked very young and she may even be less than eighteen but she was so attractive to him and he could not let the opportunity of getting to know her pass. He went with his gut feeling although this time, his gut feeling landed him into trouble.
“I just want to know if there is a chance of her recovering?” Daniel asked. Haikal felt himself in a daze. He had not the slightest clue what Daniel was talking about. He knew that Carla had acute hyperventilation but she should be alright by then. Haikal looked at Daniel with confusion written all over his face.
“Daniel, your girlfriend should be alright. Stop wor....” Haikal stopped mid sentence as he flipped through the new case and realized that Carla was never going to be alright. He could not believe what he seeing. Carla had cancer and it was at the last stage even with chemotherapy, it would not make any difference. Haikal was getting restless and Daniel notice his reaction.
“What is the matter? Haikal, what is wrong with Carla?” Daniel asked as he was getting worried with the look on Haikal’s face.
“Daniel, Carla is on the last stage of cancer. She has 3 more months. That’s with chemo. I am really sorry.”
Daniel felt his heart dropped to the ground. It must have dropped because he could not hear it beating. He was dead. He was sure of it. Daniel felt tears welling up his eyes and he could no longer held them back. Carla had cancer. Carla had three months. Carla is leaving. Daniel broke down. He could not care less about Haikal’s presence there. Daniel could not understand what was happening and he was blabbering nonsense.
“Couldn’t you do anything, Haikal? Carla can’t die. She can’t. She’s only seventeen. There must have been a mistake. Please check. Please Haikal. Please tell me you’re lying.”
“Daniel, there’s really nothing you can do. Nothing I can do. It’s up to god now.”
Daniel wanted to open the door and walk away because he felt that haikal was talking nonsense. God? If there was a god, Carla would not have cancer. Or three months to live. When Daniel turned around, he could not believe that he was looking at the pretty face he love so much. The pretty face was wet with tears and shock. Carla just found out she had no more time.









sorry it took so long for me to update it. I was looking for inspriration people. I am very sad today. Saw and old lady selling tissue and no one was buying. My heart dropped to my stomach. I was feeling sick and sad for her. Stop by to buy her tissue and she smiled. She looked like my grandmother and I felt so bad. Why was she on the streets? She should be resting and enjoying life. Watching Hikmah just like my grandma. But there she was selling tissue. I took out $2 and paid her and didn't ask for change. I wanted to give more. But I do not have enough. I walked away with Raz and Azizah. I could not help myself and tell the gals how I felt about this. Then tears brim my eyes and I cried. I could not control the tears. She was so alone. And her smile. Omg, her smile. I cannot forget it. It was a sincere thank you when I gave her that $2. I am crying now. Omg, what is happening? Where's her children? I wish I could do more. I feel so sad now. PLEASE IF YOU SEE HER IN THE NEAR FUTURE SELLING TISSUE. PLEASE BUY IT FROM HER. Please. I am begging.

Have you felt like someone made a mistake and you understand but you just can't forgive? You don't know how to say it. You want some time. Because you don't understand how you come to terms with it and why when you felt so hurt by it. I don't want to stay mad at you. But I am hurt by it. I understand. But I don't get why I am reacting so coldly. Maybe I am still mad. Sorry, I am just worried. I have to go to the doc to ask for that stupid letter. Hope I get it. It's a ticket to get out of being debarred. I am just confuse.

OMG....Check this out. This Japanese clip. Super duper hilarious. Helps us appreaciate and understand why laughing at people is WRONG!

So...it's been awhile since I last updated this blog. So for those who said my blog is gone because I have been Vlogging...well no. It's still here and it will, forever, be deeper than my vlogs because I tend to tell REAL stuff in here. I just let it all out. So how have I been? Not soo good. I realize I am getting sicker and might just die soon. So anyone wanna wish me anything, now would be the time. To all my friends out there... I have already uploaded the YOUTUBE videos we made... So if you guys wanna here's the link...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i15sXfK1t3M


So...I haven't been in school again and I hope I don't get debarred because I do have MC this time and if I do get DEBARRED, I am soooo bringing this to the MINISTRY. I hate it. Anyways, I am feeling bad emotionally and that's not something new. Just got back my Lit test paper back and I am doing bad. Haiz. I really need help and I am not getting any. Really am going bonkers.

I wish everyday was the day when we make good choices and it turn out well. I really might just die.

Hey there everyone! Are you guys surprise? Yeah, that's right. I am back with typing my daily doses of craziness in this blog. Well, life has been a real roller coster right. I hate it that I feel happy with it sometimes because then I cannot say that life sucks when it turns bad sometimes. I have a new video vlog where I tell you about the daily doses of craziness in LIVE version. This is to mean that I actually do talk to you through a camera and you can see me. Hahahah, am I insulting your intellengence? I am sorry, I didn't mean to. ( I am actually doing a video now. But if you have any ideas to my show, Don't hesistate and tell me.)

So anyways, I bought a web camera to actually do a vlog and never to webcam anyone. Well, I was so mistaken because in the end I did use it to webcam someone. The first thing is I was so curious as how a webcam would benefit anyone and the second part is that I was wondering if the person was as real as his picture said. You know the saying; pictures says a thousands words, a video says a infinity words. Oh, you haven't heard of the second one? Well, that's probably my made up crap but you do get what I mean, right? So I asked this dude, whom I think I gotta know from myspace, if he waqnted to webcam and he answered with a yes. So we webcam. I kinda regret it later. No because he was a freak or a perv or anything bad. Nope, it was exactly the opposite. He was really good looking that I almost fell off my chair. So, as the girl that I am, I just could not hide the fact that I was nervous and was tongue tied. He said hi and I realised that he had an accent, so I asked him where he was from. He was from IRELAND, girls. I was like whoa! That's awesome! Then guess what happened next? Total silence. I am serious. I could not believe it either because I am such a talkative person and silence was never ever a guest when I talk to people. So he asked me was I nervous and being the honest person that I am *coughcough* I told him yeah. He said I don't have to be. So then I tried to relax; only it didn't happen, and we talk a little bit. He was 20 years old (my age!!!) and he was in college. Just like MOI! It was interesting but I would definitely recommend face to face. Basically because it would be better to see although it is not as safe as webcaming because if you feel like the person you're looking at is a loser you can just walk away by clicking the close button and not create stories that your grandmother died or as your friend to call you to pretend your mom asking you to come back home!!! Unbelievable as it was, we chatted for about 2 hours. He was very interesting. He played the guitar for me and I sang!!! Hahahah! It was like a concert but with camera and no audience. Then he had to go for class, and at one point I thought what class was held at 10 pm? I kinda let this thought out of my mouth (idiot!) and he laughed saying that it was only 4pm there. I think I blushed or something because I felt myself burning up and thank god the resolution of the camera was bad so he didn't notice it. We said our goodbyes and then I thought that was it. BUT he asked me if we could webcam again.....hahahahhahahahahaha...I will leave you guys with you imagination on what I replied.

So, I have been listening to paramore and I might do a cover and post it on youtube. Please do not comment that I don't sound anything like Hayley because I know I can't. Just leave your thoughts that doesn't involve comparing. So that's about it.

If you guys are wondering, I might not do this typing thing too often and I might go back to recording my thoughts because it is so much easier and I can do it offline. Ok got to go, finish my video and don't forget to view it people. Here's the link:

www.youtube.com/user/shilllurvsharry

Guys check it out!!!!!! Its myblog for the day!!!!! PRESS PLAY Y'ALL!!!

Yo peeps, chech what i found in youtube...damn hilarious.....watch it to lift the stress of school!!!

Hey peepS!!! I am just in here to show the sneak peek of harry potter and the half blood prince! i love it......i can't wait for it to come out to the theater...I am so booking the gold class for this....and the next movie!!!! i love it!!!! oh god....i wish i live to watch it...it's gonna show on the 21st of november 2008....I CAN'T WAIT!

I HATE THIS! WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME AND WHY IS IT ONLY ME? I MEAN FATE, YOU HAVE BEEN AGAINTS ME SINCE THE DAY I COULD HAVE FRIENDS. FIRST YOU GIVE ME FRIENDS THAT CAN NEVER BE CALL ONE. AND NOW AFTER ALL THE HARD WORK I PUT IN JUST TO STAY IN THE SAME CLASS WITH M BESTEST BESTEST FRIEND EVER, YOU TAKE IT AWAY AGAIN. WHY? I KNOW YOU CAN NEVER ANSWER ME CAUSE I GUESS YOU THINK I AM NOT WORTH IT. BUT PLEASE PLEASE JUST PUT THE THINGS BACK THE WAY THEY ARE. THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON, SOME WOULD SAY....BUT WHAT'S THIS REASON? WHY AM I PAYING FOR OTHER PEOPLE'S MISTAKE? THOSE PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T MAKE IT...SHOULDN'T THEY BE THE ONE? NOT ME? AD WHY IS IT ONLY ME WHO IS SOOOOOOOO ANGRY ABOUT THIS? I CANNOT STAND THIS. I WILL NEVER EVER EVER GET OVER THIS. EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!11

OK you guys....u noe lately I have been crazy for Joe Jonas....Now I take that back!!!!!!! I ma back to the harry potter world...but not daniel....no no no.....I do not in any way thinks he's hot!!!! Not ever. Kinda disgusting if U take a look at his LEG HAIR! it's total disgusting. I am sooooooo INTO RUPERT GRINT!!!! he's sooooo hot! so handsome!!!! wanna marry him!!!!! RUPERT GRINT IS MY HUSBAND NOW!

Hey peeps!!!! Look at that! It's the Jonas Brothers!!! I love them....hehehhe ok no....more like I am in love with JOE JONAS...he is the one that is acting as a ghost!!! He is soooooo hot! I love him...He's the perfect man...HE'S HANDSOME, TALENTED AND FUNNY! I wanna be with him...and guess what he's a Christian devotee...this means he's understand that sex is a sacred thing...soooooo perfect! I LOVE HIM!

Chapter 11
Carla left Haikal standing stunned as she chase after Daniel who was walking in a fast speed. Her heels were slipping out but still Carla continued running. She cursed herself for letting someone else touch her. What was wrong with her? How could she be so easy? Carla could feel tears streaming down her cheeks and her mascara was ruin but she did not care. She had to explain herself to Daniel. But what was there to explain? Everything was as clear as water. Carla kissed Haikal; a person she just met. Finally, Daniel was getting close. Carla ran as if her life depended on it and grabbed Daniel’s arm. Daniel jerked it away; he did not even want to look at Carla when she finally chased him. Daniel’s cheek was wet too.
“It’s over.” Daniel said. Carla could not believe her ears. Her heart seemed to have stopped pumping because she seemed to be running out of oxygen. Suddenly, her hand felt numb and they were curling into a fist unwillingly. Her legs started to shake and Carla fell on her knees. She could not breath. Her body was jerking. Daniel was shocked and shook Carla who was jerking out of control. Daniel bend down on his knees as Carla jerked more. She seemed to be having a seizure. Daniel shouted for help but no one was there. Suddenly a guy came running in. It was the guy that kissed Carla just now. Daniel could feel his whole body tensed up but he must control is anger for Carla sake. The guy came running and went down on his knees.
“What happened?” the guy asked.
“I don’t know. Carla can you hear me? Carla, what’s wrong?” Daniel was in panic mode. Carla seemed to become purple. She could not breath and her body was still jerking. The guy ran towards the club. Daniel did not know what to do. He felt himself being so helpless and useless. Suddenly, the guy came back with a paper bag in his hands. He opened it and put it over Carla’s mouth.
“Carla can you hear me? I need you to breath in the bag ok? Now come on, slowly,” Daniel looked from the guy to Carla, she seemed to be struggling just to breath but as she tried, her body had stop jerking but her hands was still in a tight fist, “Daniel, I need you to help un-fist her.”
Daniel pry opened Carla’s hand slowly. She seemed to be regaining some control of her body. When, finally, both hands are opened, Daniel looked at Carla. She has gotten her breathing into pace although she still looked a little flushed. Out of the blue, Carla body went limb and she fainted. Daniel panic mode came in like an overdrive. She shook Carla so hard as if she was sleeping. Daniel felt a hand on his shoulder.
“Stop. She just fainted. We need to send her to the hospital, do you drive?” Haikal asked.
“What is wrong with her? How come she fainted?” Daniel said as he calm down.
“She just hyper ventilate although I must say that I have never seen such a serious case. She must be really scared or anxious. Her body reacted that way because she was having too much carbon dioxide in her body. Come on, let’s go. We have to bring her to the hospital quick. We’ll freeze to death if we don’t get out of here soon. Can you carry her?” The guy said as he stood up. Daniel carried Carla and stood up.
“Who are you?”
“My name is Haikal. I am a doctor working in the hospital nearby. Quick, we need to get her there.” Haikal said as he quickened his pace to get to his car. Daniel was having a hard time trying to move faster with Carla in his arms. However, Daniel quickened his pace to get Carla to the hospital. Finally Daniel reached his car. He tried to find a way of getting his keys but with Carla in his arms he was finding it impossible.
“Do you want a ride?” Haikal shouted from the other part of the car park. Daniel wanted to say no; this was the man that Carla kissed. But he still carried Carla and move towards Haikal’s car. Haikal opened his back passenger door and Daniel put Carla on the seat. Daniel went in beside her and shut the door. Haikal stick the key in the ignition and started the engine. Daniel looked at Carla and felt a twinge of guilt in his heart; if he had only been rationale and not give in to his anger. He was pretty sure Carla was about to explain herself and why she had give into temptation. Daniel felt like slapping himself, if only he had not been a jerk, none of the things that happened that night would happened.
Finally, after a ten minutes drive and silence, they reached the hospital. Haikal seem to already inform the hospital cause the nurses was out with the stretchers. They opened the door and pick Carla up to put her on the stretcher bed. Daniel went out after that but by that time, the nurses were already pushing Carla into the hospital. Suddenly, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Daniel looked over and saw Haikal smiling.
“She’s going to be alright. Don’t worry.” Haikal said.
“Thanks.”
“No problem. It is the least I could do to make it up for all the trouble I caused. By the way, whatever you saw between Carla and me, it was I who initiated the kiss. Not her.” With that Haikal walked into the hospital leaving a stunned Daniel behind.
Carla could feel her head pounding against her skull. She tried to message it but her hand felt heavy as if it was tied down. Suddenly she felt a smooth hand on her cheek. Carla slowly opened her eyes to find Daniel smiling down at her. She felt her spirit being lifted.
“Hey, babe.” Daniel said as he sat down beside her on the bed.
“Hey, what happened?” Carla asked as she tried to move her hands. They seemed to be not hers because she was still unable to move them. Daniel touched her hands and, like miracle, Carla could feel his tender touch on her skin. She stopped worrying about her hands and looked up at Daniel. Memories came rushing through Carla’s head like a train. She remembered clearly what happened. Tears welled up her eyes as she search the words for forgiveness but now she seem to be unable to find her voice.
“Babe, don’t cry. It’s ok, I know what happened that night. I don’t blame you. The fault lies in me and you. We put it in the past and move on. I love you, Carla. So much. I don’t want to lose you again.” Daniel said as he caressed Carla’s face with a finger. He leaned in closer and, finally, his lips touches hers. Carla felt as if Daniel energy was given to her through the kiss. Her body felt alive and she kissed him back with all her heart. She felt as if the truly understood each other and she understands that even love has it’s flaws but sometimes one just have to live with the flaws to experience it’s wonders. Just like she was experiencing it now.

wow....i am an angel!

What's Your Goddess Identity?

My Result: Angel

Just like the haloed and winged guardians of good, you truly have a heart of gold, sweet Angel. Whenever there's a chance to pitch in, save the day or just make life easier for the people around you, you're the one for the job.

You don't just jump in without planning — you use your angelic head to figure out how to do things right the first time, like only the most dependable goddesses can. Whether brainstorming a new solution to a problem, planning a surprise party for your parents, or lending your friends a wing to cry on, you've got the right instincts, so follow them whenever you can. As natural as it is for you to take care of the people around you, don't forget to treat yourself right, too. The best friendships, and loves, of a lifetime tend to blossom when you become your own guardian angel.

So don't listen to those who say nice girls finish last. People have always seen you as a goddess of thoughtfulness and good intentions, and it hasn't slowed you down a bit. All in all, Angel, you've got it made with your glowing attitude and ability to see from on high. So get out there and change the world!

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Whoa.....SETH..the guy of my freaking dreams...

Who's Your OC Crush?

My Result: Seth

Dorky? Maybe. Loveable? Totally! What's not to love about this cutie? A smarty like you looks beneath the surface, and that's why only a brainy hottie like Seth will do as your OC crush.


Sensible and responsible, you've got a good head on your shoulders, and you use it. Maybe you've been called wise for your years. Many famous folks were ahead of their times in high school, and you'll probably be one of them. So keep doing things in your own unique style. You're well on your way to great things. And it might be even better if you have an equally-awesome crush to have fun with along the way!

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TO MY FRIENDS...READ THIS...IT'S LIKE SO TRUE THAT IT IS FREAKING ME OUT!

What's Your Trademark Tune?

My Result: Britney Spears' "(You Drive Me) Crazy"

Flirty and fun, you get a kick out of catching someone's eye (like you know who) and being in the center of it all. Good thing you've got the looks, personality, and sense of humor to pull it all off. You go crazy for the opposite sex, and it's just as easy for people to fall in love with you and your fun-loving attitude.


A great asset to any gathering, you've got the confidence to strike up conversations with strangers and make anyone feel welcome. That rocks!

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You know....I want people to know that I am confused myself. I don't know who I am yet. So here's how I describe myself:
I am beyond beauty. I am the beholder of pain. I am selfish. I am kind. I am different and i am the same. i am shy and quiet and i am loud. I want to sky high and i want to go to the deepest ocean. I love being me and i hate myself. I loved, lost, bruised, burnt and died and i am still breathing. CONFUSED? well, so am i...

See...I don't even get what I am talking about.

So...I bet you want to know what happened...but I will put it under classified, people. I am really sorry... Anyway, it's best for no one to know. Only I confided in Isabella....and Raz. I dunno why I chose these two people so much. Maybe their friendship is one that I have not experience before. Thanks babe. Anyway I want to talk about the heartbreakers. You have to give some credit to these people. Not all of them. The one who has reason to break your heart. The ones who did because they have to be cruel to be kind. Those people out there should be blessed and thanked for. They made the people they love get a better life. That's good. Not all heartbreakers are bad. It's better they break your heart now then you climb that dumb ladder of hope, right? I hope I get this message across.

P.S....
I have never been a heartbreaker yet. I am just talking generally.

Well...today's mood is pretty weird. I really don't know what to feel. The post-confession day is not going on sooo well. The guy I confessed to..he's a friend. I don't regret what I did. I hope it doesn't touch our friendship though...it will not be good. He's a great friend...not willing to lose him. But I had to do what's right for me....and I did it. I confessed. Directly. On the phone. Bad. I know. He was speechless. Asked me to give him to figure it out. I gave in. Haven't talk to him yet. Respecting his decision. Wondering.........

Anyway, I am confuse myself. I don't what to do. Feeling incomplete. Do I have the strength enough for all this? I hope. If not. Someone please rescue me. Now.

What's up people.....so far chapter ten is receiving goooooooooooooood feedback! Well that's good lah...considering that I tooooook sooooooo Looooooooooonnnnnngggg to write it...thanks to Christine ...she put a little spice in my thinking! Thanks babe.....Do not worry, your name will be in the book. PROMISE. I guess you guys are waiting for chapter 11...I worte it halfway...you guys are in for a BIG surprise! I like what I wrote so far...it's kinda bring a little flava to the story line.
So anyway, I have a HUGE story to tell today. Yesterday, we prank our BIRTHDAY BOY, NAZIRUL!!!!!! hahahaha...it was the first prank the was sooo successful!!! I should have really record it. Naz reaction was the cherry on top of the ice cream! PERFECTO! So here's how the story goes....Firstly, we wanted to so-called meet him...so we told him if he could hang out and so he said yes...I think so far....anyway back to the story....so at first i met raz and haf....we bought a DOME CHOCOLATE CAKE, it was the best cake we seen so far...it should have been my BIRTHDAY CAKE!!! But, sadly, it was NAZ.....hahahah then the three of us decided to call naz...Haf, being the great actress, called him.
So at first, she pretended to act panic when naz pick up the phone....then he told her to calm down...so she pretended to calm down and told him to come down Raz house...because "something" happened....and so he said he will come soon.....we waited for like 3 hours lah...hahahha ok lah that would be lying but i think we waited for quite sometimes....before he came we planned calmly how to surprise him but when he finally came, hahahah we went chaotic like hell! It was really a huge mess lah...but he knocked first...good etiquette NAZ..so haf was about to open the door when I grabbed her hand to just shout "come in"....and when he came in he told us he was terrified because the room was chilly..the aircon was on to add to the 'depressing' atmosphere....when we finally shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I think NAZ knees gave way and he just drop to the floor...at first we thought he was pissed....but nah...he was just really surprised! I LOVE IT! should try next year again.....this time i wonder who's going to get it....hahahahaha(evil laughter)
TO NAZ>>>>>>DO NOT FORGET YOU O US!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA

Carla spent the whole day alone and in peace. She relaxed her muscles by lying down on her hotel bed. She had looked at her result slip again and again making sure that she was not being deceived. Carla smiled at the thought of being able to take her GCE A examination and complete it and go to college. Carla kept on smiling until her door bell rang. Carla got up off her bed to open the door.
“Hey, Carla, I have good news for you.” Jenny said as she went it. Carla looked at her sitting down on the bed.
“What?” Carla asked.
“Well, I have got projects lining up for you. You can pick one for the summer holidays then you can go back to acting Behind The Scene 2. You can read the script and choose, ok?”
Carla picked up the scripts on her bed which was laid by Jenny. There were five scripts altogether. She seems to be in demand right after the movie she made. Jenny went rushing out of the room without even telling Carla. Carla picked up one the scripts and started reading it. The first script was not interesting. The second one was a disaster; it was so clichéd. The third was the jackpot. Carla loved the story line. It was an action movie, this could be the movie to prove how versatile she was as an actress. Carla pushed the other scripts on the floor and examined the script she chose. It was an interesting script and Carla thought it was amazing that she was chosen for the lead character. Carla read and read and she kept on reading until someone came knocking on the door. This brought Carla back to reality. She went to the door to open it, it was Daniel. With flowers.
“Daniel!” Carla exclaimed as she threw herself on him. She never realised how much she missed him until he was right in front of her.
“Congratulations. I heard from Jenny, you did well. Can I see it?” Daniel asked when they both pulled away. Carla nodded and pulled Daniel in the room. She searched for her certificate and found it under her pillow. She was about to hand it to Daniel but Daniel was looking at the script on the floor.
“Daniel? Here it is - my results.” Carla handed the little piece of paper to Daniel. He took it and read it. His facial expression was impassive. Carla could not make out if he was impressed or disappointed.
“Wow, this is really good. I am really proud of you.” Daniel said and without any warning, Daniel kissed her. Carla felt herself, once again, flying. Shooting through the air although she was standing still on the solid ground. Finally, the both of them pulled away. Daniel sat down on the bed while Carla sat on his lap, sideways. Daniel picked up the script that was on her bed. He looked at it for a while. Carla was at a loss; she didn’t know how to tell him that it was a script she had chosen or not because at that point Daniel looked kind of shocked. Carla tapped his shoulder to get his attention again. This time he seemed to be angry.
“Who offered you this?” Daniel asked, the softness of his voice was gone.
“I don’t know. Jenny brought it to me. There are others but I think this is the best script so far. It’s a action movie.” Carla said excitedly. Suddenly, Daniel eased her off his lap. Carla was stunned by the movement.
“Daniel, are you ok?”
“What do you think?” Daniel said as he paced around the room with the script in his hands. He was reading it with a tinge of violence; if by the flipping of the pages is any indication. Carla felt scared, she had never seen this side of Daniel before.
“There’s a romance scene in this movie.”
“So?”
“What do you mean by ‘so’? There’s a romance scene in this movie. I don’t want you to take it. Take some other script.” Daniel demanded. Carla was taken aback, where did this Daniel came from? He was being so very idiotic right then. Who was he to stop her from taking the script that she wanted. Carla stood up from the bed and folded her arms.
“I am sorry that you don’t like it. But that’s not my problem, it’s yours. Why are you being so selfish? This is the time that I can finally shine with a different role and all you can think about that there is romance scene. I bet you’ve already been-
“No! I have not. Nobody came to offer me anything. You stole my career away. Everyone is talking about you, you and you!” Daniel interrupted, shouting at Carla for the very first time. Carla felt her heartbeat stop. Then she could feel tears shooting down from her eyes right down her cheeks. She could not believe her ears, did Daniel just say she was the cause of his popularity degrading? Carla wanted to leave Daniel at that point of time and almost was walking out of the door when she realized that it was her room. Instead of walking out, Carla held on to the opened door.
“Get out, Dan. I can’t do this. Just go.” Daniel left without even looking back.

Carla was sitting down in the club. Music blasting all around and people dancing like having sex vertically. However it did not made Carla want to dance at all. She had a bad day today and so far it was not getting any better. Daniel did not apologize and she was waiting for it to no avail. Carla still could not believe that Daniel was such an idiot. The atmosphere in the club was doing nothing to Carla’s mood except that she noticed there was a cute guy looking at her, checking her out, since she entered the club. He was tall, toned and handsome. Not to mention a cute butt. But she was putting on her guard for Daniel although the tall, toned and handsome dude was really getting her attention. Suddenly he made his move to come to her. Carla breath was caught in her through. Carla kept her eyes on the new shoes that she just bought, her heart thumping like mad.
“Hey, can I buy you a drink?” said tall, toned and handsome guy.
“Oh, I already have one. What’s your name?” Carla asked as she slid sideways to make space for him to sit down.
“My name is Haikal. You’re the actress, right? I saw your movie, it’s really awesome. I bet it’s nominated for an award soon.” Carla could not help but blush at his comments. If he looked hot far away, he was looking hotter not. Carla did not want to flirt back but she really couldn’t help it.
“So, you’re not intimidated?”
“No, cause if I was, I can’t ask you to dance.” Haikal took her hand and led her to the dance floor. They dance like there was no tomorrow. Finally, Daniel was out of her mind and Carla felt great for the moment. She felt free. Haikal was a great dancer too. He was a gentleman and did not invade her privacy. When both of them were out of breath, they finally took a breather outside the club.
“That was fun.” Haikal said as he let go of Carla’s hand.
“Yup it was. I really had fun.”
“Me too.” Haikal leaned in closer, Carla could feel his breath on her face. She did not want to kiss him because Daniel’s face keeps popping up but she really wanted to feel his lips against her; what he tastes like. His lips touched hers and there was just that. Carla did not felt anything. No fireworks. Nothing at all. Carla pulled away, she stood there shocked and terrified.
“What’s wrong?” Haikal asked when he saw her face expression. Carla’s brain was racing as if it was in a marathon. Everything was wrong. Daniel was just standing behind Haikal.

Ok....so I guess I should apologise for not updating for so long. Keeping you guys from chapter 10.....SO SO SO sorry. I still have yet to come out with a plot...don't worry, I am not giving up. The story will come out for your viewing pleasure. Anyways, I have read this really great book...hahahaha don't act surprise, y'all. I do read other books and not only Harry Potter.....This book is called CHLOE DOE, it's a novel by Suzanne Phillips. It's a really good book. You get to see the lives on the streets. How it is really like. Why they do it and how lonely one can get on the streets. It's quite touching as you venture into the life of Chloe. She's such a strong character that would make an impact in your life. She's strong and she never shed a tear...well at least on the part that I have so far read.....She's quite amazing.

Well, anyway, Chapter 10 will be up soon...JUST HANG IN THERE PEEPS.

TO CHRISTINE> I HAVE UPDATED, NOW YOURS.

Mood: Exremely sad......

It's funny people keep coming to me for advice when I am in a wreck myself. I amazed myself when I hear myself givng these advice to other people, I feel like everytime I do that, I have an outer body exprience. It's like I am seeing this girl who is mature and wise talking and it's not me. I hear the advice I give and yet I, myself, could never apply it in real life. Like for example, love the way I am....I do....But in the end I get bruised. I don't feel appreaciated. Nobody seem to even care that I cried just not. My sis was so rude to me....and amazingly I did not retort. I just told her that she spoilt my mood...and she didn't even apologized. She just went out of the room...I could not hold back the tears of dissappointment. I guess, there will be more tomorrow after I get back my papers. I feel so bumped....so hurt...so underappreaciated...so lonely...so lost.... I wished somebody would just listen and understand and let me cry on their shoulders.....but here I am....Keeping to myself.. I hate my life right now.


I DON'T DESERVE THIS.

Will somebody hear me out?
I feel like screaming and crying
But my voice is not coming out
Please help me, I cannot find it.

Why am I alone again?
Why is it so hard for me?
Why am I the one feeling this pain?
I don't deserve this.

Alone seem to be my middle name.
It feels like I am in a never-ending game.
Everybody looks at me the same.
So useless and pointless.

Sometimes I feel I hate this girl.
The one I see in the mirror.
Yet, she's begging me to love her.
I cannot put her through more hurt.

I don't deserve this.
Would somebody understand, please?

Hmm....so I am still stuck with Chapter 10...but no worries I will find something to come out with. Yeah, so carla is in deep shit soon...Maybe I should put her in real mortal danger!!!!!! Life or death situation.....Then Daniel would be in deep shit tooo.....and then....well I guess that would be a great IDEA! It's not predictable at all......well now I am telling, it might be. LOL.

So what do we talked about today?
Well, I don't know....oh maybe friendship? Yeah I think today would be a great dayto talk about that. Isabella told me somthing really wise.
YOU CANNOT QUIT ON YOUR FRIENDS
Boy, isn't that true? I was about to do just that to one of my friend and I was soooo stubborn to just give on this particular friend. Because I believe I deserve a better friend. But I guess if I were to do that, I would be doing exactly the same thing what my old friends done to me. I don't want to be that person, so I guess I just have to be a friend.

People should know that when you meet a friend, you didn't sent in a resume. So you have no right to quit on that friends. NO RIGHT AT ALL. So you can never walk away from them. I would never do that. A person who does that is someone who is unimaginable and cruel. Can you imagine of someone doing that?

I DID NOT THINK SO.

Hmm....so what's up peeps....As you guys can see....chapter 10 is not out yet. This is because I am running out of ideas u guys...I need help....so please give me ideas?
I can't believe this....but if you help me... I swear i will put your name if my book get's published (as if!)hahaha
Anyway, I am damn piss lah right now. But I don't think I should vent my anger here. Ain't a smart move. Next thing I will know some policemen knocking on my door saying I have said something inappropriate...and I go to jail. And I will be gone from this world. So much for FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
So what's going on with me..Nothing much i guess....Promos is over and now it's like i already run the race an waiting for the result. Today an outing got cancel so i just stay at home and do nothing...hahaha. What have you guys been doing???? Wait.....WHAT? you r doing nothing toooooo????? wowow!!
OK i think i better not blog in today....i am full of B.S..
sadly i already am...
shit.

So here I am. What do I talk today. Ohh...I have one real good topic. Today's topic is about LOVE....ahhhhh don't worry...it's not the cliche love that everyone wants. It's the love that is so hard to understand. Heck, i do not understand it either. It's the love for ourselves. The one that we do not give enough to ourselves. This is sad.

Its so hard for one to get love. Even harder is the fact that we do not love ourselve enough to get love. How can one love someone else when you don't love yourself? You hurt your heart for love you think you deserve. You put the suppose "love" before yourself. Isn't that being selfish to your own self. Someone who actually deserve your love is yourself. Make your life, your life. Do not make her or him your life. You deserve to be selfish sometimes to love yourself. Nobody deserve to get hurt. So I guess this is what I am trying to say. LOVE YOURSELF.

When you don't understand.

There is this boy and this girl I knew.
They fall In love In front of me.
They said they love each other, so true.
And yet they don't understand
The reason why they are not together.

Falling in love was not enough.
They still could not be with each other.
They had other obligations, other 'reason'.
The girl dug a deeper hole to fall in.
The boy climbed higher on the ladder of hope,
Knowing he will fall one day.

So how can they be in love?
They don't even love themselves.
They're being selfish.
Going into 'hurt' with open arms.
When you don't understand.
This is what happened.
When you don't start loving you.
You're going to end up as lonely.
Forever.
Unhappy.
Too.

Wow. I am nineteen. Happy Birthday to me. It's supposed to be the happiest day of my life....but I don't feel happy. I am actually holding back the tears. Why am I feeling lonely? especially on this day? It's so hard...I cannot explain why every year, I get emotional on my birthday. I feel so lonely, I envy people who are so happy with what they have. They're so content. I have none. I have great friends but still....somebody please slap me. Maybe because in this house only my dad wished me Happy Birthday. Even my sister did not wait to wish me. She just slept. Ok, maybe I am finding fault in everything, I can't help it. Promos is in the next two days. I hope I make it to next year.



I miss you. I seriously do. I still think of you. It's been 2 years. No one has replace you yet.

Carla sniffed as she wiped her tears; she was watching her favourite movie, ‘A Walk To Remember.’ Carla felt that it was the best movie made all time. It was touching and sincere. The movie always made her cry; no matter how many times she watched it. When, finally, ‘Landen’ asked ‘Jamie’ to marry him; Carla cried some more. She wondered when that day was going to happen to her. She looked at her cell phone; it still was just showing her the wallpaper. She sigh; she had already text messaged Daniel saying that she was sorry. She guesses that it wasn’t enough as the evidence was that Daniel did not even reply her. Carla tried calling but it was ignored. In the end Carla just gave up and started to watch the movie that was already ending right then.
Suddenly, somebody knocked on her door. Carla, who was wiping her tears stood up to open the door. She was so shocked to see the person standing at the door that she froze, the tissue still on one of her eyes. Daniel stood there, slightly amused and slightly guilty look on his face.
“Daniel, I tried calling you but you did not answer. I text you but I guess you did not received it. There must be something wrong with the reception because you did not reply me.” Carla stopped to take her breath but before she could even continue, Daniel spoke.
“Are you going to let me in? Or am I suppose to stand outside all night?” Daniel asked, smiling at her. Carla moved aside from the door to let Daniel in. She closed the door once he was inside the room. Carla followed and sat beside him on the bed. Daniel touched her hand and holds it in his. Carla just looked at him, she couldn’t find any words to say to him.
“I am sorry.” Daniel said with a sigh.
“No, it’s ok.”
“No it’s not. I know it’s been hard on you and I should have known.” Daniel had let go of her hand, Carla looked for signs in his eyes but it was impassive. Was he going to break up with her? Was it even a break up if you only had one day of that relationship?
“Are you breaking up with me?” Carla let out her thoughts to Daniel. She could not handle being clueless any longer. If he wanted to end it, he should just say it and not beat around the bush. Carla did not think she can go through the ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ break up speech.
“Of course not, how can you think that? I love you, Carla.” Carla’s heart skipped a beat. Daniel just said the ‘L’ word. It seemed like in that year, she could not believe what had already happened. Daniel looked at her as if wanting her to say something but, as it always happen, Carla seemed to be out of words again. So Daniel took his chance to explain.
“Yes, I know it’s hard to believe but I love you, Carla. No paper, no rumour and no other girl can change the way I feel for you. I am not going to ask you to bare with all these nonsense that will be appearing as long as we are together but I just need you to trust in me. Have a little faith in me and yourself, babe.” Daniel said as he stroke Carla’s hair. She felt herself smile and glow. It was amazing to hear Daniel soothe her, calming her. Daniel took her face in his hand and pushed her gently to him and like magic, they kissed. Carla thought she heard fireworks working in her head. It was like as if her brain circuit was blown away every time Daniel lips touched hers. She could feel Daniels hands wrapping around her waist. She gripped on his shoulders for support when the kiss went to mind blowing over-drive. If she hadn’t hold on, she was pretty sure she would have fallen even though she was sitting. Finally, after ages or aeons or at the speed of lightning; Carla could never tell, they broke apart. Carla opened her eyes and look at Daniel’s face. He was beaming at her like a small child given a sweet.
“Why are you smiling at me like that?” Carla asked as she pushed away gently but Daniel did not let go.
“Do you know that you drive me wild every time we kissed? I mean, seriously.”
“Of course, I am a wild girl.” The both of them laughed. Daniel looked at the television, still holding on to Carla. Then Carla rested her head on his chest and let out a deep sigh.
“I am so glad we’re together.” Daniel hugged her even tighter.
When Carla woke up, she was so happy to see Daniel’s face facing her. He was still in deep sleep; he decided to sleep with her. When she says sleep, she really meant sleep. In the literal form. Carla just lie on her side of her bed and stared into Daniel’s sleeping face, taking every inch of his face with her eyes. The masculine jaw he had, the eyes that were big though they were tight shut at that moment, the lips that always send shockwave throughout her body whenever it was in contact with her lips. Carla smiled; how could she ever thought that it was a heavy price to pay to be his girlfriend? She felt herself so light at that moment. Carla got up from her bed to make some tea, she was feeling the need to rejuvenate. She took one last look at Daniel and walked to the kitchen that was in her suite room.
Carla sipped the tea while reading the newspaper. There was another news about Daniel and her but she did not let it get to her. Suddenly, she felt Daniel kissed her cheek. She looked up, Daniel was beaming at her.
“Nice sleep?” Carla asked as Daniel sat down and poured himself some tea.
“Yeah, it was great. I dream about my mother.”
“Hmm.... maybe you miss her?” Daniel shook his head at this suggestion. Carla could not understand why Daniel would change the topic every time they came too close on the topic of Daniel’s mother. But Carla only shrugged and continued to read the article about Daniel and her. Then, after a few minutes of silent, the door was knocked. Carla got up and opened the door; it was Jenny.
Jenny said hi to Daniel who merely waved back, then she dragged Carla away from Daniel to get a privacy chat.
“What is he doing here?” jenny asked, concern etched on her face.
“He slept here last night. Don’t get me wrong, we just really slept.” Carla explained. jenny sat down one the bed and looked at Carla seriously. Carla shifted her gaze; she felt as if she was being scanned for the truth. Even though Carla knew that she was telling the truth, it was still uncomfortable.
“Anyway, I am here to bring you news. You GCEs result are out. You will receive it in the later afternoon today. So you have to meet me at five o’clock.” Carla felt her heartbeat stopped. She could not breath. The result was out; now she would know if she could continue with college. She remembered when she was in the examination hall, taking the test. At that point, it all seemed quite easy, now thinking about it, she could have done a whole lot of mistake. She didn’t know, she didn’t had the time to check.
The day went by as if time was bewitched to move two times faster than usual. Carla just had another full day of interviews. She kept giving up wrong answers as she was not concentrating. She felt like that day was the worst day of her life and yesterday’s confusion was nothing compared to the confusion she was feeling at that very moment. Carla breath in slowly as she press the lift button. She waited for a whole of one minute, finally, the lift came. Carla pressed the level where jenny’s room was situated; level 5. When Carla reached at the front door of Jenny’s room, she was still contemplating on whether she should know it. Did she really wanted to know her result? But before she could answer that question, Jenny opened the door. The envelope at one hand.
“Come in, then I will give you this.” Jenny said as she shook the hand that held the letter of result. Carla could not talk, nevertheless, she went in. Carla sat on the edge as Jenny sat beside her and gave her the letter. Carla took it and stared at it as if it could be torn itself.
“Open it! Come on, carla. It can’t be that bad.” Jenny said, excited. Carla slowly tore of the envelope. When it was open enough to take out the letter, carla, once again, just stared at the content. Jenny gave her a litte nudge.
“So this is it, huh?” carla said in a whisper.
“Come on, just read it. Get over it.”
Carla took out her result slip and stared at it with all her brain power, drinking all of the words on the little piece of paper. Tears started to well up her eyes.
GCSEs RESULT SLIP
CARLA DIANNE GARNER HAS ACHIEVED
ENGLISH A*
MATHEMATICS A*
SCIENCE/ BIOLOGY B
FRENCH A
ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS A*
HISTORY A*
“Oh my god, carla. This is real good.” Jenny said after reading the result with carla. Carla wiped off the tears of joy that slipped down her cheeks. She could not believed that her dream had came true. She had enough to go take her GCE A. Carla was so overwhelmed with happiness that she gave Jenny a hug which was return. She felt really great; the day was turning out better that she had expected.

Yo what's up, people? I feel so good! hahaha! I think chapter 8 is great.I have finished it. I hope you guys like it....My editors ( U NOE WHO U ARE) tell me what you think, ok?
so here it is, you guys.

Chapter 8
Carla woke up with bliss; she had so much fun yesterday at the after-movie party. She remembered dancing with Sophia who was a great dancer. Sophia was so surprised with the news that Daniel and Carla was a couple that she went to asked Carla; demanding to know whether it was true.
“Yeah, It’s true.” Carla remembered saying. Sophia gave Carla a big sisterly hugged after Carla said that. It was as if in Carla’s happiness lies Sophia’s happiness as well. Carla smiled as she reminisces last night. She looked at the clock on her night table; it was eight o’clock. Carla got out of her bed to go to the bathroom. She had to attend a conference about the movie in two hours time; she had better be ready for it. Carla thanked the heaven silently in her heart for the casualness that is allowed for the conference; she still remembered the hassle she had gone through just for the movie premier yesterday. It was something she did not want to go through ever again.
Carla got out of the bathroom after an hour of soaking herself in the warm water. She felt rejuvenated and fresh however when she looked at her clock, she panic a little. She was going to be really late of she did not get dress soon. Carla quickly slipped on her khaki pants and her shirt. She did nothing to her hair except combed it, with a last bit of putting lip gloss, Carla went out of her suite, rushing.
Just as she was rushing to the lift, Carla’s mother got out of her room.
“Mom, I am so glad I get to see you!” Carla exclaimed as she hugged her mother. Mrs. Garner hugged her daughter back, tightly. Carla let go and looked up at the face that always give her calmness and harmony.
“Go, honey, before jenny screams downstairs and report a missing person case to the police.” Mrs. Garner said, jokingly. Carla slapped her forehead. She forgot about her promised she made to jenny last night. She had promised to meet her at the lobby by nine in the morning. It was already half past nine. Carla rushed down by stairs, luckily her room was situated on the third floor. When, finally, she reached the lobby, she found jenny sitting in one of the sofas in the lobby reading the newspaper.
“Oh my god, Jenny, I am so sorry. I really forgot about this meeting with you.” Carla apologised. She sat on the sofa in front of Jenny’s. Jenny was still reading the newspaper intently, was this a sign that Jenny was, finally angry, with Carla? Jenny had never once scolded Carla for her mistake. She was always an encouraging friend. Carla just sat there, breathing in the awkward air that surrounded Jenny and her. Finally, Jenny looked up.
“You should read this.” Jenny said as she passed the newspaper to Carla. Carla looked at the front page. She could not believe her eyes or the picture that was in the front page. It was the picture of Daniel and herself kissing with Emma Watson picture beside it. If the picture was bad enough, Carla was in for a rough surprise, the headline said; ‘HAS DANIEL LOST HIS MIND?’ Carla did not understand the heading. Lost his mind? What could that possibly mean, Carla thought to herself. After reading the sub headline, comprehension started to dawn her. She held back her tears as she read more, drinking poison about her written in the news paper.
HAS DANIEL LOST HIS MIND?
Daniel Choose an ugly duckling to a swan?
Yesterday was a big day for the cast of ‘Behind The Scene’ , the premier of the movie was a major success. With the line up of fans in front of the theatre even before the movie aired would be more than evidence. ‘Behind The Scene’ is a story worthy to watch by anyone from the young age to anyone who has wrinkles coming out of control. It shows the mature side of Daniel Radcliffe and, yes, he can act other role just as well as he act harry potter. It was also a big day for new comer, Carla Garner, her performance wowed the audience like never before. You can see that she is passionate for acting and that could be the reason why Daniel Radcliffe chose her to be his girlfriend.
That’s true, people. He declared yesterday that Carla garner is his girlfriend. But why did he chose somebody who is nothing compared to Emma Watson? Who is just as passionate about acting and who is much more beautiful.
Carla could not read any longer. She felt her eyes stinging but still she held back the tears that were threatening to come out and pour down her cheeks. She looked at Jenny who was looking at her with a look of disgust and sympathy. Carla wanted to laugh at her expression; how could anyone have both of the expression on their faces at once. Jenny took the paper away from Carla’s hands.
“Well, I think that is all bull. I cannot believe that London times even let that crap get published.”
“It’s true, isn’t it? Emma is prettier than me. I should have known, Jenny. It is the price I have to pay being Daniel’s girl. Now the conference is going to be about why Daniel chose me. I feel sick...” Carla said as she touched her forehead, “am I having a fever?”
“Carla, don’t be ridiculous. You’re going to the conference and you’re not backing out. Don’t be so paranoid; trust in yourself, Daniel likes you. He chose you. He didn’t even chose, Emma was not his girlfriend and she won’t be. You can’t let the rumours get to you; you’ve got to be strong.”
If that was supposed to make Carla feel better, it did not once she was in the conference room. Not only was she bombarded with questions that were so irrelevant to the movie but she was getting paranoid at everything including Daniel. Every time she tried to get Daniel’s eye, he seemed to be avoiding her gaze. Was it true that Daniel has second thoughts? Or was it just her that realized Daniel did not look at her the whole time they were there. Carla was so deep in her thoughts that she did not hear the question that was for her until Mr. Dean nudged her.
“Oh, I am so sorry. What’s your question again?” She asked the reporter who was standing with a pen and notepad in her hands.
“How it feels being able to act in such a major production and being chosen from all the other girls that auditioned?”
“I have to say it feels really amazing. When I came to the open casting in London, there were so many other girls who were dying to get the role. When I found out that I was selected, I was thrilled and surprised at the same time. Now that I have acted in this movie, I can’t wait for the second movie to be film.” Carla finished. Finally, Daniel looked at her and wink. Carla smiled. All hope was not lost, then.
After the conference, the actors were lead out of the room to another room where they were supposed to give a one to one interview. Carla was feeling a little squeamish, she did not want to go through the whole Emma vs. Carla questions; she had enough for the day. She decided to skip the whole one to one interview and was about to walk out of the room when suddenly Daniel took her hands whilst she was walking.
“Where are you going?” he asked.
“I can’t stand this, Daniel. All the question about Emma and you. Questions that is irrelevant to the movie, about being your girlfriend. How can you stand that? People asking you why you pick me? The girl who is nothing compared to the great Emma Watson. Not that she’s not nice but still, you know.” Carla said. She hated that she sounded so pitiful but she could not help but feel a little depressed.
“Babe, you can’t let this get to you...”
“Easy for you to say; you’re not in my shoes, Dan. I am like the girl who stole you from Emma Watson by putting some voodoo magic.” Carla said feeling angry. Daniel just did not understand the things she had to go through for just being his girlfriend but before Daniel could retort, Carla’s name was called for the one to one interview. Carla walked away from Daniel, leaving him with his retort stuck inside his brain.
When Carla went in the room, she saw an Asian woman coming up to her to shake her hands. Carla shook her hands but could not put up a smile; she felt frustrated by how everyone was asking her to be strong. Carla sat at the opposite seat, facing the interviewee. The Woman in front of her beamed and looked at her clipboard. Then looked at Carla again.
“Hi, my name is Fiona Xie. I am from Singapore and I would be reporting the interview today with you for the magazine 8 days. So, congratulations on the success of the movie. How do you feel being able to be a part of it?”
“It’s feels really good. I never imagine that it was going to be huge. I mean, some of my friends did tell me the movie was talked about everywhere but I never thought that it was going to be this huge. I cannot put in words of how I feel to be a part of this but one think I am sure is that, I guess, I am lucky to have this experience. Really lucky.”
“Ok. Were you intimidated at all when you knew that Daniel Radcliffe was going to act as your love interest?”
“Of course,” both the reporter and Carla laughed, “it was really a surprised. When I went for the open casting, I really had no idea I am going to act alongside with him. It was not until I saw him in the producer’s office. I almost fainted there and then. It was really a shock.”
The interview went on and on. Carla felt, amazingly, light headed all through that day. Fiona, the reporter, was kind and she only interviewed about the movie. They laughed at some ridiculous moments Carla experienced while filming the movie and talk seriously about the career Carla could see herself in. Finally, the interview came to an end and it was a whole fifteen minutes. Fiona said thanks and shook Carla’s hands as Carla went of the room.
The place was empty except for Jenny who was sitting in the corner, reading a magazine. Carla went to her and tapped her shoulder. Jenny looked up from the magazine.
“So how was it?” Jenny asked as she pick up her bag and walked out of the room with carla tagging along.
“It was fine. The reporter was nice. Nothing about Daniel and me, at least. I think this whole relationship with him is not going on well. I just vent my frustration on him before i went in that interview.” Carla said glumly. She recalled the look on daniel’s face when he could not say what he was thinking. Would Daniel forgive her for that hurtful words she just spat at him? Carla exhaled loudly as they reached the lift.
“Don’t be too harsh on yourself. What relationship has no problems in it? It’s just a little misunderstanding. I am sure the both of you could work it out.” Jenny said. The lift door opened and the both of them went in. Carla was silently praying with all her might that Jenny was right.

Oh god....runnning out of ideas!!! Well here's chapter 7. It's a little short but bare with me, aight? Chapter eight will be alot of better.

Chapter 7
Carla could see flashes of light from cameras outside of the movie theatre. She was holding her breath, as the car got nearer to the red carpet. She could not believe what she was seeing; there was so many people surrounding the theatre. She looked at Daniel, who was looking at her with an expression of amusement.
“What?” Carla asked him, he just shrugged and looked away, smiling away. Carla frowned but let it pass, tonight was the night where Carla wanted to feel famous. She finally had that chance now and she was not going to spoil it. Or, in any case, let anyone spoil it for her. She took Daniel’s hand in hers and he turned with a little shock look on his face. Carla smiled and gave him a kiss on the mouth. Daniel kissed her back then they broke apart, smiling.
“You ready?” Daniel asked as the car came to a stop.
“As I will ever be.” Carla replied as Daniel opened the door. The first sound that came to her ears was the screams that could have had London tumbled over. She looked around, flashes of lights were everywhere. People screaming her name, waving at her as if they knew her, were everywhere. She was so overwhelmed with the situations that she could have stood there looking stunned all night but, luckily, Daniel was accustomed to the situation that he pulled her to the red carpet. They stopped for awhile to let the people take pictures of them. Daniel placed his hands at her waist and smiled. Carla looked at him with admiration; he was so confident and strong. Then Daniel looked at Carla, before she even knew it, he kissed her. In front of everyone. Distantly, Carla could hear people wolf whistle and clapping, flashes of light going out of control but it didn’t matter, all that matter was Daniel by her side.
The movie was great, she could not believe that she had acted so well. It was a touching story and she could hear people sniffing at the last part where ‘Rose’ and ‘John’ were united. When the credits rolled up, people stood up and clapped for them. Carla was so touch that she almost wanted to cry but she hold back her tears as she did not want to smudge her mascara; she remembered the hassle that she had gone through to achieve ‘Smokey’ eyes. All the producers and actors were asked to go to the front to answer a few questions. Carla saw Sophia when she was walking down the aisle to the front. Sophia beamed at her and gave Carla a hug when they were in close contact.
“Mister Dean, who came up with this wonderful idea of showing people what really happens behind the scene of the life of a superstar and a movie?” asked one of the audiences.
“People always wanted to know about a superstar’s life and behind the scene moments. So I thought; why not give them what they want? So the idea came naturally.” Mr. Dean said, smiling. The audience clapped and the host picked another audience for one last question.
“This one is for Daniel,” Said another audience who was chosen by the host, “Are you and Emma Watson dating?” Carla felt herself getting red; it might just sound just like a question but Carla still got a little hurt by how woefully ignorant some people can get. Didn’t the both of them just kissed outside in front of so many people, fans, paparazzi and the whole universe?
“No. I don’t know how many times I must say this. Emma and I are good friends, that’s all there ever can be. But if you would want to know, I have a girlfriend,” Daniel puts his hand around Carla’s waist, he beamed, “she’s Carla Garner.” Carla could feel herself getting red, she just hoped that it did not show. People all around started applauding, even carla’s mother.
“Carla do you have anything to say?” The host asked.
“Well, um, I want to say thanks to everyone here for coming to catch the movie.” The audience applaud so loud that carla was pretty sure that the floor moved. Then she could feel daniel’s breath in her ears, she leaned in closer so she could hear him whisper.
“Time to party.”

Hey, what's up? I am doing well, just went out to study with Hafizah and Razia! Had fun... Razia and I discussed about the shift of identity in KING LEAR. Did you know that it is a better way to vocal out your ideas to a person on what you think about the book. It' really help. I found out Raz's idea and I thought wow, some of her ideas I didn't even thought before. We agreed that EDMUND are CORDELIA are the only two who lived up to their identity. Edmund really became a bastard and Cordelia, well she knew who she was and who she loved, she did not even need to voice it out about her love to KING LEAR, as she knew words could not describe what she was feeling but too bad KING LEAR was so into himself that he did not understand why CORDELIA could not praise him for being such a good father.
We both also agreed that KING LEAR lost his identity as a King when he started to go mad. As he does not know who he is or he can't accept what he had become. That's when the 1-2-3 of identity comes in. You see to actually own an identity, there's a need of sense of self. And KING LEAR lost that and gain a new identity, a common man. When he was a common man, he started to see the reality that he could not possibly have seen when he was a King.
Yeah, I hoped that helped some people...If you beg to differ, please tag me as I want to get more ideas.....Ok I have done chapter 6...Hope you guys like it....Tag me and tell me what you think.

Chapter 6
“Yes, Daniel. I’d missed you too but look at the bright side, we will be meeting tomorrow!” Carla said to the phone. It’ been six months since she met Daniel, they parted with a last kiss they shared. Carla smiled at that nostalgia. She could hear Daniel sigh at the other end.
“Are you going to hold my hand?” Daniel asked.
“What, to the premier? Are you sure you want people to know? I mean Daniel, you’re big. And you’re already 18. The paparazzi are going to get excited. They’ll be sneaking on us. I mean, you’ve seen the paper about us kissing, after the filming, outside the studio. They said a lot of nasty things.” Carla remembered when she read the paper the next day when she was at the comfort of her bed. She could not believe the headline; “DANIEL HAVE A THING WITH CO-ACTRESS.” She remembered picking up the phone and calling up Daniel, crying. Daniel said it was all part of being famous. Carla thought differed. She thought it was a price being with him but they weren’t a couple or anything. They were just dating.
“What do you consider me as, Carla?”
“What do you mean? I consider you more than a friend.”
“Then hold my hand tomorrow. We will go together, I missed you too much. The video conferencing is not enough. I need to see you; I longed to kiss you every time I see you on the screen. I want all of them to know, you’re my girlfriend.” Daniel said, fast. When the word sink in Carla’s brain, her heart started to beat or they stopped, Carla was not sure. Did Daniel just call her his girlfriend? She could not believe her ears, they must’ve deceived her but, and even so, why was her heart hammering like mad as if they have been fluttered? She knew her heart would not lie to her.
“Blimey Daniel, how can I be your girlfriend? We are so far apart. 8 hours apart to be honest,” Carla said, “you could find another girl, Daniel. I like you but it’s going to be difficult.” Carla could not believe that she was rejecting Daniel. The guy she wanted to be with every fibre of her body. How can she do this to herself? How could she be the one hurting her heart again when all the while it has been nothing but honest with her. Daniel kept silent on the other side of the line. Carla only understood one thing, she was doing this because she did not want to jeopardise Daniel’s career with her holding him back. If they become an item, Carla would want much of his time which he would be unable to give; he already had another project under his belt right after the filming. Not to mention the last of ‘Harry Potter’ movie series. It’s all time consuming; she could already the downfall of the relationship before it even started.
“Carls, baby, I know it’s going to be difficult. But you’re going to be big too, trust me. Then you’re always needed for London. If for six months we can still like each other without meeting, what’s so wrong with another few years? Or what’s wrong with forever? My feelings have developed for you Carla, and if anything, I am the one who has a lot of to lose.” Daniel said to her, Carla smiled, Daniel always help her when her mind is feeling confused and always know how to take away the fear of the future. She felt so happy and with all the fears gone, she agreed to go to the premier of ‘Behind The Scene’ with her. Holding hands, of course.
The next day, Carla woke up early, the dress which was a gift from Prada was hanging in her room, and she loved it when it was first sent to her. She could not believe that it was made to fit her, it was gorgeously in pale pink and the dress length was just above her knees. Not too short and not too long. Whilst admiring that beautiful creation, somebody knocked on the door, and came in Jenny, she brought along a makeup artist with her and two stylists.
“Come on, Carla. Go and take a bath, you stink. We have to be out of the house by 1 pm. The premier starts at nine. And you do remember it’s an 8 hour drive.” Jenny said as she pushed Carla to her bathroom.
“But Daniel said...” Carla, again, was cut.
“I know. He’ll be here by 12. Your mom is given a free ride by the producers. Come on! It’s already seven!”
Carla was confused, getting her ready would not take so long but she soon realize what a hassle it was to get ready for the premier. It was tremendously long and every detailed mattered. Carla was getting agitated with the stylist, they could not decide on what hairstyle she should get. They tried straight, but it just looked like she’s going for a “normal prom night”, they tried the curls but it just look ridiculous on her head.
“Oh my god! Jeremy what is going on here? It’s almost half past twelve and you’re not doing anything with the hair.” Jenny exclaimed, freaking out.
“Jeremy, why don’t you just bun my hair? I think it would look a lot more my age and modern. Is Daniel here yet?” Carla asked Jenny as she felt her hair being combed ferociously as Jeremy was the kind who did like to be told. She could feel her hair being twisted but still she looked at Jenny for answer.
“He’s downstairs, honey.”
“What!” Carla exclaimed, the only thing that kept her from jumping out of her seat was Jeremy; he was tightening the bun so tight that it actually kept her head from moving. Jenny looked at Jeremy’s hand with repulsion.
“You sure that’s not hurting?,” Jenny asked indicating Carla’s head, when Carla did not answer, she continued, “he said that he did not want to spoil the surprise waiting for him.”
“Waiting for him? Does he expect anything from me? But I did not buy anything.”
“Not with things. He wants to see how beautiful you are. Don’t worry, he’s not a prat.” Jenny said as she went out of the room. Carla looked at her reflection. She looked the same except a little different with all the makeup and the hair which was in a tight bun but at the same time it looked loose with all the fringes that came out from the side and her front. Other than that, she looked almost the same. Nothing special. What if Daniel expects her to look like Emma Watson who was gorgeous? Daniel could not possibly thought that Emma Watson as the standard to beat, if he does then Carla thought that he was out of his mind.
“You’re supposed to wear your shoes already.” Jeremy said as he, too, went of the room. Carla slipped on her shoes. They were heels but it was not so high; Carla did not want to tire herself. She walked out of her room and slowly, she saw the tip of Daniel’s head then his shoulders then slowly his whole body when Carla was right behind of him. Carla tapped his shoulder, he turned. He looked at Carla the way he never did before. Carla would find it a little strange if Daniel did not looked so dashing. The more Carla looked at him, the more she wanted more. It was as if she was drinking water after a marathon.
“You looked really beautiful.” Daniel said as he came closer to Carla.
“Daniel, don’t lie. I looked the same.” Carla said, looking at his eyes. They were so blue like an ocean.
“Yeah, I know. That’s the reason why.” Daniel said as he kissed Carla. Cara kissed him back with the longing of the past 6 months. She put her arms around his neck and his hands on her waist. It was just as powerful, if not even stronger.

Hey, everyone! What's up? Well, for me it's been a bad day. I have fallen sick and now I have flu. Looks like another sleepless night for me. I don't know why this has to happen every weekend! I feel likes there is a presence in my room right now but maybe it's just me. Hahaha, I don't know what I am talking about, I am just babbling nonsense!
For everybody who have been reading my story, I have great news for you! I have written chapter 5! It's a tinny weeny long but I hope you like it.

Chapter 5

Days became weeks and weeks became months, the movie filming was almost coming to an end, Carla was feeling a little depressed. She had so much fun the last few months and she was not going to see all the wonderful people she had encounter during the filming again. Sophia bush really was a bigger sister that Carla never had. The both of them had so much fun together and they shared secrets about boys, Carla laughed at that thought by herself. Then there was Daniel, the superstar turned into friend turned into something else. Carla was attracted to him like a magnet but she did not tell him. It would sound so cliché, he was a superstar and falling for him would not be a good idea as he might think that she is just another typical girl. She was, after all, a ‘Harry Potter’ fan. Carla was so deep in her thoughts that she did not hear Daniel coming up to her. They were supposed to be doing the last bit of filming for the next three days, and today was the kissing scene.
“Carla, come on.” Daniel said as he came nearer to her. Carla did not make a single move nor did she seem to notice that Daniel was even there. Daniel smiled and tapped Carla’s shoulder, which seem to wake her up from dreamland.
“Did you say something, Dan?” Carla asked, a little dizzy after that day dream.
“Yeah, come on, filming is going to start.” Daniel said as he took Carla’s hand and walked out of the changing room. Carla still had that tingling excitement whenever Daniel touched her. It seems to make her want to tell him her deepest desire. Carla walked past Sophia’s changing room, it was locked. Sophia had already gone home as her part was done. Carla had to stay till the end as she was the main character and the ending was the kissing scene, Carla did not understand why the director wanted three whole days for this part. However, Carla smiled. This would only mean that Carla would get to kiss Daniel again and again which would be great. She reminisced the first time they kissed (professionally, of course), it was really awesome. Daniel was a great kisser, even Bonnie; the girl who acted as Ginny, said so.
They reached the studio without Carla noticing. The director came to them and talked about angles and how he wanted the scene to go about. Carla nodded calmly which was in contrast with how her heart was beating; fast and excited. When finally the filming start, Carla was so nervous the she forgot her lines and they had to retake the scene so many times that the director was so annoyed that her asked to take a break. Even Daniel seems to be a little agitated by her anxiousness. Carla went to the bathroom and breath calmly. What was wrong with her? Rehearsal was fine, so why was she acting like she doesn’t want to finish this scene. Because you don’t, you want to see Daniel again. If the filming ended, so does the friendship, a little voice said in her mind. Carla looked at her reflection. She have to do the filming right today and put her selfish wants aside. There were still two more days before she and Daniel part. There was still time. Carla walked out of the bathroom and to the studio.
“Adam, I am ready.” Carla said to her director, who was sipping coffee.
“You sure,” Adam asked, Carla nodded her head, “ok then, take your position. Daniel!” Daniel came to Carla’s front, he gave her an encouraging smile.
“So, you ready?” he whispered, Carla nodded. Every time, she thought about what Daniel and her were about to do, her vocabulary seems to always go missing.
“Ok, everyone, we’re about to start,” Adam shouted, “camera?”
“Rolling.”
“3-2-1 action!”
“Rose, I never thought I see you again.” Daniel said, or John said.
“Well, I never dream that I would too but I have something to say to you, john. I missed you. I need you to be with me. I love you.” Carla or Rose said.
“I love you too.” And Daniel’s lips touched Carla’s, they kissed. Fire erupted like never before in Carla’s body. She could feel herself melting away and at the same time became solid. Time passed like a rocket and the kiss deepened. She could feel Daniel’s hand at the back of her neck, gripping on to her as if he did not want to let her go. She tightened her hold on Daniel’s shoulder.
“Cut!” shouted Adam. Daniel and Carla broke apart. Daniel touched his lips, Carla touched her head, she felt a little dizzy and it took a few seconds before she realized what was happening. She could not believe that the kiss was going to be so powerful, it was as if her longing was in the kiss. Adam came jogging towards them.
“That was great, you guys! Wow! I have never seen such chemistry before! Ok then, it’s been 6 hours already, I guess you guys should go and have a rest. Tomorrow, I guess would be the last day. I don’t think there’s a need if you acted like just now. Good job again.” With that Adam left them together. Carla was looking at her foot, what had just happened? The kiss did not felt professional at all. There was so much passion in it, so much longing and so much fire. Carla’s mind was going on a whirlwind contemplation. Daniel tapped her shoulder for the second time that day, Carla looked up at his face. He seemed to have recovered or maybe her did not felt anything at the very first place. Maybe it was only Carla who felt like the world had melted away or tumbled over.
“You want to grab some food?” he asked.
“No.” Carla replied. She needs to stay away from Daniel if she did not want to fall him. She did not want to bruise her heart again. She started to walk to her towards the lift with Daniel tagging along behind her.
“No? Are you ok, Carla?”
“Yeah, I am fine. I am just a little tired, Dan.” The both of them were waiting for the lift. Finally, after 1 minute of silent agony between Carla and Daniel, the lift came and it’s door opened. Carla and Daniel went through and press number 5; the level where the changing rooms were.
“That was some kiss you gave me.” Daniel said as he turned to face Carla. Carla could feel herself blush at the comment. Daniel seemed to come closer and Carla backed away even though her heart was telling her not to. Well, her heart did not need to tell her as the lift was small and she could feel the cold metal was against her back. Carla could not back away any further. The lift door opened but Daniel did not go out instead he puts his hand at both side of Carla so that it acted as a cage. Carla looked down at her shoes, they seem to become very interesting at that moment.
“Carla, I felt it and I know you did too. The kiss was so strong, it’s impossible that you did not feel it. There’s only one reason why it was powerful but I need to hear it from you.” Daniel said, the lift door had closed, the oxygen level was going lower and yet Carla did not speak.
“If you’re not talking to me, Carla. We might die in here unless someone press the button for the lift which I doubt it. At least for the next 15 minutes, we might be suffocating by then.” Daniel said, jokingly. This made Carla smiled but it vanished once she looked at Daniel’s face.
“What do you want me to say, Daniel? That I like you?,” Carla asked, Daniel kept silent, “yes, I do, ok? Happy? Now you’re just going to think I am a little silly girl and...” Carla was cut because Daniel put a finger on her lips.
“I do not think that. I like you too.” Daniel said and with that he kissed Carla again. This time Carla was sure that it was not only her heart in that kiss, she could feel Daniel’s too. The both of them kiss passionately as if there was no tomorrow. When they finally broke apart, Carla pressed the ‘open’ button.
“I needed to do that, if not we would die because of kissing. Literally.” Carla said as the both of them went out of the lift together. With a little more than friendship in their hearts.